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Chapter 13: Coming To An End...
Life, it's crazy how some things never work out
But I'm hoping that this time goes right
The white walls seemed to drain all of the color of the room. The only color was the green line that was in control of all. The lines that went up and down at a steady beat, could turn fatal at any given moment. It was only up to the hands of God, Himself.
Starfire sat in a teal cushion chair, right next to Robin who seemed to lay lifelessly in the white bed. She kept her warm, tender hands on his cold and clammy ones. Starfire kept her hopes up, knowing that Robin would make it out of this dilemma. But even with proof of it, nothing seemed possible in a room where death's were numerous..
Cause I've tried so hard
To keep you hanging on this life
Starfire had not slept since the accident. No, it wasn't an accident. She knew what had obviously happened. Her hair was flat and disheveled and no longer held the glow it once did. Her face was paled, her lips, a pale pink. Her eyes held worry, emotional pain, and regret. Starfire had taken Robin's condition and blamed it on herself. She thought that if she had only stayed with him during battle, Robin would've been fine.
Cyborg had tried to send Starfire home once or twice to get her to rest. She wouldn't though. She would stay by her lover and friend's side. Cy had also tried to tell her it wasn't her fault, but she wouldn't hear that either.
"If it was not my fault, then why would I have such feelings that it was?" Cyborg was silenced by her statement.
Starfire sighed and stroked Robin's burnt hair.
"I know you can do this Robin. You can make it past this..this..predicament. Robin, you have always told me to be strong in times of sadness and sorrow. Now it is your turn to."
Starfire took both of his hands in hers, "I do not underestimate you, Robin. I know you will wake up, know you will open your beautiful eyes. It's all up to you now, Robin..."
But you always have to try and fight.
Well I'm scared and I'm running,
And I'm running out of time
Starfire's eyes shimmered with unshed tears.
'Nightwing turned his back to Starfire, going over to his computer, "So it's impossible? Good. If memory serves, we have done the impossible before.."'
"Robin, you are my best friend. If you have turned truly evil, then go ahead.." Starfire lowered her glowing, green fist to her side. "..Do what you must."
Robin lowered his weapon, "Starfire, no! I-" '
Starfire wiped a sliding tear away. She smiled weakly, "Memories, Robin. Our memories..if you do pass to the heaven's of the Great Landony..then our memories will always live on, forever."
And all this time,
Always thought we were invincible,
The beeping of the green line was the only sound in the room. The steady beat made Starfire calmer.
Robin's condition, though, was not one to calm about. He was in the fire for longer than he should have been. Smoke inhalation, four-degree burns, melted skin, internal bleeding... The list ran on. But Starfire's optimistic ways blinded her to see the little chances of survival Robin had.
"But you will not pass Robin. You shall live! You would never leave me..right?"
Just then, Robin's breathing ceased. Starfire's eyes widened, this was the second time. She knew what to do.
Her hand slammed on a huge, red button that protruded out of the wall beside her that was labeled, "Emergency Call".
A doctor and nurse immediately rushed in. Starfire flew off the chair to give the doctor and nurse space. She waited quietly waited in the corner, fear settling in.
And now I'm scared that it's over
The doctor's voice sliced through her, "It's not looking good. Nurse, bring me oxygen. Hurry!"
The lines of heart rate monitor began to slow.
The doctor pressed an oxygen mask over Robin's nose, his heart rate becoming steady once more.
"That was too close.. Miss?"
Starfire meekly came next to the doctor, "Miss, your friend's chances of survival are very slim right now.. Would you like to call in his other friends and/or relatives if any?"
Starfire flared up, "No! He is not having slim chances! He loves me and I love him! He would and never will leave me! I shall make sure of this!!"
The doctor put a hand on her shoulder, "Miss, calm down. Just call in his family."
Starfire slapped his hand off her, "We the Teen Titans are his family. I am his family. How dare you say he shall pass! For he shall not."
The doctor sighed and went out of the room with the nurse.
Starfire took her place by Robin once more, calming a bit when alone with him. She held one of his hands.
"Do not ever startle me like that again Robin." Her eyes cast down for a moment.
They came back up with tears, "I do not feel as confident Robin.. I know I am supposed to be strong but..I just can't."
And will I have another time to live?
Her thumb began to stroke his hand. 'I will search of another topic. That will calm my aura..'
"I feel that it is best you know, Robin, that Terra's body disappeared before the paramedics came. Maybe when all is well, we can search..together.."
