Part 14-what about what she wanted pt 2

thanx you all so so so so so so much!! As you all may know,i have a writers block and its KILLING me!!! so im so sorry if this chapter sucks in advance....well here goes nothing...

Paige watched Emma run out of Jt's house,crying her eyes out. She had heard what happened from Sean just then. To her Craig was nothing but an jackass. She hated to hate her one of her boyfriends best-friends but how could he do something so mean to Emma. Didn't he learn anything from the first time when he cheated on Ashley with non-other Manny. Emma was going through alot lately,again and Craig was only making matters worse and Emma did not deserve any of it. She was going to have to do something about this and it wasnt going to be that easy with all the help she needed...

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Emma sat there on the bench in the park trying her best to stop crying. This is where she would ussally sit when she came here. It was right under a big oak tree and right infront of the swing sets...when she would bring Jack here,she would sit here and watch him crawl in the grass or crawl after a butterfly. She wondered how it came to this. How one minute in her life starts to get better then another minute passes and it only gets worse. Why? Why is it that Sean has stolen all kinds of stuff from the school and still had a best friend,peacefull home,sleep...etc. Why is it that Craig can cheat on his girlfriends and still not lose friends or have people hate him. Why is it that Manny can sleep with any guy,or be a witch to her friends and still have a loving family and friends. Why is it that Emma is a smart strong willed person and her life is hell? She makes good grades,she takes care of her family,she is religious,she cares about dorky stuff like the envioronment and still have a life that is worse that hell itself. She only wanted her life to get better for 1 minute,1 day even. Just to know what it feels like to feel something. Its only been 1 week and all ready she wants to give up...

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Sean took off running to the park, he had just seen Emma die inside her body. Craig deserves to die and burn in hell...he just hurt the best girl in the whole entire world and didnt really seem to give a crap. He wanted to tell Emma how he felt for her,he wanted everything to be ok. He really did...It all seemed to be going so fast for him though. One minute he just got transfered to Degrassi for nearly killing a kid in Wasaga,then he kisses Emma for the first time,then Jay comes along,Next thing he knows his brother Tracker is moving out and he is living on his own. Now he is popular and chasing the girl of his dreams in the middle of the night on Halloween Eve.Some life huh. Sean ran all the way to the park and saw Emma sitting on a bench looking up at the sky. Her legs were pulled up to her chin and she was saying something very low, so know one could here her...he guessed.

"hey...em" Sean said very calm while walking up to her. She didnt even say anything,she just sat there looking up. "what were you saying" he asked hoping to bring up a conversation. "you know when,you were looking up into the sky."

She didnt say anything at first,but then spoke up. " I was praying."

At first Sean was a little confused at what she had said,he never prayed before and didnt really indend on trying anytime soon,but when she said that it seemed to him that what he thought didnt really matter anymore. What ever Emma would do was the right thing to do. Sean didnt really know what to say to her..."so umm what did you say?" knowing that was the stupidest question he could ever ask her.

" I told God to stop hurting my family and Me." she said " I told him that we have been through so much crap through the past few years and finally when things start to clear up just a tad bit,they start to go back down to hell." tears started to run down again. " I told him i was tired of getting hurt by the ones that i care the most about and the ones who i needed most in my life that dont give a shit anymore."

Sean knew that Emma was talking mostly about him. He knew that in grade 9 that he was an idiot for letting her go and shutting her out of his life. He knew that Craig was going to hurt her but for some reason he couldnt stop him. Sean just sat there holding Emma,comforting her,telling her that everything was going to be ok. Telling her that he loved her and finally she stopped crying for one second. Emma looked up at Sean. He was staring at the oak tree. It was where they had there first kiss and it brought back so many memories. From there serious make out sessions on her bed to his place on his couch on Friday nights....Emma sat there watching Sean look around. There eyes finally met,Emma noticed how she would get lost in his eyes and she would melt away. Sean wiped the remaining tears from her face and brushed off the hair from her face to the back of her ears. Emma knew what was coming up and she didnt want it to happen but part of her did. Sean cupped his hands on her face and pulled her to him making there bodies touch and he kissed her. This time Emma wasnt going to let herself get caught up with her love life. She wanted to kiss him but this wasnt the right time....she pulled away and stood up. Leaving Sean there confused and hurt. Emma just ran home.

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The next day at school Paige saw Emma. She looked really good today,Emma had on blue jean hip huggers,a white tank top with a black knit shaw over it. Her hair was up in a ponytail and has on white 3 in flip flops. You couldn't tell what she was going through at all. Paige decided to go ahead and talk to her.

"Hey Emma." Paige said while walking over to Emma's locker.

"Umm hey Paige." Emma said,while shutting her locker door.

" So how are you?" she asked.

" Fine i guess." she said "Why do you ask?"

" Well with your family and what Craig did to you. He is such a jackass." Paige said while getting red with anger, if there was nothing more in this world that she hated was a cheater and a lier put together.

"oh...that well im fine..." Emma said.

BBRRRRIIIINNNNGGG!!!!!!!!

" hey well before you go to class why dont you meet me at the Dot after school." Paige suggested " Hazel,Jimmy,Spinner,Marco, and me will be there so join us."

Emma thought for a minute then decided to go." ok,i guess i could stop by for a minute." and with that they both walked away in opposite directions.

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ok so that SUCKED!! lol it gets better i promise you that!!!

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