Warnings: Rated R… but this chapter isn't too bad… so… eh…
Disclaimer: I don't own Inu-Yasha… ah well…
Only They Know: School and Daydreams
By Gabreilla Moushigo (aka Aeki Muffinhands)
'Oh… wait… I remember how to solve this problem now!' Kagome thought excitedly. She scribbled down the formula quickly before she forgot again. Then solved the problem quickly – then went back over her answer with a satisfied nod. 'Wow! I actually made good time! Almost everyone else is class is still working.' With Kago-chan in their little group Kagome suddenly found lots of time to study, Kago-chan even helped her with some problems… if she could remember how to do them anyway. Her thoughts quietly drifted off to Miroku.
She bit her lip quietly, remembering the words of the innkeeper's wife. 'To be truthful…' She had said. 'I was worried about marrying someone so much older than I, but after a while… just being with him… it's been worth it.' Kagome fought hard to keep her face serene as she thought these dangerous thoughts. 'I… I know that he will not live much longer… but I don't care… I only regret not coming to him sooner…'
'I regret…' Kagome felt like she was suffocating. 'I regret…' She remembered taking his hands in hers… those hands she loved but could never admit it. She could never hurt those she loved. She couldn't admit it to anyone… not to him… not even herself.
'We can't be together.' The words played out in her head again. 'It's just impossible.'
Was it really impossible? Was she willing… could she be willing to tell him what she felt in her heart? She scoffed, 'Of course not.' Things could and would work out for everyone. Kagome shouldn't burden herself down with such depressing thoughts. It wasn't right… especially when everything was going so well. Sure they lost the shards… but they would get them back soon enough. Kikyo even volunteered to help… which was weird.
Kagome let her thoughts drift off to one particular night. 'Kagome…' Miroku's voice had been so quiet. 'I need you to come with me.' She had followed him like a stupid lamb. They made it to a small town, they looked down and there seemed to be a funeral. It was so weird looking from that height… like they didn't belong.
'What is this Miroku-sama?' She had asked.
'They are burying a woman and young child.'
'Did you know them?'
'I knew the woman very briefly.' He admitted.
'Did you ask her to bare you a child?' Kagome asked, not meaning for it to be a joke this time.
'Yes.'
'Did she?' And then Kagome realized.
'Yes… I supposed she did.' He turned his head away.
'What happened?'
'The plague.'
'Oh… Miroku I am so sorry… I know how much it meant to you.'
'It's not about me Kagome… it's about the child… I… I feel responsible.'
She really… really looked at him then.
'I wish… I wish that I would've known… I would have liked to see him… just once.'
She understood. 'Did you love her?' She asked.
'No.'
'You will have other children.' She just knew.
'How do you know?' He asked sullenly.
'I just do…' She took his hand in hers. 'You'll have all the children you want someday… and you'll get to watch them grow up and have babies of their own." She gave his rosary hand a squeeze. 'I promise.'
'You promise?' He asked.
'I promise.'
"KAGOME!" Her teacher slammed his palm upon her desk to get her attention. She nearly jumped out of her seat and her classmates laughed heartily at her expense. "Sorry for startling you like that." He apologized. "But you were worrying me." He shook his head. "What with your diabetes and all… I was worried your blood sugar was too low."
'Diabetes?!' She growled inwardly. 'I'm going to kill grandpa!'
"Kagome?" One of her friends, asked, she didn't remember which one… she was too preoccupied to listen.
"Uhg?"
"What's wrong with you?" This girl asked.
"Nothing… just thinking…"
"Is it the diabetes?"
"Yes… yes it is." And then she thought again of another time.
They had gone off on a weird subject… children. They sat upon a mossy hill, over looking their campsite. Shippo was sleeping soundly in her bedroll, Inu-Yasha snoozing in his tree and Sango with Kirara on her shoulder.
