Lost ch. 2

A/N: Omg thanks for all the reviews!! I really appreciate them! I never really intended to write a second chapter, but because you all want one, this is what I came up with! Enjoy! BTW: This was inspired by that song, Only Hope by Mandy Moore.

My life has all been one big blur…people always told me what to do, and how to live. I always listened to what other people said, and never questioned a thing. With Randy, it was all different.

That night we confessed our love for each other, was the best, and worst night of my life. He drove me back to the hotel all of the RAW superstars were staying in, and once my things were packed, he led me up to his room. We ordered our pizza, and quietly lied together, while watching a movie. I didn't know that the events of that night could make or break our relationship.

"Randy?" I asked. "Do you really love me? Or were you just saying that, so I would trust you?"

Randy seemed very taken aback, therefore he sat up, and gave me a look.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" he said accusingly.

"Nothing, I'm just curious, because since then you have been awfully quiet, and every time I try and get a little closer to you, you just…pull away. I don't know maybe it's just my imagination…"

"Yeah I guess so." His sarcastic tone was really starting to make me mad, but the madder I got at the situation, the sadder, and more afraid I got. This is exactly how the fights between me and John went. That's what got me thinking, and I came to the conclusion that mine and Randy's relationship was bound to end up like mine and John's.

"Stacy, I can't believe you think that I would actually do that. In case you haven't noticed, I'm not John! I care about you, but you have to trust me. Just because we hooked up earlier tonight doesn't mean anything."

My body began to tremble, and I continued to be silent as he yelled at me some more. This was definitely not the Randy I knew. Then I remembered: Randy had had more than just a few drinks earlier. He had driven and everything.

"Randy, please, calm down…you're scaring me…" I begged, my eyes pleading with his. I was beginning to tightly grip his pillow, and I was trying as hard as I could to hold back the tears, but they came freely, and there was nothing I could do about it.

"No, Stacy, I won't calm down. You need to understand this." You would think that if I asked him nice enough, and showed his he was scaring me, that he could calm down, and explain everything. That just wasn't the case. He only got louder, and so I did what any other pathetic and weak girl like me would do. I jumped up, grabbed my bag that was all packed, and bolted for the door.

"Oh come on Stacy! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you leave!" I heard him yell after me. But I didn't care. The tears blinded my vision. My entire body was numb with fear, anger, and disappointment. But mostly, I only felt hurt. I had given Randy everything that I was, and he had convinced me that everything I thought about myself wasn't true, and that I was just with someone who didn't deserve me. I believed him, and now I was going to pay for it. All those previous feelings I had felt before about myself soon came rushing back, and I realized that I didn't deserve anybody.

My thoughts were soon interrupted, when I realized my feet weren't touching the ground anymore. I was flying, and then the loud smack of my head hitting the corner of a step made everything go black.

Love is always

Patient and kind

It is never jealous

Love is never boastful

Nor conceited

It is never rude or selfish

It doesn't take offense

It is not resentful

Love takes no pleasure

In other people's sins

But delights in the truth

It is always ready to excuse,

To trust, to hope

And to endure whatever comes

XXX

I slowly awoke with a loud buzzing in my ear, and a throbbing pain all throughout my body. Unfortunately, I was alive, and I knew exactly what had happened. I didn't deserve to live, and the memories of the moments before I fell would only haunt me, and cause me more pain.

It took my eyes a few seconds to adjust, but from what I could see, Randy was next to me, and it looked like he had been crying. I suddenly became very afraid, and tried to scoot as far away from him as I could. This definitely startled him, and he reached forward.

"Stay away from me!" I screamed. My tears, from both my emotional and physical pain, streamed down my face, as I moved as far as I could go on the hospital bed.

"Please, Babe, can we please talk?" He begged. That made me settle down a little bit, and at least let him hold my hand. The tears stopped, and I had quit moving. A deadly silence settled over us, and I saw the pain in his eyes. They were glossy, and a few tears had already spilled over his perfect tanned cheeks.

"You have no idea how sorry I am Stacy. I…I can't even find words to describe how sorry I am right now. I…I don't know what the hell happened last night. I don't know what came over me, and I don't know why I did what I did. I love you, Babe. I…maybe it was because I was drunk…but I swear to you, what I said in the parking lot…Every bit of it was true. There was not one lie in what I said. You don't deserve someone who will treat you like I did last night…God, Stace…You deserve someone who will treat you like a princess. You deserve everything…

"Now, I know I can't give that to you…but I am willing to try! I feel absolutely horrible…God, I just want to scream, you know? Because of me, you are hurting. Physically and emotionally. I…I know there is a chance you won't forgive me, but I am begging you Stacy. Give me another chance. I love you so much Babe…" And then the Legend Killer, the ever-so-tough Randy Ortonhad reached his breaking point. Not only were tears running down my face, but he was bawling like a baby.

So I lay my head back down…

And I lift my hands and pray,

To be only yours I pray,

To be only yours

I know now,

You're my only hope.

He laid his head on my left leg, and I softly stroked his hair, and kept whispering to him everything would be okay. I didn't really know for sure if everything was going to be okay. I wasn't even sure if I would forgive him or not.

I'm giving you my destiny

I'm giving you all of me

A/N: Welp, there ya go! Just a couple quick disclaimers…the poemish type thingis a scripture from the New Jerusalem Bible. I got it from my "A Walk to Remember" soundtrack case. If any of you hasn't seen the movie, or heard the soundtrack, YOU SHOULD!!! Especially if you are into chick flicks like me… : )

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