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-#-#-#-Wonderful Journey -#-#-#-
by: maixwolfblossom
-=-CHAPPIE SEVENTEEN-=-
--All Mixed Up--
Key Symbols:
bold :action or bold
italics: thoughts/flashback/song/poem/letter/etc.
() :Author's notes
-=- :someone's P.O.V (point of view)
--- Dream
=-= :Flashback
-=RECAP:
Sakura sensed a bit of tension and decided to find a topic to break the ice a bit, "Um… So what would you be doing here?"
An evil idea popped into her brain. She broke out a fake grin, "Oh, just here to find the perfect dress for the celebration of my engagement with Xiao Lang."
Sakura's eyes widened in disbelief. So many, many different emotions surging through her. She felt her whole world crashing down right there. She felt a painful pang in her heart.
"Oh, I don't believe I've told you that before! ::squeal:: …Oh, I love my little Xiao Xiao… And wouldn't trade him for the world… ::sigh::… Yes… I'd say that I am in love…."
A lump formed in Sakura's throat as tears threatened to penetrate her orbs of misty emerald. But, still remembering that Meiling was there, she fought it back and tried her best to smile, "O-Oh really?.. C-congratulations!…"
"Oh, but don't you worry, Kinomoto-san! Soon you'll fall in love too, someday."
'I already have… With your fiancée…'
"Yeah… Um…" she stared at the dress she'd picked up earlier. She ended up just putting it back on the rack, "W-well, I don't think this shop is the…the right place for me to find the right dress… So…so I think I-I'm just going to go now."
-&-
"W-what is it?" Meiling was getting a bit scared now, hearing Yelan's anxious and worried voice.
"When we talked to you and Xiao Lang about the engagement… Well…" Yelan hesitated, thinking of how it'd change in so much of how Meiling felt at the moment and how she'd be so disappointed.
" 'Well' what???"
"We weren't exactly serious about it…"All throughout the mall, erupted the following word from Meiling's mouth, followed by violent curses, "WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?????????!!!!!!!!!"
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Sakura barged through the door of her house, slamming it behind her, face still tear-stained. She threw her purse on the floor as she struggled to stop crying. But she failed miserably as she broke down right on the floor, 'Oh why, Syaoran??? Why have you lead me on like that? Why did you propose to me when you know very well that you've already proposed to Meiling? It's happening again! He's leaving me for Meiling…'
More sobs escaped Sakura's lips. Hot, burning tears left her lively emerald eyes. This sadness that ever-so filled her, was beginning to become…hatred…
"Syaoran, you jerk."
--MEANWHILE--
Meiling's eyes were burning with rage, "You promised me a marriage with Xiao Lang! I shall have it!"
"But you can't, Meiling! You just can't! Please be little more quiet about it at least!" Yelan was desperately trying to shush Meiling from saying it any louder.
Meiling trembled in anger as she stomped her foot on the ground like a little kid.
"I have to go now. But please don't mention a word to the elders or anyone else about what I've just told you! ESPECIALLY Xiao Lang!"
Meiling didn't reply as she turned away from Yelan with a bitter stare.
Yelan turned away in worry as she went on her way, leaving Meiling.
'Darn it! That means Kinomoto is the only one engaged to Xiao Lang!! GRR! DAMN IT ALL!'
Meiling's frown soon changed into an evil grin, 'But just because I'm not engaged to Xiao Lang, doesn't necessarily mean I can't have my fun with him!'
Evil thoughts on ways of getting back at Sakura filled Meiling's head like water filled a water balloon, 'Oh, this is going to be just swell…'
-&-
Sakura wiped her eyes, desperately trying to stop the tears but it didn't seem to be working. She stumbled to her feet and walked over to the phone then dialed.
'Hello?'"::sniff:: Tomoyo…"
'Sakura?!? Sakura-chan, what's the matter??? Please tell me.'
"Syaoran…--he--…" Sakura tried so hard to finish her sentence but she began to weep as her sadness overtook her soul.
'It's okay, just take your time,' Tomoyo spoke comfortingly.
"Oh, God, Tomoyo… Syaoran…he--…he--…" she tried to get the words out of her mouth but only ended up in shaky sobs.
'It's okay, Sakura. You can always tell me later when you're ready.'
Sakura shook her head vigorously, "No, Tomoyo. I want to tell you right now…" she took a deep breath before continuing on, "I f-found out that S-Syaoran proposed t-to M-Meiling…" After that sentence, Sakura was not able to speak anymore as her sorrow took over her heart.
'Oh Sakura…' Tomoyo's voice was filled with concern, 'I only wish I were there with you right now…'
"I wish the same, Tomoyo… I wish the same…" Sakura spoke hopelessly as she fingered her ring.
--MEANWHILE--
Syaoran sat at his reserved table, frustratingly looking at his watch every now and then, 'Where in the world could she be???'
Sakura was now an hour late.
'Where is she? She's never this late…--Oh no… What if something happened to her???' with that sudden thought, Syaoran hurried out of the restaurant and faster than the flash of lightening, went off and headed towards Sakura's house.
-&-
'But why would he do such a thing???'
Sakura had finally managed to stop sobbing but her nose was a little stuffed up, "I don't know… To two-time me???"
