Red Witch: Thanks I try at times. And I know all to well how things can get.

Megaroony: Thanks I just hope you know that this is part of my AGU series of fics and you can read about what she talks about in those fics too.

SumomotheChobit: I don't know, I just never liked them. Mostly cause of all the horrible Romy fics out there that I got sick of them. Plus they just don't seem to have much in common and in the series/comics they usually just end up hurting each other. (Mainly Remy hurting her or using her)

Xmenfan: Soon, you really need to learn some patience you know that? If you keep bugging me about it I might not do it just to spite you, or I'll do something like have Wanda's mind tampered again by Mastermind and work for Magneto or just kill her off. Yeah but don't forget how Jean treated the others before mutant were exposed, she ditched them and ignored them for the popular crowd and was just as uptight as Scott was.

Ruby631: Yeah, but he never came back for her, didn't even try so she might be a little upset about that.

slickboy444: Actually that thought gave me an idea for a small fic I might try out later, and AU where Wanda was with Xavier. Plus I always like to try and make the characters grow a bit whenever I can.

Thanks to: Winblades, Damn-my-name-was-taken, TheLegendaryManHimself

WANDA'S THOUGHTS

I hate to admit it but I actually am starting to like writing in this thing, I mean sure it's kind of stereotypical...but it is nice. Well thankfully things seemed to have calmed down around here, or at least as calm as they do get.

Bobby of course pulled a prank on Kurt who retaliated and then Bobby had to get him back and it went back and forth all day until they called a truce. I think it was when Kurt's fur was somehow dyed while taking a shower (mental note check shower head for dye when Bobby had me targeted) and when Bobby somehow got covered in feathers that they called it quits. (How Kurt managed that I don't know, but it was impressive)

And guess what happened today? I went out to the pool to get a little sun and then I got pushed in the damn pool by Roberto. It might have been funny except for one thing...I don't know how to swim. I was so scared cause I was in the deeper end where I couldn't stand but luckily Jean was there and got me out with her powers.

Roberto of course said he was sorry and kept on apologizing either because he was sorry or he didn't want me to get him back, most likely both. Well I was too busy coughing to hex him at the moment anyway. (Mental note: get revenge on Sunspot)

Well you'd think they would have figured out by then that I don't swim since I was never in the pool all this time. Well except in the shallow end and I stood most of the time. So now Xavier wants me to learn how to swim, he said it was good for me and he also said that it might save my life at one point. I wasn't going to argue with him about it.

Actually I stopped arguing about him about a lot of things now...I guess it's because I like him too much to do it. Well then I got swimming lessons now. Ororo is teaching me and my first lesson was the simple things like how to float and tread water and stuff.

When she had me on my back in the water and was holding me above the water with just her hands I kind of freaked a little. But she calmed me down and even though it took a few times I finally leaned how to float a bit in the water. The treading was tougher, I had to keep kicking this certain way and moving my arms too. It was tiring but after a while she told me to stop.

Tomorrow we do it again and she said that next week she would show me the back and breast stokes. Personally I feel like a kid, hell even Jamie and Paige and swim damn it and they're the youngest! Just another thing that I missed out on in my childhood. In fact when I was watching those two have a good time I felt like I did miss out on a lot.

After the pool incident I sat down and watched the others and I mean really watched them. Everyone was having fun and then I noticed a few other things too. Rahne had asked her new boyfriend Joseph over and I watched them.

They were so sweat on each other, and he was so kind and they both blushed several times from something the other said or did, sometimes both of them. Like when he saw her in that swimsuit he looked like he was in heaven. Then I thought back to when I was Rahne's age and I got depressed. I never had the kind of childhood that she has here.

I felt like so much of my life has been stolen from me. The years I spent locked up I should have been out with friends, going to school, going to parties, having a good time, not to mention dates. I feel like I'm trying to catch up sometimes on all that I've missed out on.

Well at least now I seem to be. I mean I got some new friends; well I'm kind of working on that. The sleepover we had was fun and I liked it a lot, the birthday party (before Selene ruined it) was nice too. And now I got a boyfriend.

God I still can't believe it. I mean it just sounds so strange. Me, Wanda Maximoff has a boyfriend...I actually never thought I would find someone in this world that would like me, I mean I know I'm a little hard to get along with and I got a temper...but he still likes me. I still don't know why but I'm thankful for it. He makes me feel better about myself and he makes me happy.

