Chapter 4 – Teenagers

Willow stepped into Revello drive followed by Tara.

"Buffy! Buffy are you home?" Willow shouted as she looked into the living room and then around the rest of the house.

"I don't think she's here." Tara sighed. "I think she needs her space right now, lets just relax and…" Tara paused noticing and recognising the small flowers on the floor by the fire place. "What's this?" she said picking up the bag they were in.

"That's…er…"

"You did another spell, didn't you?" She said; the anger clear in her voice.

"I… well it didn't work anyway."

"I can't believe you Willow, you couldn't even go twelve hours without doing a spell and it was another memory one, for me again or Buffy?" Tara face was hurt and tears were starting to form in her eyes.

"Tara -"

"I don't even want to hear it!" And with that she walked out of the house betrayed, upset and deeply concerned about what Willow was turning into.

Xander was sitting relaxing with a beer in his flat while Anya re-organised the kitchen for the hundredth time.

"An' what do you think that was between Buffy and Spike in the Magic Box today?" Xander said hesitantly, trying to throw the question casually into the conversation.

"What was what?" Anya replied, puzzled.

"When Spike went to her, they looked all…close."

"Well of course they were close they had their arms around each other."

"Yeah, but I don't get it, Buffy doesn't like Spike."

"Well she obviously likes him now, haven't you noticed how they've been spending more time together."

"Well yeah, but I thought that was just patrolling and stuff…it was kinda a bit of a shock to see them like that…and…"

"Xander… what are you really getting at here?"

Xander sighed trying to find the right words to voice what he was really feeling "I'm just worried, she got into one relationship with a vampire before and that really didn't end well for any of us, I don't want to see her get hurt."

"You think Buffy and Spike are in a relationship?"

"No, No, I mean… I hope not."

"I don't think Spike would ever hurt her."

"Well I've never trusted him, so it wouldn't surprise me if he did."

Buffy hadn't known what to do with herself all day, she felt like everyone had abandoned her, Giles, Spike. She didn't go to see Giles off at the airport, it was just too painful and she wanted him to feel as though he was doing the wrong thing, which he was! So she had just been avoiding everyone all day long. She finally ended up at the Bronze; where she hoped no one would find her, and sat down to listen to the girl playing on stage, great! The perfect heart-breaking music for the soundtrack of my life. She stared at nothing in particular, caught up in a trance with the music and her pain. She didn't want to feel like this, why couldn't she stop feeling like this? And the worst thing was that the only person who could make her feel better was Spike, as this thought ran through her mind she suddenly felt his presence by her side, she turned her head slightly to look at him, he had the most beautiful apologetic look on his face that she had ever seen and a shiver ran through her entire body triggered by realisation of how much he loved her, but she didn't have the energy to talk to him or do anything for that matter, her whole body felt drained from depression and she didn't even know what she would say to him if she had the strength, so she just turned her head back, hoping he would just give her some time.

He couldn't believe it, she was just dismissing him; well he wouldn't stand for that. So Spike turned around and walked away from her, toward the bar so that he could as least get drunk while he was here.

She stayed immobile for a moment, still expecting he would come back and try and talk to her, when he didn't she panicked, suddenly she felt even more pain wash over her and she realised how much wanted him, how she just wanted him to put his arms around her again. She frantically looked about for him hoping he hadn't left yet, she got up and started walking quickly toward the exit of Bronze, but then she caught a glimpse of him under the stairs and ran, pushing past people to catch him. His back was to her and she grabbed his arm to get his attention.

"Spike…" she didn't know what else to say and he was looking at her expecting something, his eyes were so beautiful, so expressive, she could drown in those eyes. She ran her fingers down the side of his face, pausing to brush her thumb over his lips, trying to convey everything she was feeling with these movements. Spike put his hand on her lower back, pulling her toward him until they were so close that they were breathing each others breath. The music was playing around them and people were talking, but all she could see was him, all she could feel was him. She encircled her arms round the back of his neck and pulled his mouth to hers for the most amazing, searing, tender and intense kiss she had ever had, it was even better than the other night, his mouth felt so soft and gentle but at the same time his tongue was passionate and forceful. His arms surrounded her and they were both holding each other like their lives depended on it. She moaned deep into the kiss, and then they finally broke apart so that at least one of them could catch their breath. They rested their foreheads against each other, not wanting to break contact and looked deep into each others eyes. Buffy's heart was beating so fast, she was sure Spike could hear it; he pulled her into another kiss brushing his hand through her hair and causing a shiver to run through her entire body. When they broke apart again she was weak at the knees, he made me go weak at the knees, oh my god this can't be good.

"You want to get out of here?" he murmured

"Huh?" she couldn't even form coherent thoughts at that moment; she was too wrapped up in him. "Uh… yeah." She finally breathed out.

He looked at her, making sure she had understood what he just said seeing as she wasn't making a move toward the door.

"Yes, I do." She said more forcefully, and with that they both turned to the way out and Spike reached down and took hold of Buffy's hand to lead her outside.

Buffy felt like a teenager again, holding hands with a boy and just fooling around without a care in the world. They stepped out into the clear night air and she tightened her grip on Spike's hand.

"So, what do you want to do?" he said turning to her.

"I don't know" she said with puzzled smile on her face. "…and I don't think I care." She felt so light-headed, she had almost forgotten all her problems and she really didn't care what they did now as long as it didn't require any serious thought.

"O.k. then… well I've got an idea." He said as he gave her a sly smirk.

TBC…

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