Author: Yumari Kreuz
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Scribbles #2
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I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road
The music floated across the room; I heard it, but it was more of a distant hum as soon as it reached my ears. I could barely even make out the words of the song as they were muffled by the wild beating of my heart. Then again, I don't know why I even bothered playing that CD. Truth be told, I don't even remember picking it up and putting it in the player. My sense of comprehension has long left me and it didn't seem to want to return anytime soon.
We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around disappears
I can't believe myself. I can't believe I got so worked up back there. He was just leaving to follow his dream and I, of all people, should have understood that. But like I said, my rationality left as soon as my emotions got hold of me.
Just you and me
on this island of hope
a breath between us could be miles
I hadn't even bothered to move as soon as my body hit the mattress. I was too tired. Too tired to even mind that if I didn't, I would be hurting all over in the morning.
Like I cared.
Let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek
I continued to stare at the ceiling, until my eyes hurt from focusing into the light and I finally conceded into closing them and curling to my side as a voice told me to stop torturing myself.
So, I did care.
Oh, who am I kidding? Of course I cared! I cared so much... It hurts. I thought after all that has happened for the past months in Seirin, things would be going back to normal. And that one night at the rooftop... I thought... I thought everything's finally looking better for us.
I guess it was really just me thinking those things...
But was it even wrong to hope?
"I'm leaving for California."
Oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away
I could still hear him, his voice ringing in my ears. The sharp pang that I had felt when he had said those words remained gripping at my heart like a vice. I tried to cry for release, but my tears have long dried up...
And I forgot to tell you
I love you
and the night's too long
and cold here without you
I gave up trying as my consciousness drifted away, the image of my apartment door closing flashing through my mind.
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the strength
to say I need you so
You just walked away...
Tsuzuku
Author's Note: I know... I know... I disappear for a long time then I just appear out of nowhere and post a REALLY short installment for the fic. And to think I would've done more during my absence, but noooo! XD sigh Gomen ne, minna-san, but a lot has been happening lately and I had to address them first. (Read: SCHOOL.) But I won't bore you anymore with the details so... Let me just greet all of you a HAPPY CHRISTMAS! X3
Kairi21: Waaah! Sana gumawa sila GTO Season 2!! Ish unfair, ish unfair!
Miguel Artadi: Heeey! Eto na! X3
Allence of the Weed: Allence-san! I was browsing through the bios of GTO writers, and I found out that you included this story in your favorite list... WAI!
Cattleya Glory: Thank you very much! Huhu... I hope this chapter did fine.
darkphoenixlord: Uy, salamat, pare! Hehe, nabasa ko nga pala bio mo... ASTEG!
Princess-asturia: Ehehe... Sorry for the cliffhanger back in chapter 1... But here it is... Again. I just can't seem to do away with cliffies...
Seth7: Thank you! I'm intending to upload the next chapter soon.
Ice Wolf17: Thanks! Ehehe, I thought about that, too. But Fuyutsuki-chan had no control over her feelings at that time and I thought the 'Damn you' would sound natural enough to have been uttered/thought of by someone who's in the same position as she was. Ehehe...
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Disclaimer: The song featured in this chapter is entitled I Love You by Sarah McLachlan. I'm just borrowing... X3