Plus he's a really good kisser.

I've only been out with him a few times but I'm really like him. I mean I keep e-mailing him all the time and talk over the phone when I can. Sure it's kind of hard him being away but when I do see him it's a lot better and I feel so happy to just see him again. But then I miss him when he's not here though.

Although I did have the strangest dream...I was older and get this. I was working with him with SHEILD and then I was getting married to him. He looked so handsome everyone form the Institute and the X-Force guys were there, Lorna was my maid of honor and Xavier gave me away then after it...well...it gets kind of personal at that point, but you get the idea.

God am I falling in love with him? I mean I don't know what love is, so how do I know? And how far is this relationship going to go too? I've thought about a few things like what am I going to do after I'm done high school or get a GED whatever works out for me, but then I got no idea.

Although I do like it here, I have thought about joining SHEILD, I mean I would get to be with my sister and boyfriend...but I don't want to leave this place. This place is starting to fee like the first real home I've had in a long time. Plus there's the fact I'm not sure about something else. Mainly sex. I mean I like Simon and I'm eighteen, I've seen enough R rated movies to know what sex is and Mystique did tell me a few of the female things that happen at puberty, but beyond that I don't know.

I mean how do you know you want to go that far and should you? It's times like this I wish my mom was here, I know she would have helped me through this and a lot of other things too...maybe I can ask some of the older girls or go to Ororo, I get the feeling she might have a few of the answers.

Speaking of relationships I swear if Alex is just playing with Lorna's feelings then I am going to kill him. In fact I said as much to his face and also warned Scott that if he value's his little brother's life he'll make sure of it. Lorna is the only family I got left that I'm on speaking terms with and I want to have a least a chance at a good relationship, unlike I had with Pietro when I got out.

I still wonder about him, I know he betrayed me by keeping the fact that my memories were altered and lied to me about it too...but he's still my brother, my twin. Plus I need to talk to him, I need to get all this stuff I have to say to him out of me. I just want to start letting go of all the pain I have inside me. That's one of the things Xavier has helped me to see.

That I don't need to keep all this pain and anger inside me, plus there are a few thing I just have to saw to his face and a few questions. Like why he never came for me, I know I asked that before but he said he couldn't remember the place, but did he ever bother to try and look for it? To look for me? Plus I need to ask him if he knew about Lorna. I need to know what other things he's kept from me, and I need to tell him how he hurt me by lying to me all those months.

I guess I just want some closure or something...

Anyway I can't wait for these damn renovations to come along. At least then I'll get my own room again, nothing against Rogue or anything but I just need my own space and I think she would agree with me on that one.

Sometimes it would be nice to have a quiet place where I can relax and stuff, there isn't much of that to go around lately but I guess that's another reason for it, plus I heard Warren is trying to get as many work crews as he can get from his business contacts since then it would be faster and take less time. I also heard him grumble about having to pay extra for 'compensation' for working here. I guess some people don't care if you're a mutant if you pay them enough.

Oh yeah I forgot, I got a test today too. After all the studying Mr. McCoy made out a test for my and Sarah, both different of course. I think he did it so he could feel like a teacher again, I do feel kind of sorry he lost out on that, he is a great help to me with the studying, I'm just worried that I failed the stupid thing, I mean that was my first test...ever. Well it would fit my life if I did fail it, I mean so far my life hasn't had the greatest track record that I got to admit.

Well...before I came to live here anyways at least.

I heard from Lorna today, she told me she still wants me to spend the weekend at her house with her mom so she could meet me, and so we can have a 'sisters weekend' together. I'm not sure what that means but I guess I would find out if I go. I'm still a little uneasy about it, I mean this woman was the one my father had gone off with not long after my own mother must have died.

I mean how do you face someone like that? It's not that I hate her or anything but...it would just be strange. But I got to admit if I want to be a sister to Lorna I should do this at one point, plus it would help me to get to know her better seeing the home she lived in and all. I'll ask Xavier about this and see what he thinks then get back to her, maybe we can schedule something in or something.

Well I guess that's all I got to say, I mean I guess in a few days I'll know about that but there seems to be some meeting everyone is supposed to go to now, something about the new improvements for the mansion. I just hope I get my own room after all of this though.