It did not help at all as her legs felt like jelly and her heart sank lower, "I want you to know, Robin, that I love you. I love you so much.. I just..wanted you to know..incase.."
Starfire circled her arms around his torso lightly and hugged him. Her jade eyes shed uncontrollable tears as she began to sob.
"I-I love you. Please know that. I-I do not want you to think that I did not."
She sniffed and began to pull back.
As she did a stir, a movement caught her eye.
She pulled out of her hug and raised a brow, eyes full of hope, "R-Robin?"
"S-Star..fire..?"
"Oh Robin!" she embraced him in her arms of binding love. The tears of joy, happiness and thanks flowed down freely on her already tear-stained cheeks.
The room seemed to fill with color and life once more. The walls seemed to be a cream, not white.
Starfire buried her head in Robin's chest, "I thought I had lost you.."
Robin smiled warmly at her and responded gently, "You could never lose me Star..even if you tried ..."
Time, it's gone so fast,
And all it took was one night back
'Daffodils? No, no...Tulips? Or Roses? No..she wouldn't like those either..'
Beast boy stood by a glass door that was filled with beautiful flowers behind it. He was in the gift shop in the hospital, the last place he'd like to be.
Beast boy balled his fists angrily and turned away from the flower case. 'She wouldn't like anything. Not even me after what happened...all that we've been through..'
' Beast Boy sat down on the bed next to her, looking in her eyes then at the quilt, "I-I don't know. Everything's confusing. I just keep thinking that I'm abandoning her..Terra. It's like, a part of me is saying, 'What are you doing with Raven!? What about Terra? She's your only one!'" Beast Boy turned to the Gothic Beauty, "But then there's this other guy.. He says that you are the only one. You are right here..and you can make me happy, you can actually..love me.." Raven blushed.
She cast her eyes down and quietly spoke, "Which one do you listen to?"
"Both I guess. But the second guys' got a point..." He grabbed both of Raven's hands in his. Raven looked into his eyes, "You are here, right here. You..you make me happy and I think..I think I'm.."
Beast Boy's eyes welled up with tears, "I think I'm..falling in love with you.." Raven's eyes filled up also, as a window cracked slightly.'
To crash it all into the ground
' Beast Boy got up and walked over to Raven who was now sobbing a bit with her head down.
"Oh, Rae.. I don't-"
"Don't 'Oh Rae' me! Just go to her! Just..just go.." She pointed to the door.
"Rae please.. Don't do this. I-I'll fix this, ok?"
Raven closed her eyes, arms still around herself. She slowly shook her head 'no'. "You can't fix something that will never be.."
"Raven..."
"Go."
Raven please, please..let me-"
"Just..go. Please Beast Boy."
"Raven-"
Raven walked over to her door and opened it. She put a hand to her lowered head, eyes closed. Beast Boy stopped talking. He had said enough.'
Beast Boy reached into a candy bowl on the cashier counter and crumpled some in his hand.
'What have I done? Everything I guess. I've loved her, I'vemade love to herI-I've hurt her, and..and I've let her down..'
The old cashier cleared her throat at Beast boy, signaling him to stop squishing the candies. Beast boy's eyes shot up at her. He smiled apologetically and moved to the stuffed animal side of the store.
When out of eye range, he slumped down in a corner and sat.
'Why didn't I go after her? When Slade was attacking her? Why? If I did, she wouldn't be in here now..clinging onto life..'
Now two gone deep in a predictable last scene
I never thought it'd be you and me
' Beast Boy dodged a flying plate, "Well, you know what?!? I don't care if I hurt your feelings any more! I've tried and tried to apologize but NO! You're just a selfish bitch who's way too emotional! God! Why was I ever with you!?"
Raven threw a plate to Beast Boy's head, him earning a cut on the cheek, "You tell me Beast Boy! I tried to give you everything I had but you just needed more, didn't you?!? You lied to me! You said I was never alone! Well guess what!? I am!"
Beast Boy pushed Raven into the opposite wall, "I don't care!! Go ahead and go cry in your room! I never want to see your emotionless face again!!"
Raven smacked Beast Boy on his cheek, "I hate you!! I HATE you! Why the hell did you do this to me!?!! I can't even say that I hate you without lying!! Argh!"
A window cracked and exploded, glass shards raining upon the two.'
So what do we do?
I tell you I'm afraid just like you
Beast boy replayed the memory over and over in his head with a simple question, "Why?"
