Okay here's another song fic, mmmm I do them a lot don't I. Ow well I listened to this song and it just was so fitting. I just had to use it. Hope you enjoy it.
Song: Three days grace – I hate everything about you.
P.S for all you sick minded people out there, it just father-son love, okay???
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry potter, its characters or the lyrics.
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
I keep on staring to the ceiling. Watching the shadows dance, playing with each other. I let out a heaving sigh. Things are so confusing right now.
It used to be so simple, You told me to hate everyone, I obeyed. You told me that I was a disgrace. I believed you. You hit me, I kept it quite.
But now, things have changed so much. First, potter sends you to Azkaban. I didn't miss you. No, in a freakish twisted way, I kind of liked it.
For the first time in my life, you wasn't there, I could make my own choices. First it was so strange, I didn't know what to do. I always did what you told me.
I started to make friends, real friends. Not just some blockheads who would follow me around, no, real friends.
People that cared about me. Stood by my side. I feel a small smile tick at my mouth. Yes friends, after 17 years I finally realized what I missed, friends.
Friends, such an amazing things they are. I used to have nightmares, about you. You standing above me, looking down at me. Telling me that I failed you.
No I don't miss one single part of that.
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
But still, there's something missing. I never thought I might think this but, I miss you dad. I miss the strange way you cared about me. The way you looked at me. The very few times you told me that you we're proud of me.
Yes I miss those times. I miss you, I worshipped you, and I loved you father.
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know?
I wonder, do you know I love you? Do you know you love me? Or is it just a mere illusion, made by my silly imagination. You hated me, you once told me. I hurt farther, it hurt badly, it hurt more than everything you did. Yes, it hurt so much, too much.
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate you, you hate me. Yet, I love you dad. I want you to hold me, tell me it will be all right. Telling me you're proud, telling me that I'm truly a son of you.
Another heavy sigh escapes my lips. No that would be impossible. You wouldn't do that. You hate me. You love me.
And I, I Do the same my father.
I leave they shadows alone, turning to the wall. And slowly, ever so slowly, fall into a peaceful slumber. Knowing that some where deep down, you still love me.
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
That's another one down, please review and let me know what you think!!!!