'But that hardly sounds like Li-kun at all… Awkward how this morning you were so happy as if you'd won the lottery… yet now.. you're crying your eyes out… as if someone had died…'
Sakura gave out a shaky sigh, "I just don't know anymore, Tomoyo. But when Meiling told me that she was engaged with Syaoran, it felt like a part of me did die… She sounded so in love."
Tomoyo was silent.
"I don't know what to do anymore…"
'…Well, I only hope the best for you… But it seems that the only thing to do right now…is to just try not to be around Syaoran so much. Just try to stay away from him as much as possible. At least for a little while.. It's probably just for the best.'
"No, no, Tomoyo… I think I should stay away from him forever…"
'But Sakura--'
"No 'but Sakura'! I can't let him hurt me like this any longer…--"
Sakura's sentence was interrupted by a sudden knock on her door, "Oh, I gotta go, Tomoyo. I'll have to talk to you later about it…"
'Kay then. Bye.'
"Bye."
::click::
Sakura put down the phone on the counter then walked over to the front door.
When she opened it, and when she saw that it was Syaoran, she attempted to shut the door in his face.
But, Syaoran having his super-fast reflexes, caught the door and prevented it from closing on him, "Sakura, what is the matter??? You haven't forgot about our little date tonight, have you?"
Sakura sighed frustrated as she ran a hand through her auburn hair, "What is it you want Syaoran?"
Syaoran gave her an amused smile, "Ohhhh… Are we PMS'ing???"
She gave him a bitter glare, "I don't find anything funny."
His grin wiped off instantly, "…Is there something wrong, Sak?"
"Oh, I don't know, Li. You tell me what's wrong!"
Syaoran searched her eyes, trying to figure out what it was that was bothering her. And just there, in her eyes, he found it, 'Oh, dear God…'
"Listen Sakura…I--"
"NO! I don't want to listen to your sorry ass excuse! How exactly long were you planning to tell me?! Two days??? A week??? NEVER?!" angry, hot tears poured down her cheek.
"But--"
"Do you have any idea how much in love Meiling is with you?! Do you have any idea how much I love you?! Seeing that you've deliberately proposed to Meiling, you think you could propose to me too??? You've led us both on! I care about Meiling. I respect her. And she loves you! Okay??? She loves you! But as low as you'd ever go as proposing to two girls at the same time…that is just as low as anyone could go… You're playing with two hearts, Li! Not only one! TWO!"
It hurt him so deeply to hear his last name flow from her lips after so many lonely and abandoned years, "Sakura, if you'd just let me explain--"
"What is there to explain, huh?! You proposed to two girls, all the worthwhile telling me that you loved me?? What am I to you, huh? Second rate? Was I your substitute fiancée?"
"No, Sakura! It's not like that at all! Rememb--"
"No! SHUT UP!" she removed her ring from her finger and threw it at him, "WE'RE OVER! OUR ENGAGEMENT IS OVER! WE'RE DONE! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE ANYMORE! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" her body shook in anger as soft, trembling sobs escaped her lips.
Syaoran was speechless as he clutched the ring in his hand.
"We can never be together. Can't you see???…"
"…"
"And you made it that way…" She whispered bitterly as she shook her head and more tears came to fall, "Good bye, Syaoran…" and with that, she shut the door in his face.
-&-
Sakura collapsed in sobs by the door. 'Dear God, Syaoran! I never knew you'd go this far!'
She looked up at the ceiling as the tears kept pouring endlessly, 'You think this is some kind of joke, huh?! I don't deserve to be happy, is that it, oh Kami-sama??? Well guess what! Mission accomplished!! I am NEVER EVER going to be happy… I guess it's just fate. Maybe I wasn't destined to be happy…'
"I'll never be happy…. 'Cause I can never be with Syaoran… Never…"
-&-
Syaoran stood there for quite sometime, not ever tearing his gaze away from the door, '…I…I can't…'
He didn't even know what to think!
He looked at the ring in his hand as one glistening tear made its way down his cheek, 'Is………Is it really over…?'
Syaoran clenched the ring in his hand as he shut his eyes, trying to blink away his tears, 'Iie(no)…It can't be over!… I won't let it be!'
He stared helplessly at the door once more, 'Sakura… If only you knew that it was an arranged marriage…'
Syaoran walked back to his car and started it, 'I won't let it end this easy… I don't give a damn about the elders! In the name of my sanity, I will give them a piece of my mind! And along the way…making Sakura see that we can be together… And we will be together… One way or another…'
-&-&-
Yelan made her way through the halls and entered the living room and set her purse down on the coffee table. She plopped onto the sofa as she rubbed her temples in frustration, 'I can't let Xiao Lang suff--'
"Yelan…"
Yelan looked up only to see Xiu Yu, one of the most important people in the Li Clan. He was one of the advisors to the head of the Li Clan.
Yelan stood up in respect as she replied, "Yes, Xiu Yu?"
"You haven't done what I think you've done, have you?" Xiu Yu asked her in an amused manner.
"…As much as it pains me to do it, yes I did," Yelan answered as she stared at the floor.
A grin covered the old man's face as he laid a hand on her shoulder, "Good job."
"I hope only the best for Xiao Lang…"
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