On the Cross: Kato's feelings for Uriel. A songfic based on 'Hail Holy Queen'
My role on the Stage was finished, in the wings, behind the closed Gate. I thought of everyone I ever met, Kira, Setsuna, and you, Uriel-my staunch guardian angel...
Hail, my life, my sweetness and hope.
You gave me life at the hour of my death, or maybe deaths. When I dissolved away into vapor when I escorted Setsuna out of Hades, You gave me life, even it was only artificial, but the puppet I hanged onto enabled me to live out my wishes, a wish so simple, but as wish not everyone can have, not to die with any regret.
To you I cry, banished child of Eve, to you I send up my signs, mourning and weeping in the vale of tears.
I am but a banished child of Eve, this Eve is my unfaithful birth mother. I am illegitimate, behold, I am shapen in iniquity, in sin my mother conceived me. A comforter is far from me. I never have any blessings or care from my earthly parents, they banished me to a vale of tears. I wept in the shadows, my heart broken, longing for the most fleeting show of love from either of them, but I never got any, condemned to a living Hell. Redemption? I never got any hope for it. I mired myself further in the vale of drugs, instead of finding a way out, I numbed myself with them.
Behold then, my gracious advocate, turn your merciful eyes upon me
and after this exile show unto us the Savior,
After my exile on Earth, my hour of redemption came when I met Setsuna in the underworld, no one can take his place as my Messiah, but you had surely played a great part in my redemption, for you cared. You stood there and looked at me warmly with those green eyes of your, eyes as green as the shade of a tree that shelters weary wayfarers from the wrath of the sun. You cared about this lost soul and tried all you could to lead him to the Messiah. No matter how lost he was, you found him. You even found him even when his semblance was lost, you still recognize him in his disguise as the general of the opposing army, and you brought me back to the Messiah. When I looked into these beautiful eyes and was cradled in your big warm hands, I found my WAY. You always brought me back to Setsuna when I was lost. My life and my after life are all exiles in a barren land without end if you had not been there.
O merciful, O loving and sweet...
I could never repay you, you never expected any reward. You loved me unconditonally. I had never got myself injured for your sake, I did nothing for you, but you just decide to take me under your wing and let me stay there. I had not acknowledged you fully in my delirious rant about Kira and Setsuna in front of you, you never got anything from me, not even a word of praise from me, but, you loved me and cared for me, you devoted yourself to me just for who I was and you accompanied me bravely on my Way.
Everyone is mistaken when they fail to see behind your height and your stern face, only I saw your sweet, lovingand compassionate side. Far from the ice masked judge, you have the love of a mother, like the element you represents, the earth that nurtures all life. Thanks for walking with me, my Guardian with kind eyes.
Disclaimer: I do not write the lyrics of Hail Holy Queen, it is a traditional Catholic prayer. Part of the wording is changed to fit into the context.
Katou and the rest of the AS chars are Kaori Yuki sensei's.