Hello all, the author formerly known as DragonGirl13 here.
I'm posting this note in two different stories, just to warn you. It can be found in both "Bloody Tears" and "Hope's Requiem," just for the record since this note is really about both of them. Sorry to anyone who has actually been waiting for updates in these stories. It's been almost a year since I all but dropped out of the fanfiction thing (and actually updating existing fics), and I guess I've been putting this off that badly. I guess it's that way with anything that you care about, and this is no different. I suppose I wanted to hold on to idea that I was still working on these, that I was just going to come back to them any day now. But now I realize that it was selfish and childish of me to think that way.
I'm sure you all are wondering what I'm babbling about. Well...here's the bombshell to the few people that read and enjoyed these stories- I've decided to put "Hope's Requeim" and "Bloody Tears" on permanent hold. In short, they aren't done. But don't expect me to ever finish them.
This is not a decision that I made lightly. There are a lot of factors that played into this. Mostly time and motivation things (or lack there-of). And the fact that I write almost no fanfiction any more, just original stuff.
But the main reason is this: I was a very different person a few years ago when I started these stories. I'm not going to go into any sort of detail (since it's my personal business) but suffice it to say that I had a ton of stress and such in my life. I wasn't happy or content with a lot of things by any stretch of the imagination. And all these issues came pouring out in my writing. The stories have messages of there being little or no hope for the characters since I felt the same way. The characters are all just sitting back and crying but secretly screaming for someone to save them. And believe me when I say it, that is how I felt before several people snapped me out of it and back to reality.
I don't know if I can ever write these stories again since I'm not in that mindset anymore. I could always attempt to keep writing them, but the truth of the matter is that I was too far in the plot and any changes of it now would belittle the character's struggles and the real messages that are in these stories. And I just can't do that to them- it would change too much and accomplish nothing. So, I guess they'll just have to stay unfinished for now.
I would, however, like to go back and re-write/re-work these stories someday. Maybe I'll revisit them sooner then I thought. I've matured a lot as a writer and really, really think I could go back and make my writing a lot better. Trust me, they're incredibly poorly written despite what a lot of you have said.
That's all for now, I guess. I'd like to take the time to thank everyone who read and reviewed these stories, by the way. Your support really made me get up and write despite having no ideas several times. And it always feels good to think that someone out there enjoys my writing and actually wanted me to write this stuff. So...thanks a lot. Your support meant/means a lot.
DragonGirl13