*~*~Hey hey ppl! Well lookz lyke we rily _are_ getting sumwhere, ne? lolz
well we all left off where Sakura went crazy all over Syaoran's mouth! HOW
THOUGHTFUL!!! ^_^ lol jm So, Syaoran stopped her *OH NO!* Be sure to R&R
and enjoy!~*~*
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~@~ DISCLAIMER: I do not own CCS...but I'll tell you what I _DO_ own...--aw shoot...it's nothing...-_-;;~@~
~*~Wonderful Journey~*~
By: maixwolfblossom
~^~CHAPPIE NINE~^~
--_Now I See The Light_—
Key Symbols:
**: action or bold
_: italics
() Author's notes
~*~ someone's P.O.V (point of view)
~~~ Dream
*~* Flashback
~~~~***~***~~~~ Scene Separator
~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~
~_RECAP:
Sakura couldn't help herself. She wrapped her arms around Syaoran's neck and kissed him intensely. Her lips burned for more. She yearned for the taste of him. As her lips moved softly upon Syaoran's, he responded slightly, but hesitantly. Sakura parted her lips invitingly--
Syaoran broke away panting, "Stop..."
~^~END OF RECAP~^~
Syaoran turned away from Sakura. Sakura's eyes were open wide, '_What have I done?!? OMG!!! I STOLE MY OWN FIRST KISS!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!...Oh no...AND SYAORAN DOESN'T EVEN LIKE ME!_' (*ahem*)
Sakura blinked away the tears as they slipped freely down her pale face.
"...Gomen..."
Sakura stared at Syaoran's turned away back as he shook his head.
Her heart slowly shattered into almost nothing. She felt ashamed throwing herself at him, like she was a desperate fool.
"Why are you changing yourself???"
Sakura looked up, confused. His sudden question startled her, "What???"
Syaoran turned to her, with his eyes flashing dangerously making her recoil in fear, "You heard me. This isn't the Sakura I know."
Sakura stared at him in total confusion. How could he say such a thing???
She couldn't take it anymore...anger raised within her cold, shattered heart. She stood up from the swing and defiantly glared at him in fury. Syaoran was in for a rude awakening.
~~~***~***~~~~***~***Meanwhile, inside the house***~***~~~~***~~~~
TV/Movie ("GONE WITH THE WIND"):
"We could've been happy with Bonnie in our lives..."
Scarlet fell onto her knees watching her husband pack his stuff.
"We _could_ still have memories! I love you!"
There was no response from Cleave as he looked at Scarlet's face in longing.
But, nonetheless, no matter how much he loved her, he knew she would never love him like he loved her.
Scarlet, seeing that he wasn't going to change his mind, spoke up frantically as she followed her husband to the front door, "What will I do? Where will I go?"
Her husband looked at her with desire and opened the door.
Halfway through it, he spoke his last words.
"Frankly, my dear, I don't give a darn," With that, he shut the door. Leaving Scarlet O' Hara crying on the floor.
~*~TOMOYO & ERIOL~*~
Tomoyo and Eriol soon found themselves weeping by the television.
"P-pass me the Kleenex, please," Eriol asked as he wiped a tear away.
Tomoyo grabbed one Kleenex before she shakily handed the Kleenex box to Eriol.
"I-I never knew you had a sensitive side, E-eriol," Tomoyo wept as she blew her nose.
"M-me neither, but Scarlet...she was a fool to love that guy Ashley!" Eriol broke out into sobs. The two cried together, hugging.
Soon enough, their sobbing ceased.
Tomoyo glanced at Eriol's azure eyes, only to see him gazing back. They were caught in each other's gazes, never taking their eyes off each other.
Eriol glanced at Tomoyo's shiny, pink lips and looked at her with yearning and the urge to...uh...*ahem*...*drool*
Eriol didn't know what had gotten into him. His eyes roamed her lips; he could almost taste them...and that's just what he did.
(A/N: ^^ Naughty Naughty Eriol...^^)
Tomoyo and Eriol soon found themselves in a blood-rushing kiss. Eriol pushed Tomoyo back against the armrest of the sofa as Tomoyo pressed her body onto his, moaning into his mouth. It was a sweet, tortured longing that kept the two in total bliss. They would've stayed longer into it if air weren't an option.
Soon the two stared into each other's eyes, not believing what they just experienced.
Now who could not deny the passion that they shared for the other. The yearning for each other's touch. The love that bloomed overtook their souls and hearts.
~~~~***~***Meanwhile, outside w/ Saku & Syao***~***~~~~
Sakura looked at Syaoran with disbelief and fury, '_How can he be so cruel when this was all for him!_'
"Syaoran... I can't believe you would ask that!" Sakura felt more enraging tears make their way out.
