Chapter 6
Dearest Hatori,
I'm so sorry. I wish I could have stayed, but there are things here, horribly complicated circumstances beyond my control. I do love you, so very, very much. I just can't stay.
Please don't blame yourself for my departure, if anything, you gave me the strength to carry on as far as I did; and the baby even more so. I expect you know by now what we could have been, the family we could have had. I thought so much about what might happen if I didn't do this, but with the age difference and our families, everything was just closing in on us.
I realize how long it's been since that perfect night, and there's a reason I never contacted you after that until right now. It was only a few days later when I realized what I had to do and I thought it best that you remembered me on that night, than the solemn, agony enveloped girl you would have seen had I come back. I want you always to remember the way we danced in the rain, the feel of my lips against yours, the ecstasy of chaos.
I know I've been vague, and I wish I could tell you why… but I can't. What I can say is that I finally realized I can't live in the rain.
I will always love you and I'm so sorry for doing this. It was not so much my choice as the choice of many.
Forever in Loving Chaos,
Sarumi
Chapter 7
"No one should have to suffer like this," Shigure antagonized sipping his tea next to Ayame.
"Tori-san least of all," the snake agreed.
Tohru sobbed, "Do you think there's anything we can do?"
"No," Yuki sighed sadly, "All we can do is hope."
Miles away in the same graveyard that held Tohru's mother, Hatori sat upon Sarumi's grave. His head settled against the large headstone, liquid gushing from his body.
"If she couldn't live in the rain, the least I can do is let her die in it."