But it wasn't so simple. He needed Greek Monks to help him with this question. The fact was, he didn't know. All of those hurtful times..he didn't know why they happened. They just...did.
But by the time we're done thinking it's gone
So don't waste your life
Beast Boy put his head in his hands, "And now..she's in there..thinking I don't love her. I-I don't even know what I love anymore.."
The conscience inside him woke up, "You said it yourself. You do love her and always will. If we were to never love anyone who's been horrible, then no one would be loved.. Raven loves you. Go to her Beast Boy. She loves you.."
"But I can't." Beast Boy shook his head. He had a fear. A fear that when he walked into her room..the heart monitor would stop, that it would drag it's long note out until he reached insanity.
"And I'll know what they'll say.. 'Yeah, he killed her. He walked in and she died..'"
His eyes looked up to see a white dove on a windowsill, "But..but I do love her. She..just doesn't love me.. I lied to her, said she'd never be alone. Then..I left her.. What does that say to her?"
'Go..'
Beast Boy stood up abruptly, "W-what?"
' Go...'
It was then that he saw it. A raven. It's wings stretched out over the beautiful wave curling upwards, over the sky. It's eyes were set up, up towards the horizon, set in determination and love. Freedom rang throughout it's open beak.
Just look at me and remember the time
The time my angel came to stay
Beast boy's eyes sparkled as he walked slowly over to the statue and stared. The crystal talons stretched out, barely touching the wave.
' "Do you promise you'll still be here when I wake up?" '
Beast Boy's hands reached up toward the statue and nestled it in his palms, then settling it close to his heart, "Yes..I promise."
Take me away!
The door of life and death stood before him. Happiness or sorrow waited for him. Tears of regret and sorrow or happiness and joy watched him.
The raven sculpture lay in his arms, a token of his thankfulness and love for her.
Beast Boy's feet seemed cemented to the white tiled floor. What would await him beyond her door? What words would be said? What tears would be shed??
Beast boy sighed heavily, there was only one way to find out. He reached out his hand and turned the door knob quietly and pushed it open even more quietly. Beast Boy closed his eyes and walked in, not wanting to see what was before him. Beast boy shut the door behind himself with a click and opened his eyes. He gasped quietly.
I'm scared, and I'm running, and I'm running out of time
And all this time, always thought we were invincible
'There she was. Sitting on the edge of her bed with all her glory. Her legs crossed and arms folded. Her face held no expression, eyes clouded over.
He just stood there.
Raven had to fight with all her will-power to not cry or rip his head off,
"Well?"
Beast Boy slowly walked in the room, hands out in front of him, "Listen, Rae..."
He could say no more. What was there to say?
"I'm listening." Her voice was slathered in cold ice.
Beast Boy knew that this was not going to be easy at all.'
'"And-and I know that it couldn't work out..with you and your powers.. But I can't help it.." Raven felt his hands squeeze hers. Raven squeezed back.
"We..we can work something out.."'
There she lay. Almost lifelessly. Beast boy gulped audibly and forced his feet to move onward toward a chair that lay by Raven's bedside.
Now I'm scared that it's over,
And will I have another time to live?
Beast boy set the raven sculpture down on her night stand and took a seat beside her.
"Hey Raven..."
She lay there in her white sheets that seemed to have more color in them than herself. 'Just sleeping...just sleeping' Beast boyconvinced himself that sleeping was all she was doing.
To live..
Beast Boy took time to look Raven through.
Her face was paler than normal..much paler. Her hair had lost it's brightness and took on a dull feature. Raven's face had bruises to the ton, including a stun-gun scar on her forehead, and red tear marks on her cheeks. Raven's chakra was in a white color, which gave Beast boy a shiver. She was like a ghost. A lost soul.
'And all because of me...'
Beast Boy took her hands in his, bringing back memories from their first time..
'Beast Boy parted from Raven's kiss and slowly opened his eyes and looked into the purple orbs. He smiled as he grabbed her hand and laced their fingers together. It seemed that they fit perfectly. He kissed them and held on. Raven slowly smiled. Beast Boy could feel a rush of joy for completing his long-awaited task.'
So that day you drank away
"Hey Raven.." He repeated once more.
"I..I don't know what to say.. I.." Beast Boy was at a lost of words.
'"I..I don't know what to say Raven.."
"There's nothing to say."
"C'mon Raven..I said I was sorry."
"Sorry? No Beast Boy. Sorry doesn't cut it this time."'
