I gave you my heart
Tom, I loved you
But you didn't want that, did you?
You only wanted power; it's all you ever wanted.
You threw it back into my face
All I ever wanted was to love you.
and it shattered.
It's all your fault I'm ruined.
Shards, little pieces- starry
Like the sky at midnight in the cold, cold winter...
Diamond dust filled with moonlight, refracting, reflecting-
Light bends as you bend truth.
From the clumsy stitches holding my head onto my elegant neck I pick a loose thread and pull it out.
Don't fear, I lost my head ages ago.
Look the needle in the eye and slip it through tenderly.
The tenderness you should have showed me- you said you loved me!
I attempt to sew my pieces back together
My fingers fail; they aren't yours.
Patch it, polish it-
Make it shine as bright as my glimmering, shimmering tears.
But the silver tip pierces my finger's flesh
That's your doing, isn't it?
A single crimson drop of blood,
You like blood far too much to be sane, Tom.
My blood, purest blood, pure as my intentions and now tainted
You always liked my pure blood. Is it pure as it is or is it all in your head?
Poisoned by the venom of betrayal-
I didn't betray the basilisk; you should know that by now.
Your treachery
But you betrayed me, didn't you?
Soaks the lace handkerchief scarlet.
I was pure white, not pure crimson, not my blood, but my soul, and you stained it. My imbrued hands curse your carelessness.
You're my needle, my bane, you dwell within my veins.
And within my head and my dreams and my diary and my pen...
Like the gathering of honey on a serpents' fang,
Like your cotton candy cottonmouth tongue, you spew lies like a sick child and sick you are, Tom...you're so sick...my Lucifer, fallen angel cast to hell, my Lord of the Flies, Lord Flight-from-Death...
My secrets swell, then spill.
You're the Asmodeus of Hogwarts, I'm wedded to bloody Asmodeus. But that would make me Lilith, wouldn't it? She who tempted Eve and Adam,her brother and former lover...are they Hermoine and Ron and Harry? Lilith killed little children--you made me try to kill those muggleborns--
You promised, swore to God alone with him and I as witness, one
God damn you. You're damned, the King of the Damned. I'm Queen of the Damned, it never ends...
On a hill in a lightning storm the thunder beckoning
Don't tempt God-- you tempt me enough already.
That you wouldn't, but you have.
How could you do it, love?
And I see now my heart was not the only thing for you to break.
Promises, my spirit, my soul, my mirror- take your pick. I odn't much caer anymore.
I trusted you and now I am not sure-
I hate you. I love you. I curse you and I need you. Damn yuo and damn me with you. This isn't Hell; this is Purgatory. Light the white candles, Hermione; pray for our souls.
A true love does not make one stare into a black mirror of one's own demise
I've died...Hermione hangs black silk over the mirrors for Sirius, she shall do it for me. A black mirror. a white mirror. All mirrors show me your face. Do they show you mine?
and instill doubt.
Maybe we should think about this first--
Disperse and leave me in peace; for you have failed.
And I have failed with you. Wait for me! Wherever you go, I must follow, for I am bound to you. Us together. Inseparable. Oroboros. Jormungand, eating his tail, the serpent. Loki's son. Loki is you, Tom...he caused the destruction of all Middle Earth. Sigyn, his loyal wife....that is me. I love you, Tom. Don't you ever leave me, damn it. Don't you ever leave.