A heartbreak( chapter 1)
by: huixian sama
paring: TezuFuji
The Bishounen lie in the bed and thought of the only one that he can be thinking of… the stone faced former buchou of seigaku…it had been a year. He thought that he could forget him. But he never thought that it would be so difficult.
As a prodigy, there are not many things that can give him a difficult time. Most of the times, he can answer any question that his sensei ask him… even if he wasn't paying attention. But this time, he is trying very hard… he can still remember… when they were both in year one…
Flashback
It was during lesson… his best friend Eiji was talking to him excitedly about their new cca, tennis…
" So what do you think of the people in the tennis club?" asked Eiji
"Huh? Oh. They are o.k," replied the smiling tensei.
"What do you think about the year one that plays really well?"
" I think he is too cold. Well, At least that would make him fun to tease."
As the conversation goes on, the tensei became more uneasy… the conversation kept revolving around the freshman. Fuji does not know why, but he felt a little queasy when he speaks of him. He had a few encounters with him before. But it was all quite brief. As his friend keep rattling on and on about tennis, he could only think of that mysterious guy. He seems more interesting then ever. Now that his best friend pointed out.
End of flashback
So that is how it all begins huh? he thought to himself. It had been so hard to act normal in front of Tezuka. It never worked. So he had to resort to a mere smile.
He had tried to hint to him a few times. But that stone just don't get it. Or… was he acting dumb?
Surely he should know… the whole seigaku team knows. And Eiji kept teasing him about it. How can he not know?
As Fuji thought of all this, his heart hurts… and tears slowly but surely filled up his eyes.
It hurts soo much… he thought to himself. If only I were a woman… then this love would not be forbidden. Then I can confess to him.
Baka Fuji. He scolded himself mentally. You never cry for anything. So why are you crying for him now? He doesn't deserve your tears. That heartless stone. You didn't cry when you fell down when you were only six. So why are you crying now? Stop it this instant.
He rebuilt the stonewall around his heart that had protected him from the pain until now, and wiped away the tears. His face hardens.
But when he thought about how much he loves his former captain and how much he desire him, he broke his composure again.
Fuji had always wanted to confess to Tezuka how much he loves him. But never did get the courage to. So he always takes all the chance he can get to get near the captain. Hoping that one day he would realize his feelings. But it never happens. He also never had the courage to confess, and so, now he regretted it. They had graduated. And they had drifted apart. But his heart had always been with him.
Only if I had had the courage to confess to him when we graduated, maybe I would have been happier. He thought.
Time and again, he had tried to confess his love. But whenever his love picked up the phone and answered, his hand would always turn jelly and his voice would tremble. And in the end, making a lame excuse to have called.
This time it would be different. He thought to himself. This time I would be strong.
His hands trembled as he pressed Tezuka's number.
To be continued.
nya... i know i know... it suck... yea. but please R&R... do you want the next chapter? i m not sure if i should post it.. if you all really hate it, please tell me... so i wont waste my time typing it.... yea... sighduck please R&R.. rotten eggs welcomed... tries to controll myself and not run away...