Beast boy's eyes welled up with tears, the emerald shade becoming blurry, "I'm..so..sorry.."
All alone, in some way
Beast Boy put his head to her hands, still holding onto them like they were the only thing keeping him afloat, "I'm sorry! F-for everything Raven! For everything.. I didn't come to your aid in battle, I stood silently while you fought Terra alone, and I...I let you down.."
His tears washed up on Raven's pale hands, "I pushed you, fought with you, slapped you..when I was angry..but I was only confused.. But I know that's no excuse, Raven..."
"I let you down..I let you down Raven. I kissed the one girl you hated most, I watched as you got shot by Slade.. I ...lied to you."
All that's left is me to blame
Beast Boy picked up his head and pulled back Raven's violet hair, "And I know you can't accept me now.. I lied. I said that you were never alone. I said that you were my only one.. But I threw it all away! I can't take it back!"
Beast boy whispered softly, " But I was wrong, Raven. Wrong about everyone and everything..but us. You are my only one. Terra can be a lot of things..funny, sweet, kind, villainous, harsh..but she can never play the role of you Raven."
Beast Boy traced Raven's cheek bone with a green finger tenderly, "You think you're alone Raven..but you're not..Not anymore. I admit, I messed up, screwed up, fucked up.. But.. Just give me another chance.."
'"There's no more chances to give. You never had one! I let you in but..but you just.." Her words trailed off.'
"Just.." Beast Boy had tears rolling down his cheeks as he saw the heart rate monitor beep, "Give me a sign..that..we're okay.."
Beast Boy rubbed his thumb back and forth on Raven's hand. Silence hung in the air.
I just wanna wake up from this dream!
' It was described as Love. Raven knew it was, for she could feel the relaxation, calmness and happiness too.'
Beast Boy sighed. He wasn't about to get an answer..because..she didn't love him.
"How could I be so stupid Raven? Of course you won't forgive me, give me another chance...love me.. You're not in that place anymore so..I should just get over it, right?"
Beast Boy looked to her beautiful face for an answer.
Well I'm scared, and I'm running, and I'm running out of time
And all this time, I always thought we were invincible
"Yeah? Well...I can't. That's the problem, Rae..cause I don't wanna get over you."
Beast Boy leaned forward and gently pressed his lips against her own lifeless ones. He pulled back.
His eyes shimmered with tears but he smiled warmly, "Because, Raven, I love you."
'BB moved his thumb side to side on Raven's pale, slender hand. Raven squeezed his hand tighter. They sat there, silent, enjoying one's company.
It just seemed right for some reason.
It just seemed right...'
Beast Boy's eyes lowered. "But it doesn't matter. What I did was unforgivable and I understand. So..I guess this is it."
Raven's eyes scrunched up in their closed position, eye brows furrowed, "N-no.."
Now I'm scared that it's over, it's over
Beast Boy looked away, thinking the voice was his own conscience, "Yes, it is. We're in different places. We had no chance.."
Raven's head shook side to side, her eyes still closed but her face held the features of a sad little girl about to cry, "I-I mean...this.. This can't be it..."
Beast Boy sighed, saying the words Raven said that had sliced his heart in half, "Then how come it is..?"
Raven's closed eyes released tears, "I-I don't want it to be over.. I won't let it be over.."
Beast Boy had tears coming down his face once again, "I don't want it to be either..but it has to..for both of us.."
Raven's chakra turned grey, "N-no.. Not now.. Give it another chance.."
And will I have another time to live?
Raven reached out towards the unaware Beast Boy blindly, her hand landed on his shoulder. She held onto him tightly, "Because we deserve it.. Because..I ..."
Beast Boy turned slowly around, bewilderedly as Raven's violet-blue pools opened as she said her final thoughts.
"..I love you.."
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Author's Notes: Well, this was the last chapter. I think I'll still be doing that epilogue, just to promise everybody that everyone in this story will be fine, ya know?
Flashbacks in this story were from TT episodes including: How Long Is Forever?", "Apprentice pt. 2", and "Spellbound".
There were also flashbacks from previous chapters including: Chap. 8, Chap. 9, and Chap 11. One flashback where Raven and BB are fighting is just something I made up that would have probably occurred during the time period from Chapter 9 until Chapter 10. Just thought it would spice things up! :)
Song used for this chappie was "Blind Sight" by Ryan Cabrera (yet again... 8D )
I hope this Chapter wasn't too cliché! Please read and review! Epilogue will be up shortly!
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