Well, this is my first songfic. I hope that you all enjoy it.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Cowboy Bebop or the song "(If There Was) Any Other Way" by Celine Dion.
"(If There Was) Any Other Way" (in italics)
Well here is the story— Forlorn Adoration
It all happened so fast. Every thing! I miss him so much, but I can never see him again.
Sorry I know I'm late
Guess I lost all track of time
Started walking and couldn't stop
Turning it over in my mind
Trying to make some sense of it
Trying to make the pieces fit
I thought I covered my tracks so well
But now he says he knew about it from the start
Yeah he knew about us all along, , ,
If there was any other way love
Don't you think I've tried to find it
Don't you think I want to stay
If there was any other way love
There's no way out of this
There just ain't any other way, , ,
Maybe I'd better be leaving now
But there's something I want you to understand before I go
Sometimes we don't have a choice when we play and break the rules
I just had to see you darlin', one more time
If only just to say good-bye
'Cos he knew about us all the time
"I am sorry, but I don't. . . " I felt a lump form in my throat. "Love you. . . any. . . more. Good. . . B. . ." Tears flooded in torrents from my eyes before I could finish. I quickly turned around to hide them from his view. I was crying. Me— Faye Valentine, the shrew woman was crying, and for what— a simple goodbye. But whom was I kidding? I loved him! I loved him more then anything, and now I had to let him go. My thoughts were quickly interrupted though, by a hard grasp on my arm as my body was rapidly spun around by Spike.
And within in an instant the heat of his body drew near to me as he crushed me against the door, his lips ravaging mine in a kiss full of lust and passion. I tried to push him away but only fell seduced by his kiss, tangling my hands in his mop of hair, as his roamed the small of my back. I opened my mouth to further deepen the kiss, and as his tongue entered I moaned in pleasure. At that instant though, my pleasure was turned to hunger and wanting as he pulled away.
"Bull shit!"
His words struck me down like thunder. If only he knew how right he was, but I couldn't let this go any further. The love deep inside of my heart called for him, but I couldn't let my feelings take control.
He began to close the distance between our lips again, but this time I didn't kiss back. Instead I shoved him away, confusion soon filling the air.
His eyes, emitting hurt, gazed deep into my orbs as if trying to search for some hidden emotion.
That look he gave me— it was too much! I had to end it there. With newfound strength, I took off the promise ring he gave to me and with slight hesitation let it fall to the floor. And with that I headed out the door whispering just loud enough so he could hear. "Goodbye. . . Spike. . ."
If there was any other way love
Don't you think I've tried to find it
Don't you think I want to stay
If there was any other way love
There's no way out of this
There just ain't any other way, , ,
"Faye! Wait!" His voice was full of desperation. I turned my head to see him catch up to me as if he had a heart of hope that believed I wouldn't leave.
He stared at me, his eyes pleading with intensity I had never seen. The once gorgeous, two-toned eyes that I melted at the very sight of became so full of emotion, that I felt as if he were a stranger, a stranger who implored my reasons for leaving and begging that I would stay with him.
But it just couldn't be that way. So I turned back around and left, this time not saying a word. I could feel my heart tear in two and then break into miniature pieces as I heard him for the first time ever— cry.
I never wanted it to be like this
I never meant to get serious
But now the thought of losing you
Takes some getting used to
This surreal emotion inside of me, pulling the strings of my heart, couldn't last long. It was only a mere fantasy— a dream so real, I found myself captured in it. I was in Heaven, but Heaven doesn't last. Hell is just around the corner— there to chain you down and release all of its sorrow and furry upon you. These deep, heartfelt feelings that I have developed for you were but a deadly poison to your life. Although my heart was enraptured by your charming ways, and still is, I can't go on living with you. My emotions aren't worth your life. Therefore, I will endure Hell— I will survive through endless pain, so you may live.
If there was any other way love
Don't you think I've tried to find it
Don't you think I want to stay
If there was any other way love
There's no way out of this
There just ain't any other way, , ,
I love you, so therefore. . .
If there was any other way love
Don't you think I've tried to find it
Don't you think I want to stay
If there was any other way loveGoodbye— Spike.
Well that is all for today. I am sorry if you all are really confused. Things will be explained in later chapters. I hope that you liked it. I hope to get another chapter up tomorrow, if I get some reviews that is. So please R&R.