Chapter 7- I've Gone Crazy

I cut before. I know I told you guys that right.The marks..the marks are gone now.But in jail I just couldn't controll my pain in there so I cut again but those cuts were almost unnoticble now so how could they have known? I was scared and confused and didn't know what to do. I knew that if I went to Craig he would be like.. I don't know say.. we can't talk in public but yet he can still rape me that suprises me alot since you know it's Craig. oh yeah did I tell you I'm pregnant yeah great huh now who are they going to blame when my stomach gets big defintly not Craig. Since he's Paiges boyfriend and know ones going to belive because know one wants to be hated by Paige. Now Emma's mad at me for nothing. I mean didn't she get it before....Paige isn't always right and she will do anything to hurt her enimes but since she is so caught up in trying to be her best friend she choose what Paige said over what I said and has been ignoring me ever since even though we live together. Everyone has been ignoring me ever since they think I'm crazy, they started whispering about me in the hallways when I walk by and they glare at me. I've been hearing that people think that I was in a mental hospitol instead of jail, people say I'm anorexic or baulimic, people say I'm a lesbo, people think I cut like Ellie. I mean Ellie came up to me durning lunch when I was sitting alone and asked if I wanted to talk about my cutting problem. I just looked at her and left. I sit by myself at lunch now..it's either outside or in the bathroom because there is no room in the caffateria. I talk to myself now, I mean I make the dumbest jokes and laugh at myself. I'm alone and affraid I mean even baby Jack won't even talk to me I don't even see that same gleam and beem I used too from him. I'm one of the biggest outcast of school now I have gone so low that Rick is cooler than me. I swear I am depressd but I don't want to tell anyone it's not like they would look at me or even listen. I swear I am going crazy. But I'm not the only one that thinks that.

I was in the hall way walking to my next class when Mr. Right aka Craig comes up to me and starts talking.

"Hey" he said

I tried to avoid eye contact with him I mean just looking at him made me sick now so I just looked down at the ground

"Why such a long face?" he asked

I staied quiet and kept on looking at the ground

"Manny..earth to Manny" he said

"Oh are you talking to me" I asked

"Yeah there is only two people in this hallway and thats you and me." he said

I looked up and around and saw that know one else was in the hallway that was weird but I looked back at the ground.

"Oh...Are you talking to me because Queen Elizabeth isn't standing her with you." I said still walking and facing the ground.

"No..I'm talking to you because I want to I wouldn't care if "Queen Elizabeth" as you call her was here I still want to talk to you." he said

"Are you sure because it seems like when Queen Elizbeth is here you ignore me mock me and spit on me but when she's gone you suduce me try to kiss me and rape me." I said

"Manny you know you still love me so it's not rape " he said

"Craig I don't know if I love you or not I most likaly don't...but I do know that I said no that day" I said glaring at him

"Manny come on " he said "Don 't take it so personal it's not like it was your first time"

"Craig do you rember the effects from last time." I said "Do you rember how hurt I was for months over Alyssa"

"It was just a year" he said

"Just a year...was that all it was to you...because you wern't the one that..." I started but he stooped me

"Manny...Manny..we had this talk before the whole you wern't the one who saw your baby die you wern't the one that..blah blah blah" he said "It's not like it's going to happen again there is no baby right." he said

"Are you sure" I said

"Are you sure what are you talking about." he asked

I was going to answer but then someone tapped me on the shoulder

"Hello Manny" a deep voice said

"Oh my gosh" I said turning around "Hi..Mr. Raditch"

A lady with a white outfit on that had the name tag Marcy on it was standing next to him she had a suitcase in her hands. She looked like one of those ladies who worked with crazy people. Why is she at our school?

"Manny this Marcy she works at the health for teens it's a place that help teens with there problems...she's going to take you away...it's ok we've already talked to your mom and dad about it." he said

"What are you talking about Mr. Raditch" I asked

"Manny we've been hearing stories and we have come to the decison that you need help." he said

"Need help...Mr. Raditch I'm fine.." I said

"Just come with me Manny....I know it's going to be hard." Marcy said

"Mr. Raditch are you sending me to a nut house...a crazy place...a mental institute." I asked

"Your going to get help" Marcy said

"Mr. Raditch don't don't do this to me" I said about to cry "I'm fine I'm not crazy don't, don't, don't please" I said

Craig was just standing there watching me cry

"Craig do something tell them I'm not crazy" I said

"Thank you Craig you can go now." Mr. Raditch said and handed him 20 bucks

"Thank you why are you saying thankyou?" I asked I was confused

"Manny are you pregnant?" he whisperd

I didn't care if I was pregnant right now I wanted to get Marcy off of me

"Craig tell her to let me go tell her to leave me alone." I said crying

"Manny" he said

"Craig tell her to leave me alone tell her to let go" I said

Craig just walked away

"Craig I loveyou" I said maybe then he will tell them I'm not crazy

He was at the end of the halway and he staired at me

"Well I've been thinking a lot tese past few days and you really hurt me..by telling me you didn't love me so sorry Manny" he said just standing there

He stood there and watched me while I screamed his name over and over louder and louder echoing through the halways

"Craig..." I would scream "Craig come get me please come help me I love you...Craig Craig" I kept on screaming with out stopping

I finally got out of Marcy's grip and started running but there were more than just one person there. There were alot in every corner and one grabbed me and the other one braught out a needel and gave me a shot. I started to feel really sleapy but I kept on saying it

"Craig..Craig come get me please come help me I love you...Craig...Craig" I said untill I finally passed out.