Chapter 5 – Complications

On the car journey Buffy had been practically silent all the way, she hadn't know what to say apart from asking where they were going to which Spike just replied it's a surprise. She couldn't actually believe she had agreed to get in his car, but they she'd done a lot of things she couldn't believe, like kissing Spike twice! She should just really stop thinking before she remembers that this thing with Spike is wrong and cannot happen. Apart from those have been her main thoughts since the drive began and she hadn't done anything to stop him or tell him no, because deep down she never wanted this night to end.

The radio was on low and she could hear the faint music softly wash over her as she stared out the window with her head pressed to the glass enjoying the cool chill which it sent down her spine. She was trying to work out where they were going, but so far all she knew was that they were somewhere on the outskirts of Sunnydale, it was too dark to really see anything. The car suddenly stopped and Spike got out walking round the other side to open the door for Buffy. He's such a gentleman when he wants to be she thought.

"O.k. we're here!"

"Yes, but where is exactly here."

"Follow me." Spike grabbed her hand and led her around a corner into an open clearing where she saw a fairground that was all closed up for the night. It had a tall fence surrounding its perimeter but she could see inside and noticed all the rides that reminded her of her childhood, there was a Ferris wheel, whizzing waltzer and a ghost house. Spike walked up to the fence taking a look around.

"What do you think?" he said looking at her.

"I think this is called breaking and entering." Buffy replied with a smile.

"No bloody way, it's on public land, therefore it can't be." Spike said grinning back at her.

He pulled the fence apart and climbed through, holding it as Buffy followed him.

"So, what do you want to go on first, luv?"

"Um… how about the ghost house?"

"Ohh…. you want to be scared do you?" he said grabbing her round the waist and pulling her to him until they were pressed against each other front to front. She looked up into his eyes and almost drowned, they were a beautiful deep blue colour in the dark night and he was looking at her so intensely, like he was trying to read her mind. Reality suddenly came rushing back to her and she remembered that this was stupid and could never really happen, but then he bent down and kissed her, she parted her lips letting his tongue into her mouth. He massaged her tongue with his and she moaned into his mouth forgetting her last thoughts.

Dawn and Tara were sitting at the Espresso Pump together, after Dawn had found Tara walking round town.

"You're moving out?" Dawn said shocked.

"I'm sorry, I have to Dawnie." Tara's concern was evident in her voice.

"But… why? You and Willow are so good together."

"Things have been getting bad lately and I just can't be with her anymore."

"Why does everyone still insist on treating me like a child, tell me what's going on!"

"I don't mean to treat you like a child, it's just I don't want to bring you into this, it's not your problem."

"But I want to know, you and Willow are my friends, you've practically been my parents the last few months and I need to know what's happening otherwise it's like my parents divorce all over again."

"O.k. I understand… Willow's been abusing her magic, you know those arguments we had before, that was about her magic and then she used a spell on me so I forgot that we ever had an argument, I told her if she went without magic for a day we could try and work it out but she did another spell almost immediately and now I just don't think it's going to work between us."

"Oh my god, I can't believe Willow would do a spell on you like that."

"Please Dawn don't confront her about this, don't even tell her what you know, I'm really worried about her."

"You don't think she'd hurt anyone do you?"

"She already has" Tara sighed feeling the depression wash over her. "She just hasn't been the same person since she brought Buffy back, she's using her magic so recklessly. Dawn, I need you to keep an eye on her now that I'm not going to be there, make sure she doesn't do anything stupid and tell Buffy about it if you think she's doing anything wrong."

"No problem… we're still going to see each other aren't we?" Dawn asked with uncertainty.

"Of course we are Dawn, I'm always going to be here for you."

Buffy and Spike had made their way to the Ghost house and were sitting in one of the train cars. Spike didn't know what to do next and when Buffy might hit him in the face and run away again. So they were just sitting, making small talk about what demons Buffy had killed recently.

"Oh! Last week there was this really big one, with slim all over his head… it was really gross!"

Spike decided to make a big leap and put his arm around her, trying to make it very subtle in the first date kind of way, but as soon as his hand touched Buffy's shoulder she noticed and paused in the middle of her sentence.

Buffy felt his hand on her and sparks ran through her, they had never touched each other like this before, it was so intimate not like the lusty kisses they'd shared before. She didn't know if she wanted to get close to him like this, but it felt so nice to have someone there to lean on, to hold her. She moved into his touch until they were pressed closely together, side by side. She could tell Spike was surprised by the look on his face.

"So, why did you decide to bring me here?" she said looking up into his eyes.

"Well, I heard this fair was in town for couple of weeks and it's not like I can come during the day, but I thought it would be nice to do something childish and uncomplicated."

"This is nice…" Buffy decided she was going to be bold and actually say what she felt for once. "When I'm with you everything's better somehow, I actually feel alive and in a good way… I don't know why or how this happened… but…" she paused, not wanting to voice anymore of her thoughts; they were starting to scare her.

"Buffy…do you want this to be something more?" Spike said hesitantly, desperately desiring to know the answer but at the same time never wanting a reply.

Authors note: Sorry to leave it on a cliff hanger!! But I'll try and get the next chapter out as soon as possible! Hope everyone enjoyed!