Part 13 - what about what she wanted.

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Emma just stood there in the door way of Jt's room frozen. It was like her heart had stopped and it wasnt going to start back beating ever again. Everything in the 3 months Emma had for Craig just turned into hate. She felt disgusted and hurt all at the same time,which made her want to get sick to her stomach.

"Emma" Craig said while getting up off the bed and walking over to her and Sean."its not what you think" he tried to hug her.

She backed away into the hall.Still stunned at what she had just seen. Those images were never going to leave her mind,not even in 20 years. " H-how could you?" she said while letting a fresh new batch of tears roll down her face and fall to the floor.

"look im SO sorry." he said.

Emma rolled her eyes and stood there staring at him,trying her best to wake up from this nightmare.To know she was going to wake up and be in grade 7 again,when she had her friends and Sean wasnt all cocky about his bad boy reputation,when her mother was happy and so was she. Emma looked him up and down then walked away, but before she did she said very quietly "i hope your happy with the school slut"

Craig tried to go after Emma but Sean stepping infront of him.

" Not cool Craig, not cool" sean said then left to go after Emma.

Emma ran out of Jt's house and into the street. She then ran the whole way to the park. It was empty when she got there,so she walked over to the swing and sat on one. She didnt feel like crying anymore or for that matter,ever. She didnt feel like doing anything really anymore these days. She had to wake up and face the music. Her life sucked. It truely did and what really sucked was that she couldnt do anything about it either. Emma wanted to get away,to have more than 1 friend,sure Jt was an awesome friend, but it wouldnt hurt to have more...she wanted to feel something again for anything. She wanted a boyfriend who wasnt going to use her for sex and when she wouldnt do it with him he wouldnt go cheat on her with her ex-best friend. She wanted her mom to stop stressing out over the money,the house,her,jack,Snake,and Emma. She wanted Snake to get over his cancer for good and she wanted Jack to learn how speak more words. Emma wanted Liberty to forgive her about what she did in grade 10. She wanted Manny to come to her sinces and become the old Manny,again. More than anything though Emma wanted Sean to come back to her and to be hers again. She wanted to get out all of her feelings for everything in the whole enitre world and throw them away. She wanted to see life as something beautiful,to like to environment again and to go clean up the ravigne. Emma wanted to be the normal little smart girl she used to be.

Sean stood in the road thinking about Emma and wondering where she could have gone. Then it came to him. Wheres the one place Emma would always go when she was hurt or needed to think.

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ok ok ok ok ok that was short but i have a writers block and i just got done watching Degrassi! Ellies mom is a WITCH!! anyway i hope you liked this chapter and dont worry the next chapter will be better,i promise!! well you no what to do. R&R!!