Syaoran's anger grew by the minute, but he tried to keep his cool, "Where's the Sakura I knew back then? You're being something your not and it's driving me crazy! This isn't the Sakura I knew all my life. This is someone else."
Sakura's eyes lit up with fire, she didn't listen to a word he said; _that_ was her mistake. For all she cared, she didn't give a _damn_ about what he thought.
"You know what, Li!" Syaoran felt his hand clench at his side, hearing his last name come from her lips.
"I did all of this just for you!" Sakura looked down as she panted helplessly from yelling. It took all of her strength and will power, but she finally said it, "Sometimes I just think...I wasn't good enough...!"
Syaoran's felt his anger lower down as confusion penetrated his angry thoughts, "What do you mean?"
Sakura's eyes flashed with pain. Seeing that he was reading her emotions, she turned away.
"When you left for China to marry Meiling, I thought that any minute, you would turn around and just leave with me.... But no! You never came back!...But I knew you would someday...I changed myself all for _you_!" She turned to him, bearing her soul, and exposing her feelings to her one and only love.
Syaoran's eyes widened in sheer shock hearing Sakura pour out her grief.
Sakura thought she would never stop her ongoing confessions. Each and every word poured out of her mouth and it would just hurt her every second.
"I waited, night and day, wishing that it were all a horrible dream! But you know what? Now I see the light. No matter how much I try, I will never be good enough! Li Syaoran, good-bye!"
Furious tears streamed down her heated face and she ran inside the house to get her things. She found herself in front of Eriol and Tomoyo's alarmed faces.
They were still hugging each other.
Sakura smiled a small, watery smile. "Good luck you guys," was all she said.
She ran out the door and ran from Syaoran's house; running out of Syaoran's life.
~~~~***~***~~~~THE NEXT MORNING~~~~***~***~~~~
~*~SAKURA'S POV~*~
I dragged my lowly self out of bed and went into the bathroom. I've never felt so tired and pathetic in my whole, entire life.
I looked at my reflection; I could hardly even tell that it was me. I glanced at the top of my head; my black hair color was fading into auburn. My eyes were bloodshot and puffy from crying last night. But...my appearance wasn't as broken as my heart.
I don't know how I'll ever face him ever again. Things will never be the same. All through the night, thoughts raced throughout my mind, '_Should I stay or should I go?_'
My heart told me to stay and work things out, but I knew that Syaoran would never accept me for who I am, or who I _was_.
He doesn't love me...He never did...I was just some stupid girl who fell in love with him again and again...and I'm tired of it...
But I love him too much to let him out of my heart...maybe I should...stay...?
The answer soon came to me; I knew what I was going to do.
(")(") (") _ (") ("\ ^_^ /") (")(") (") _ (") ("\ ^_^ /") (")(") (") _ (") ("\ ^_^ /")
A/N: *sniff* C'MON SAKU!!! MAKE THE RITE DECISION!!! *sniff* Oh I think I need a Kleenex too! *checks Kleenex box* AGH! DAMN YOU ERIOL! DAMN YOU TOMOYO!!! WE'RE OUT OF KLEENEX! *smashes box* I need a cookie...I seem to have plenty of those these days...*munch* RE--*cough* REVIEW!!! (phew...I think that cookie went down the wrong way!)
Ja Ne,
maixwolfblossom
Thnx tooh:
lilqtazn45: *alarms sound* CONGRADULATIONNNNSSSSS!!! U ARE THE 100th REVIEWER OF THIS FICCCC!!! ^_^ I KISS YOUR FEET *muah!!!* lolz I dedicate this chappie to you! Thnx so much for reviewing!
Carmela-chan: lolz thnx for reviewing! ^_^
seiko123: YESSS! I managed to update! ^_^ lolz thnx for reviewing!
Kikakai: Thnx for reviewing! And lemme juss sae that your shocked state is about to get worse this chappie! *wuh-oh* so just expect a big shocker in this chap! ^_^
YingFa-lilWolf-lover: lolz Thnx so much for your words of reassurance *phew* it really kinda relieved me! ^_^;; lolz Thank you for reviewing!
anjuliet: HA! I got the famous "Ms. Figures Everything Out" all confused!!! Lol jm don't kill me, oh great one! I bow down at your feet! (lol jm again) But thnx for reviewingggg!!! =^.~=
Silver Wolf Gurl: lol don't sweat it! Your one was all I need to be happy! So don't worry. Thnx for reviewing!
Emarista the Torturer: ! (lol ^_^) Thnx for reviewing!