Kagome wondered why he always wanted them… if he really wanted them… or was it just a joke? 'Do you want children Miroku? I mean… for other reasons then producing an heir should you,' she rolled her eyes and put her fingers up in quotes '"Die and need someone to seek out revenge"?'
'I want children for other reasons.' He said simply.
'Like what?'
'Hm?'
'What reasons?'
'Oh…' He looked away. 'I just always wanted a family… but it doesn't seem like I'll get one if I keep running away, huh?'
'Probably not.' She agreed.
'It's not like I have any time left anyway.' He said, dejected.
'You have plenty of time!' Kagome said, exasperated.
'How do you know?' He asked.
'I just do!' She yelled.
'What about you?' He poked at her.
'What about me?" She narrowed her eyes on him.
'Do you want children?'
'Well of course I do!' She huffed, she began staring at his earrings… they were so shiny in the moonlight.
'Do you now?' He grinned and she eyed him wearily. 'Don't worry… I won't ask you again… I'll save it for later when you're more vulnerable.' She gave an outraged cry.
'Could you two please shut up?' Inu-Yasha whined from above.
Before Kagome could growl a sit at him, Miroku had taken her hand and led her away from the clearing. They probably walked for half an hour just talking to each other. And then… they talked about the most stupid thing ever… THEIR children!
'If we had children together… not that I'm saying that we will…' Kagome actually started this conversation, to our monk's amazement. 'What do you think they would be like?'
'The boys would obviously have their father's good looks.' He said pompously. 'They would also be suave… real ladies men.'
'Your not turning our kids into perverts!' She shouted.
'What are you talking about? We're not having any children.' Miroku reminded.
'Oh yeah,' She blushed.
'The girls will obviously be beautiful.' He went on after the slight pause.
'How do you figure that?'
'Their mother is absolutely stunning.'
'I hope one of our children would have your eyes.' She said wistfully.
He perked up at that. 'Why do you say that Kagome?'
'Because they are beautiful.' She said without thinking. 'Er… I mean… are an unusual color…'
'Mmmm hmmm.'
'Oh… forget I said anything!' She said in a panicky voice.
A hand waved across her face. "Kagome… you going to finish your makeup test or are you just going to stare into space all day?"
"Hm?" She panicked. 'Oh! My test! I really need to stop daydreaming!'
Kagome was finally home… homework… study… study… God… every time she came home she had absolutely no life whatsoever! She'd much rather be back in the Feudal Era with Inu-Yasha and the rest of her friends.
"Kagome!" Her mother called upstairs.
"Yes mom?"
"I need to go to the grocery store! I didn't know you were coming home or I would have had all the ingredients for your favorite. I'll get you some Pocky and chips too, ok? Dinner should be in about four hours tops!"
"Ok mom!"
Time to take a nap, she deserved it after a long day of daydreaming. She pushed herself into the pillows, mumbling happily within their sweet, fluffy and heavenly soft depths. 'Ahhhh… this is the life.'
"Do you think my eyes are beautiful?" He teased.
"N-yes!" She replied flustered.
His eyes had a dangerous light to them just then. They were right next to a wall of rock, his arms were on either side of her head in an instant. His staff and her backpack were forgotten on the ground.
"Miroku-sama?" Her voice quivered, for a moment she was almost afraid of him.
"Kagome…" He leaned into her, his mouth so close to her ear she nearly squeaked as he breathed. "If I ever did have a child…" His voice was so quiet, but so full of promise. "I would want you to be the mother."
"W-what are you saying Miroku-sama…" Kagome looked away. "Do you love me or something?"
"Of course not." He paused for a brief moment, his whole body tensed up. 'Did I just say that?! Why did I just say that?'
"I see." She turned her head away.
"I just thought you would make a good mother." He explained quickly. 'Just say you are sorry and that you didn't mean it to you idiot!' His mind screamed. 'Salvage! Salvage!' "I… well.. um… you see…" He groaned 'What happened to being suave again? Oh God… you are the biggest moron I know!'
