The story is what Paige was thinking the night that Dean was found innocent. She is lying alone in her room and re-thinking everything that has gone on. One-shot
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Those shoes I needed them, they would complete who I was going to be that night. I spent that whole afternoon painting my face making myself someone Dean would want. I wanted him to want me more than anything. I brake plans with someone I have always crushed on so I could be with Dean. That girl she tried to warn me and I didn't listen I didn't want to here it, the Paige that was there that night didn't want to listen to anything anyone wanted to say.
Spinner I had to avoid him, that's all I wanted to do was make sure he wasn't hurt. I suggested going upstairs into that room where my innocence was stolen from me. He threw me down and turned me down a new road one I didn't want to take. When I saw the condom and heard him open it my whole body was shaking. How could he do this? Why wouldn't he stop, he should have known better.
My mind was flooding with images of my life. Mom, Dad, Dylan, Hazel, my grandparents, all flashed in front of my face. He kept pushing me down harder and harder it hurt like hell I was crying and telling him to stop but just like me he didn't want to here it. I got what I asked for I bought that outfit and those shoes, I told him to take me upstairs.
That song "Poor thing," he didn't even hear what I was saying he didn't care about what he did. He took my body and tore it in half that line should be lying in Dean's head playing over and over again. Everything that my life me to me was taken away, poor thing I am no one's poor thing right? No one could save me that night. Not guilty he committed a crime and no one can do anything about it.
My life has been changed completely; I still have nightmares about him they are never ending. This is a vicious cycle that will never go away. 2 years later he is still on top of me holding me down and violating every part I kept for myself. The pain I felt running home that night when it was done is still in me.
The memories will never go away because the Paige really did go upstairs that night and she never came down. My soul is lying in that room, my innocence and my virginity is still there never coming back.
This has been a life changing experience that will stay with me forever. Sex is something I don't even know I could ever do again. Ever time I am even just kissing Spinner Deans face is right in front of me holding me down. He has stolen everything from me and he is still innocent