Sorry about the long delay. I've been away from my computer. I was at my dad's and I forgot to save all of the chapters on a disk...OOPS! Well, the story is getting kinda slow, but I'm working on chapter 6 and it is speeding up. Most of this stuff is journal entries. Forgive me............HikariMoriyakuRaven
Chapter 3: Wake Up
Beastboy sat with Raven in the Infirmary. Cyborg had placed several stitches in each of her wrists. There was two needles going into her body. The one in her hand was giving her nutrients. The other was in her arm putting blood back into her body. Beastboy sat next to her holding the two books that she would never let anyone read. There was a note attached to them when he went into her room.
I'm sorry for doing this, but I had no choice. I am alone. This was the only answer. I am giving these two books to you. Read them if you want. Just don't let anyone else read them. It means a lot to me if you don't. I guess that I couldn't trust them to anyone else. I'm sorry.
Raven
Beastboy had read that note a thousand times. Raven had given him two very important books. He read only one entry of each. There were too dark for him to read alone. They were only to be read around her. Beastboy opened the older book and flipped through it. He came to a poem.
'Yami no Hikari" (darkness and light)
I was so close to dying
I felt it there
It felt so cold
No one seemed to care
I'm waking up
Thanks to him
I'm not frozen
The end will never begin
The darkness is residing
There is a bright light
I don't have to fear
The cold, lonely night
I can't describe this
I've never felt it before
It had reached into me
And taken my core
There is still this darkness
It won't go away
Just as long as I have you
The light will stay
So, don't leave me
I don't want to go back
Then I will lose
The light that I lack
Tears dripped from Beastboy's emerald eyes. She was talking about him. Raven had given in to him. That is why she kept it locked away. She couldn't feel. That is how it was supposed to be until the day she died.
'She's not dead. She's alive. Why did I let her do this? Why was I so blind? Why didn't I do something earlier?' he kept asking himself.
He flipped to the back of the book. There was a song that made him pause.
I heard this song from his bedroom. I like it. I wonder when he will notice. I guess he never will. I am ment to be alone. Here is the song.
I'm not sober all the time
You bring me down at least you try
Until we see this eye to eye
I don't want you
I must be running out of luck
Cause you're just not drunk enough to fuck
And now I've had it up to here
I don't want you
It took so long to see
You walked away from me
When I need you
Wake up I'm pounding on the door
I'm not the man I was before
Where the hell are you
When I need you
Wake up I'm pounding on the door
I won't hurt you anymore
Where the hell are you
When I need you
I'm not angry all the time
You push me down, at least you try
Until we see this eye to eye
I don't want you
Wake up I'm pounding on the door
I'm not the man I was before
Where the hell are you
When I need you
Wake up I'm pounding on the door
I won't hurt you anymore
Where the hell are you
When I need you
Beastboy's eyes grew.
"This is one of my songs! I didn't know she listened!"
The words ran through his head. He had only played that song a couple of times. He didn't like it that much, but Raven did. Raven liked it.
"I'm sorry for never noticing you, Rae," he whispered. "If I noticed you earlier, you wouldn't be lying here and I wouldn't be this depressed."
He stood up and walked over to her. She was sleeping peacefully. Beastboy smiled. He leaned down and kissed her cheek.
"I love you, Raven," he whispered in her ear.
Then, he left, leaving Raven to wake up alone.