A/N-This is about a week and a half after chapter three.

Chapter 4 Beginnings

Buffy stood on the steps out side of Giles' front door. It had been about a week since she gotten back and despite what Willow (And every one else) said she had not been avoiding him. She just hadn't seen him more then twice. She stood there and smiled when she heard him strum the cords on his guitar. She wondered if now that Giles knew it had been her all those years ago if he still felt the same way he did when she left.

To tell the truth she wasn't sure how she felt ether. She was so confused. On one hand she had fallen for Ripper, but like she herself had said they are not the same person. But in some ways they were very much the same. Caring and loving and those eyes... Her thoughts trailed off a little as she thought about it. And so that was way she had come here to day. She needed to talk to him and see...well...see what was going on.

She had told Willow she was coming over here today and to keep every one else away. She raised her hand to knock and then let it drop again. This was about the third time she had tried to knock. 'I'm getting nowhere with this' she thought to her self raising her hand to knock. But as she was about to the door opened and Giles was standing there smiling at her.

"Ok, so have you been turned into a vampire and can't come in with out an invitation? Because you've never had to knock before" Giles said smirking at her.

"Hello" She managed looking up at him. She had gotten so deep in thought about Giles that she hadn't even noticed the music stop. Was this a good thing or a bad thing?

"How long have you been standing out here?" He asked shaking his head and ushering her in. It was so hard to look at her and not see Beth, his Beth. While they were the same people he wasn't sure how she felt, now. He had been sure how she felt then, but now, it was a whole other life.

"Um...five minutes?" She said walking in and sitting down. "See not a vampire"

"Well that's good to see" Giles said walking over to where he had his guitar. He picked it up and went to put it in its case.

"Don't" Buffy said before she could stop herself. He looked over at her and smiled. "Play me something?" Buffy said looking from him to the guitar and back again.

"What should I play?" Giles asked walking over to a chair in front of her and sitting down.

"Um..." Buffy thought back to all the oldies music she liked. "I don't know" Buffy said smiling "You pick one" She said sitting back in the couch.

"Ok" Giles said pulling the guitar into his lap. He smiled as he thought about what song to play. Then it came to him. He strummed the cords and Buffy smiled.

"Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone

Susanne the plans they made put an end to you

I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song

I just can't remember who to send it to

I've seen fire and I've seen rain

I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end

I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend

But I always thought that I'd see you again"

He looked up and saw that Buffy had closed her eyes. She looked so peaceful and happy. 'Is there any chance?' he wondered as he watched her lay there smiling. And did he, could he, ever feel the same about her knowing now who she was?

"Won't you look down upon me, Jesus

You've got to help me make a stand

You've just got to see me through another day

My body's aching and my time is at hand

And I won't make it any other way

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain

I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end

I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend But I always thought that I'd see you again

Been walking my mind to an easy time my back turned towards the sun

Lord knows when the cold wind blows it'll turn your head around

Well, there's hours of time on the telephone line to talk about things

To come

Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground"

Buffy smiled with her eyes closed and marveled at the depth of feeling in the song now. Before with Ripper it had just been a favorite song, but now with Giles it had real meaning. And she could hear it more then ever now. Was there still something there? Could Giles be the one person she had never really seen? 'Well only one way to find out' she thought as he continued to play.

"Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain

I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end

I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend

But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now

Thought I'd see you one more time again

There's just a few things coming my way this time around, now

Thought I'd see you, thought I'd see you fire and rain, now"

He stopped and put the guitar by his chair. Buffy just lay there smiling as he got up to get a blanket. She must have fallen asleep sometime during the song. He walked back over with the blanket and laid it on her. He smoothed back her hair and smiled. He leaned over to kiss her on the cheek and was shocked to find her lips on the other side of the kiss.

She reached up and put her arm around his neck pulling him down closer to her. His hand went into her hair and she smiled under the kiss. After a second Giles deepened the kiss and Buffy ran her hand up his shirt and over his back. He put his hand on her lower hip and she moaned into his kiss. That seemed to jar Giles out of what ever little world he had been in because he pulled back.

