A/N: I'm sry guys for not putting something up in ferever. ive been extremely busy. i might do something during winter break...if i have time.tear I didn't really participate in the contest cuze i ended up judging. yay. it was pretty fun. :P hope you like my story, its a bit morepg13 than usual. maybe thatll get a different crowd of people. i dunno. lol ok enough blabbering, shutting now.
I was sitting outside on some rocks watching the sun go down when I saw a guy sitting a little ways away with his head between his knees. He lifted his hands and strung them through his hair causing his head to lift slightly. That's when I saw that it was Paul. He didn't look like he was at all happy. I thought I could actually see a tear in his eye. Now, normally I wouldn't have done anything about this, but come on. I wasn't that mean. Paul was obviously going through some stuff right now; I couldn't just leave him there. Genuinely concerned, I walked over to him. He stood up and leaned against a tall rock. He looked towards the ocean with what looked like deep thought. When I was within a few feet of him, Paul finally saw me. I guess he was embarrassed because he certainly didn't look happy to see me.
"Paul, what are you doing here? Are you okay?"
He gave a frustrated sound and crossed his arms. "I'm fine."
"Paul, you don't look fine..." I said cutting myself off. He had turned away from me when he saw me. But now he finally turned back and met my eyes and looked at me with what I thought was hurt in his eyes.
"It's just..." he said breaking off. "I just can't win, you know?"
"Paul, I'm sorry but...well sometimes you don't always get what you want."
But Paul just shook his head. "No. That's not true. I always get what I want," he said obviously frustrated. "And Suze?" he asked looking into my eyes with what I could see now was definately hurt. "What I want is you."
Suddenly I got pretty uncomfortable. I mean, you try keeping your cool when a guy makes this kind of confesssion to you.
He put his arm around me. What was weird was it wasn't in a sudductive way like he usually did. He didn't pull me in towards him or anything like that. Which I was plenty grateful for. "You know you want me too," he said taking a step closer. This proceeded to make me even more uncomfortable. "Why do you keep fighting it? And don't tell me it's because of Jesse. That's not it. It's something else..."
"Paul..." I started. I don't know what I was going to say but I suddenly did a complete 180. "Why do you keep doing this Paul?"
"Because Suze. I know you want the same thing I do...I've never felt this way about someone before."
I have to admit I lost my breath there for a second. I mean, did he just say that to me? There was no way PAUL SLATER would let his guard down like that. No way.
"Paul..I.."
But he didn't let me finish. He pulled me into the softest kiss I had ever had. He brought his other hand to my neck and softly carressed it while applying some pressure to the small of my back.
I'll tell you one thing. No one had ever touched me like that before. The only word I could think of to decribe the way he touched my back was...well..sexy.
I hated to think it. But, well..there it is. I said it.
I moved my hand to his waist. Then pressed against his chest and abs moving my hand up and down and eventually finding my way up his shirt. I ran my other hand towards his upper chest and took a step closer making him lean against the rock.
I didn't know what I was thinking. I guess I just couldn't resist him, the way he was kissing me running his hand down my side and back up again. I felt terrible about it, and yet at the same time I didn't care. I knew that Jesse and I didn't have a chance. I began to realize that I might have wanted Paul just as bad as he wanted me. I mean, I was definately getting major tingles and fireworks inside of me. They seemed to explode everytime Paul touched me or moved his hand from my neck to my hair. I was overcome when Paul moved his lips from my mouth to my neck, kissing it and spreading his warmth throughout my body. It made me fell...well alive. Not that I felt dead before. But comparitively,yes. Compared to how alive I was feeling right now I had been a walking zombie for the whole of my life.
We sank down to the ground and I ran my hands up his shirt making it raise up quite a bit and causing Paul to sink down under me in pleasure. Although he certainly did not go alone. I dipped down after him as well and began grazing his 6 pack with my mouth. Paul's mouth didn't respond, but his body sure did. I could feel the bliss errupting throughout his body and then he gently took hold of my sides and lead my face back towards him in to yet another kiss. Then rolling me over and touching me all over as he never had before. His hands traveling to the waistline of my shirt then grabbing my waist and massaging their way to the small of my back and then mustering out, "Oh suze."
A/N: well i just reread this from forever ago and dang lol. a lil more sexual than usual. hope thats ok, but i mean, the title does ward off most of the people who would be offended i think. shrugs hope you like it.