Fant@sy K@t: lol don't sweat it. And don't worry, your questions will be answered soon enough =^.~= Thnx for reviewing!
babybluestarangel: yup yup! Tru dat, mah sista, tru dat... lol jm don't get all weirded out on meeh now (lol but I think it's a lil too late to sae that now, eh? Lolz). Thnx for reviewing! ^_^
Fluffylittledragon: awwwwww O.O YOU HAVE SUCH A KAWAII PENNAMEEE...*sigh* seriously...people now-a-days have so many KYOOTER pennames than I doo T.T IT'Z LYKE A CONSPIRACY!!! Lol jm jm I'm getting a lil out of topic here...lol and no, I haven't explained abt the contacts...but you'll b surprised THIS chappie! Heeheeh...Thnx for reviewing!!!
linda-liu: Thnx for reviewing!
SyaoranzCherryBlossom: WUT?!? YOU UNDERSTAND NOW?!?!? *nooooooooooooooooo!!!!* NOBODY'S supposed to UNDERSTAND!!! NOBODY DOOEEESSSSSS!!!....*gasp*...until.....NOWWWWWW!!!!!!........*whispers to self* "mebe...mebe if I _silence_ SyaoranzCherryBlossom..._forever_ she won't spread what she's found out....yessss.... Hehehehehhhhh...." *looks up at SyaoranzCherryBlossom with a murderous smile* "H-Hiii, S- SyaoranzCherryBlossom...c-come....CLOSER..." *SyaoranzCherryBlossom notices the look and runs away* "COME ON!!! I JUST WANNA TALK!!!"
Sun+Moon,Earth+Sky: Thnx for reviewing! ^_^
LiLfieRYwoLf: 0^___^0 lol thnx for the compliment!!! *blush* Thank you for your review!!!
sweet-captor: Thnx for reviewing!!! ^_^
Manga_lover123: Ya know, I was just about to _not_ update until u sed "please" so, because of your sign of politeness, I shall update! And I did!! Lolz Thnx for your review!!!
li-love-sakura: no no no! Thank YOU for reviewing!!! Lolz ^_^
elisabeth (lizzie5555555@hotmail.com): You'll see. THNX FOR REVIEWING!!! ^_^
KawaiiCB(KawaiiCB@aol.com): Thankies for reviewing! 0^___^0 and for the compliment too!
~@~ DISCLAIMER: I do not own CCS...but I'll tell you what I _DO_ own...--aw shoot...it's nothing...-_-;;~@~
~*~Wonderful Journey~*~
By: maixwolfblossom
~^~CHAPPIE NINE~^~
--_Now I See The Light_—
Key Symbols:
**: action or bold
_: italics
() Author's notes
~*~ someone's P.O.V (point of view)
~~~ Dream
*~* Flashback
~~~~***~***~~~~ Scene Separator
~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~***~***~~~~
~_RECAP:
Sakura couldn't help herself. She wrapped her arms around Syaoran's neck and kissed him intensely. Her lips burned for more. She yearned for the taste of him. As her lips moved softly upon Syaoran's, he responded slightly, but hesitantly. Sakura parted her lips invitingly--
Syaoran broke away panting, "Stop..."
~^~END OF RECAP~^~
Syaoran turned away from Sakura. Sakura's eyes were open wide, '_What have I done?!? OMG!!! I STOLE MY OWN FIRST KISS!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!...Oh no...AND SYAORAN DOESN'T EVEN LIKE ME!_' (*ahem*)
Sakura blinked away the tears as they slipped freely down her pale face.
"...Gomen..."
Sakura stared at Syaoran's turned away back as he shook his head.
Her heart slowly shattered into almost nothing. She felt ashamed throwing herself at him, like she was a desperate fool.
"Why are you changing yourself???"
Sakura looked up, confused. His sudden question startled her, "What???"
Syaoran turned to her, with his eyes flashing dangerously making her recoil in fear, "You heard me. This isn't the Sakura I know."
Sakura stared at him in total confusion. How could he say such a thing???
She couldn't take it anymore...anger raised within her cold, shattered heart. She stood up from the swing and defiantly glared at him in fury. Syaoran was in for a rude awakening.
~~~***~***~~~~***~***Meanwhile, inside the house***~***~~~~***~~~~
TV/Movie ("GONE WITH THE WIND"):
"We could've been happy with Bonnie in our lives..."
Scarlet fell onto her knees watching her husband pack his stuff.
"We _could_ still have memories! I love you!"
There was no response from Cleave as he looked at Scarlet's face in longing.
But, nonetheless, no matter how much he loved her, he knew she would never love him like he loved her.
Scarlet, seeing that he wasn't going to change his mind, spoke up frantically as she followed her husband to the front door, "What will I do? Where will I go?"
Her husband looked at her with desire and opened the door.
Halfway through it, he spoke his last words.
"Frankly, my dear, I don't give a darn," With that, he shut the door. Leaving Scarlet O' Hara crying on the floor.
~*~TOMOYO & ERIOL~*~
Tomoyo and Eriol soon found themselves weeping by the television.
"P-pass me the Kleenex, please," Eriol asked as he wiped a tear away.
Tomoyo grabbed one Kleenex before she shakily handed the Kleenex box to Eriol.