Suddenly her eyes came into view and she was in a full rage, she pushed him away from her quickly. "If you think I would have your baby just because your some perverted… deviant… sick minded bastard well you have another thing coming!" She stabbed his chest with her finger. "You don't care about anyone but yourself!" She turned away from him, beyond disgusted.
"I…" Miroku began, 'Stop being a moron and tell her something… jeeze!' "Kagome… I'm sorry about what I said… I wouldn't use you." He rubbed his hair back with one of his hands nervously. "Kagome… I do care."
She visibly relaxed. "I know." All the steam just seemed to roll off of her shoulders.
"I'm sorry." He repeated.
She turned around. "I'm sorry for yelling."
"Does this mean you'll bare my children?" Big smile and wagging eyebrows
"NO!"
"Can't blame a guy for trying!"
"Sure I can!" Kagome yelled.
He came up to her, his arms wrapping around her easily.
"What are you doing?" She huffed.
"When you decide to come to me…" He breathed. "And you will…" She punched at him for that one. "You won't regret it." He purred.
She shoved him away from her. "That is soooo not going to happen." She held out her hand when it seemed her wanted to advance on her again like the pervert he was. "You don't love me… besides… what about Inu-Yasha and Sango?"
Those words were like a giant bucket of ice water conveniently splashed down his front. "Oh yes."
"Have you ever thought of having babies with Sango, Miroku?" Kagome huffed. "Really?"
"N-no." He stammered.
"Well… maybe you should."
'And get castrated before I can reproduce? No thanks.' He thought quietly. "I guess."
Kagome woke up when her mothered called up for her. "Hm?"
"Dinner is ready!"
"Ok! Be down in a minute!" She yelled.
It had been so long since they had talked… her and Miroku that is… besides the weirder episodes with his frantic 'will you bare my children?' or when they talked about babies or whatever… they had pretty decent conversations. They often talked about what they would do once they defeated Naraku… everything… they talked about things no one else wanted to talk about.
They even talked about sex on a rare occasion, she had to make sure she kept a stick close by so she could knock him out cold just in care he got a little too… frisky. She found it fascinating that such a freak like him knew so much… she was sure that he was a virgin… after all… almost every woman he met turned him down.
'Yes… it's not easy being as good as I am' He would say. 'I guess I just have a way with the ladies.'
'Your so weird Miroku-sama.'
'So why did you ask me those question Kagome-sama… hoping that we could… ummm…?'
'Not in your wildest dreams!'
"Kagome!" Her mother called again.
"One more minute!" She said.
'Maybe… maybe I'm just being stupid.' She thought. 'I mean… Miroku-sama isn't such a terrible person… and… well… he is nice to me… and… maybe his feelings have changed for me… he did think about getting married to me after all.' She sighed. 'I wonder… what it would be like too.' She would go to him tomorrow and talk to him then, maybe they could figure out what was running through their minds… maybe… maybe they could enjoy the time they had left? 'Even she knew that they were well suited together… on a deeper level… she…' Kagome blushed before heading downstairs.
Notes from me: (This is about last chapter) Ack! I know the story is a little depressing (ok… a lot)… and it's going to get a little bit more depressing in a few more chapters… but please bear with me. (Smiles) You will be able to laugh and smile again.
I'm thinking about putting another happier flashback in my next chapter, to even out all the misery. Besides… life isn't all about sadness right? It's about happiness as well.
Anyways - I hope you liked this chapter a bit more. I hope everything didn't sound too weird… I wrote this chapter very quickly last night and this morning… I just wanted to have a little present day Miroku and Kagome action going on… since to me they almost seemed to fade into the background. Well… maybe not fade completely… but you have to admit… they weren't taking on any definite role until a couple chapters ago… and that sort of bothered me a bit. I'll talk more about them later as well.
I'm also thinking of involving Sango and Inu-Yasha a bit more in the story line as well… I just need to figure out something for them to do. (Hehe)
Thanks for the reviews guys. (Happy happy)