Buffy opened her eyes and looked down at her hands afraid of what she might see if she looked at him. Because during that kiss she had pretty much decided that 'yes she did still feel the same way' but she thought 'maybe he doesn't, now that he knows it's me'

"Buffy" he finally said in a choked voice. 'Ok here it comes' Buffy thought. He cleared his voice and tried again. "Buffy" She didn't look up but she did stand.

"I'm sorry" She said taking one big step around the couch.

"Buffy" Giles said trying to get her to look at him.

"I'm just...sorry...I have to...I'm...I'm going to go" She turned to walk towards the door as fast as she could without running.

"Buffy!" Giles said causing her to stop in her tracks. She turned slowly still not looking up at him. He walked over and lifted her chin with his hand. "Can I say something now?"

"Ok" Buffy said not really wanting to have 'that' kind of talk with Giles, especially with Giles.

"Sit down?" He said leading her over to the couch. 'Oh god' Buffy thought 'He's got to have me sitting so when he tells me that there's nothing there I don't hurt myself in the fall.' They both kind of sat there for a few minutes looking at their hands. Finally Giles spoke.

"Ok" He said nodding his head and smiling at her. "Ok, so the thing is..." Buffy smiled at him as her eyes started to water.

"Wait" Buffy said shaking her head. "When I left you in the park that day there was something I didn't get to tell you" She took a deep breath and nodded her head. "I love you, and I know there's no way you still feel the same, because, hello, it's been like 15 years, but I just had to tell you. So I'm going to go now and I'm just going to...not be around for a little while... ok"

"Buffy" he said shaking his head. "You don't love me, you love Ripper, I'm a very different person now"

"No, you're really not" Buffy said looking into his eyes. "You may be older and wiser" She said smiling a little "But you're still caring and loving..." She raised her and touched the side of his face by his eyes. "You're still him, I just never saw you before" He raised his hand and put it on her hand.

"I love who you were, who you are and who you're going to be," Buffy said smiling at him. He lowered his hand away from his face and looked down at the floor.

"But there's so much— Buffy put her hand on his mouth to stop him from arguing with her.

"Do you love me?" She asked very bluntly before removing her hand.

"Buffy" He said trying to argue again. But she shook her head.

"Do you?" She asked taking his hand.

"Yes" He said still not looking at her. "I tried not to, from the moment I realized it was you I tried to fight it" He said shaking his head as a tear fell onto Buffy's hand. "But I can't, there is no fighting this" Buffy was smiling when he looked up at her.

"Ok then" Buffy said nodding her head at him. "Stop fighting" She said as a tear fell down her cheek. "Because I love you"

"I love you too" Giles said smiling at last. "So, where do we go from here?"

"Any where we want to" She said pulling him towards her in a tight embrace.

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"Wow Buffy" Willow said after Buffy told her about what happened with Giles. "That's really great, I'm very happy for you"

"Thanks" Buffy said walking over to her bed. "But it's a little weird right?"

"Well yeah a little" Willow said sitting down next to her. "I mean he's been like your mentor for so long"

"Yeah I know," Buffy said smiling. "But it's like ever since I got back I've seen him in a whole new light"

"Well I'm happy for you" Willow said nodding her head. "Have you told anyone else?"

"No just you, though Dawn knows" Buffy said looking to her closed door. She stood up and walked over to the door.

"How could Dawn know?" Willow said looking at Buffy. Buffy just smiled and opened the door and Dawn fell to the floor.

"Hi Buffy" She said smiling at her sister.

"Oh" Willow said giggling. "That's how"

"Dawn what have I told you about listening to other peoples conversations?" Buffy said looking down at her sister.

"Hide well and stay quite?" Dawn said smirking up at her sister.

"I'm sure that's not it" Buffy said reaching over and hugging her sister. "So you're ok with this?"