"I-I never knew you had a sensitive side, E-eriol," Tomoyo wept as she blew her nose.
"M-me neither, but Scarlet...she was a fool to love that guy Ashley!" Eriol broke out into sobs. The two cried together, hugging.
Soon enough, their sobbing ceased.
Tomoyo glanced at Eriol's azure eyes, only to see him gazing back. They were caught in each other's gazes, never taking their eyes off each other.
Eriol glanced at Tomoyo's shiny, pink lips and looked at her with yearning and the urge to...uh...*ahem*...*drool*
Eriol didn't know what had gotten into him. His eyes roamed her lips; he could almost taste them...and that's just what he did.
(A/N: ^^ Naughty Naughty Eriol...^^)
Tomoyo and Eriol soon found themselves in a blood-rushing kiss. Eriol pushed Tomoyo back against the armrest of the sofa as Tomoyo pressed her body onto his, moaning into his mouth. It was a sweet, tortured longing that kept the two in total bliss. They would've stayed longer into it if air weren't an option.
Soon the two stared into each other's eyes, not believing what they just experienced.
Now who could not deny the passion that they shared for the other. The yearning for each other's touch. The love that bloomed overtook their souls and hearts.
~~~~***~***Meanwhile, outside w/ Saku & Syao***~***~~~~
Sakura looked at Syaoran with disbelief and fury, '_How can he be so cruel when this was all for him!_'
"Syaoran... I can't believe you would ask that!" Sakura felt more enraging tears make their way out.
Syaoran's anger grew by the minute, but he tried to keep his cool, "Where's the Sakura I knew back then? You're being something your not and it's driving me crazy! This isn't the Sakura I knew all my life. This is someone else."
Sakura's eyes lit up with fire, she didn't listen to a word he said; _that_ was her mistake. For all she cared, she didn't give a _damn_ about what he thought.
"You know what, Li!" Syaoran felt his hand clench at his side, hearing his last name come from her lips.
"I did all of this just for you!" Sakura looked down as she panted helplessly from yelling. It took all of her strength and will power, but she finally said it, "Sometimes I just think...I wasn't good enough...!"
Syaoran's felt his anger lower down as confusion penetrated his angry thoughts, "What do you mean?"
Sakura's eyes flashed with pain. Seeing that he was reading her emotions, she turned away.
"When you left for China to marry Meiling, I thought that any minute, you would turn around and just leave with me.... But no! You never came back!...But I knew you would someday...I changed myself all for _you_!" She turned to him, bearing her soul, and exposing her feelings to her one and only love.
Syaoran's eyes widened in sheer shock hearing Sakura pour out her grief.
Sakura thought she would never stop her ongoing confessions. Each and every word poured out of her mouth and it would just hurt her every second.
"I waited, night and day, wishing that it were all a horrible dream! But you know what? Now I see the light. No matter how much I try, I will never be good enough! Li Syaoran, good-bye!"
Furious tears streamed down her heated face and she ran inside the house to get her things. She found herself in front of Eriol and Tomoyo's alarmed faces.
They were still hugging each other.
Sakura smiled a small, watery smile. "Good luck you guys," was all she said.
She ran out the door and ran from Syaoran's house; running out of Syaoran's life.
~~~~***~***~~~~THE NEXT MORNING~~~~***~***~~~~
~*~SAKURA'S POV~*~
I dragged my lowly self out of bed and went into the bathroom. I've never felt so tired and pathetic in my whole, entire life.
I looked at my reflection; I could hardly even tell that it was me. I glanced at the top of my head; my black hair color was fading into auburn. My eyes were bloodshot and puffy from crying last night. But...my appearance wasn't as broken as my heart.
I don't know how I'll ever face him ever again. Things will never be the same. All through the night, thoughts raced throughout my mind, '_Should I stay or should I go?_'
My heart told me to stay and work things out, but I knew that Syaoran would never accept me for who I am, or who I _was_.
He doesn't love me...He never did...I was just some stupid girl who fell in love with him again and again...and I'm tired of it...
But I love him too much to let him out of my heart...maybe I should...stay...?
The answer soon came to me; I knew what I was going to do.
(")(") (") _ (") ("\ ^_^ /") (")(") (") _ (") ("\ ^_^ /") (")(") (") _ (") ("\ ^_^ /")
A/N: *sniff* C'MON SAKU!!! MAKE THE RITE DECISION!!! *sniff* Oh I think I need a Kleenex too! *checks Kleenex box* AGH! DAMN YOU ERIOL! DAMN YOU TOMOYO!!! WE'RE OUT OF KLEENEX! *smashes box* I need a cookie...I seem to have plenty of those these days...*munch* RE--*cough* REVIEW!!! (phew...I think that cookie went down the wrong way!)
Ja Ne,
maixwolfblossom