"Yeah" Dawn said nodding her head. "I like Giles, he's nice. And hey if you get married he'll be like my brother"

"Ok one step at a time here" Buffy said. She walked back over to her bed with Dawn and they all three sat there talking about every thing from guys to slaying.

"Now all you have to do is tell Xander" Willow said smirking at Buffy.

"Oh man, how do you think he'll take it?" Buffy asked wincing mently at all the jokes Xander was going to dish out.

"Oh he'll be wigged out at first, but then the Xanderness will kick in and he'll find all kinds of funny things about it" Willow said nodding her head.

"Yeah that's what I thought" Buffy said.

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"So how did Xander take it when you told him?" Giles asked as he puttered around in her kitchen later that day.

"Pretty good" Buffy said "Rather well in fact, he also told me he proposed to Anya"

"That's great" Giles yelled from the kitchen. "The council called" He said as he walked into the room with some tea and cupcakes.

"What did they want?" Buffy asked as she took a cupcake.

"I have to go over there for a few days" Giles said looking over at Buffy.

"Why?" She asked looking sad.

"They want to know about this time traveling of ours" Giles said smiling at her.

"You can't tell them over the phone?" Buffy asked pouting a little.

"No, you know how they are" Giles said smiling encouragingly at her.

"When are you going?" She asked reaching over and picking up her purse. She pulled out her date book and opened it to that month.

"I'll be gone this weekend" He said pointing to the dates. "Ok?"

"Yeah I guess" Buffy said nodding her head. "Are you going to...uh...tell them about us?"

"Yes" Giles said nodding his head.

"You don't think they'll try to, you know keep you there or something, do you?" She asked as she started to get a little worried.

"No" He said shaking his head with a small smile playing at his lips. "This isn't as uncommon as you would think"

"Really?" Buffy asked as she flipped through her date book. 'Well that can't be right' she thought as Giles talked to her.

"So you'll be ok for the weekend?" Giles asked penetrating her thoughts.

"Yeah, I'll be fine, your not leaving for a two weeks, right" She asked as her worry started to change directions.

"Right" Giles said smiling at her. He bent over and kissed her on the forehead. "I'm going to go and see how Anya is doing at the magic shop, are you going to go patrol?"

"Huh?" Buffy said as her thoughts started to swarm her mind. "Oh yeah, um later"

"Ok" Giles said taking the tea into the kitchen. "I'll see you later tonight?" Giles had stopped stay in the hotel he had been in for the last few weeks. He slept out on the couch bed (for now.)

"Yeah" Buffy said not really paying any attention.

"Buffy are you ok?" Giles asked noticing her spaced out look.

"Yeah" Buffy said nodding and refocusing on Giles. "I'm fine, I'll see you later."

"Ok" Giles said smiling at her. "Be careful"

"Always" She said nodding her head as a plan started to form in her head. She walked Giles to the door and saw him out. She watched as he climbed into his car and drove down the street. The sun was just starting to go down as she grabbed her coat and headed for the door.

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"Oh god" Buffy said as she paced in the bathroom. "This is not happening to me" She said her head shooting up like a rocket as soon as she heard the door shut.

"Buffy!" She heard Giles call from down stairs. 'Oh what the hell am I going to tell him?' She thought as she walked down the stairs. When she turned the corner in the living room she found Giles standing there with roses and a bottle of wine. As soon as she saw the wine bottle her façade fall and tears started to fall down her face.

"Buffy what is it?!" Giles asked in alarm as he set down the stuff in his hand and rushed over to her.

"Oh Giles" She said baring her face in his shirt.

"Its ok" He said rubbing her back. "Every thing is going to be ok"

"No its not, its never going to be the same" She said in-between sobs.

"Buffy its ok, come on now" he said waling her over to the couch.

"I'm so...so...sorry" Buffy said as the hiccups set in.

"Buffy Luv, tell me what's wrong" He said pleading with her now. She pulled back a little and wiped her eyes and her shirt and looked into his eyes.

"I'm Pregnant"

A/N- Ok so what do you think? This isn't the end so don't worry. I think there is one or two more chapters left. So till next time.