Chapter Eight
Lily lay in her bed silently staring at the canopy above her bed. She couldn't believe that James had kept such a humongous secret from her. He was fucking engaged and he hadn't found the time to tell her.
She was beyond hurt. She felt like James had ripped out her heart and beat it into the ground before her very eyes. But more than she was hurt, she was angry. How dare he keep something of such magnitude from her? She was so angry that she could kill him. And the way she was feeling that night she just might jump at the chance to do it. So to keep herself from doing anything she would most certainly regret she locked herself up in her room long before anyone else had gone upstairs. And that's where Ebony found her. She opened the curtains find Lily silently seething and hurting in her bed.
"Are you okay?" she asked, sitting down next to Lily. Lily shook her head.
"I cannot believe he kept something this huge from me." She said.
"He kept it from everyone Lily. Well, actually I think Sirius knew... but he kept it from the rest of us, too," said Ebony. Lily said nothing. "I guess that doesn't really make it any better,"
"No it does not," replied Lily. "I'm his god damned girlfriend! He should have told me,"
"Yes," agreed Ebony. "He should have. But that doesn't change the fact that he didn't,"
"I'm so angry with him." Lily shook her head. "So angry. What the hell was he thinking?" she sat up on the bed and dropped her head into her hands. "My family was right." She said sadly.
"Right about what?"
"Nobody will ever love me."
"What?!" Ebony stood up quickly. "Lily, that's insane."
"Is it?" Lily spat viciously. "He has a fucking fiancé, Ebony. He obviously didn't love me, I was just his sex toy." She sounded bitter.
"That's not true, Lily." Said Ebony sitting next to Lily once again. "James loves you. He didn't tell you about his engagement because he didn't want to hurt you. He hates Amy."
"If he hates her so much then why did her fucking propose to her in the first place?" Lily ranted.
"He didn't." said a voice from the doorway. Lily and Ebony looked up to find Sirius standing just inside the door, watching them.
"What do you mean?" Asked Lily. "He's engaged to her, he obviously had to propose to her."
"No," contradicted Sirius. "The marriage is arranged. James' father is real big on the whole 'pureblood' thing." He continued. "Amy's family is one of the most powerful and rich pureblood families in the wizarding world."
"Oh, that makes it so much better." Said Lily sarcastically.
"I agree that he should have told you." Said Sirius, coming into the room to sit on the bed, opposite Ebony. "But being angry with him isn't going to change that."
"You should talk to him." Said Ebony. Lily shook her head.
"I'm not sure I could without trying to kill him." She answered.
"You're not the only one hurting, Lily." Said Sirius. "James hasn't moved even a centimeter in over four hours."
"Okay." Said Lily after a long pause. "I'll talk to him. Just... give me a few days."
[Author's Notes: yo, ho, yo, ho... yeah. Okay, sorry that update took so long. I've been kinda busy. And we've been testing all this week. And last week there was the police investigation w/ my friends and a whole bunch of other stuff. But I finally got a chapter up!! You better review!! Or there shall be no more chapters. Okay that's a lie. I'll write just because I feel like it... but oh well. REVIEW PLEASE!]
Lily lay in her bed silently staring at the canopy above her bed. She couldn't believe that James had kept such a humongous secret from her. He was fucking engaged and he hadn't found the time to tell her.
She was beyond hurt. She felt like James had ripped out her heart and beat it into the ground before her very eyes. But more than she was hurt, she was angry. How dare he keep something of such magnitude from her? She was so angry that she could kill him. And the way she was feeling that night she just might jump at the chance to do it. So to keep herself from doing anything she would most certainly regret she locked herself up in her room long before anyone else had gone upstairs. And that's where Ebony found her. She opened the curtains find Lily silently seething and hurting in her bed.
"Are you okay?" she asked, sitting down next to Lily. Lily shook her head.
"I cannot believe he kept something this huge from me." She said.
"He kept it from everyone Lily. Well, actually I think Sirius knew... but he kept it from the rest of us, too," said Ebony. Lily said nothing. "I guess that doesn't really make it any better,"
"No it does not," replied Lily. "I'm his god damned girlfriend! He should have told me,"
"Yes," agreed Ebony. "He should have. But that doesn't change the fact that he didn't,"
"I'm so angry with him." Lily shook her head. "So angry. What the hell was he thinking?" she sat up on the bed and dropped her head into her hands. "My family was right." She said sadly.
"Right about what?"
"Nobody will ever love me."
"What?!" Ebony stood up quickly. "Lily, that's insane."
"Is it?" Lily spat viciously. "He has a fucking fiancé, Ebony. He obviously didn't love me, I was just his sex toy." She sounded bitter.
"That's not true, Lily." Said Ebony sitting next to Lily once again. "James loves you. He didn't tell you about his engagement because he didn't want to hurt you. He hates Amy."
"If he hates her so much then why did her fucking propose to her in the first place?" Lily ranted.
"He didn't." said a voice from the doorway. Lily and Ebony looked up to find Sirius standing just inside the door, watching them.
"What do you mean?" Asked Lily. "He's engaged to her, he obviously had to propose to her."
"No," contradicted Sirius. "The marriage is arranged. James' father is real big on the whole 'pureblood' thing." He continued. "Amy's family is one of the most powerful and rich pureblood families in the wizarding world."
"Oh, that makes it so much better." Said Lily sarcastically.
"I agree that he should have told you." Said Sirius, coming into the room to sit on the bed, opposite Ebony. "But being angry with him isn't going to change that."
"You should talk to him." Said Ebony. Lily shook her head.
"I'm not sure I could without trying to kill him." She answered.
"You're not the only one hurting, Lily." Said Sirius. "James hasn't moved even a centimeter in over four hours."
"Okay." Said Lily after a long pause. "I'll talk to him. Just... give me a few days."
[Author's Notes: yo, ho, yo, ho... yeah. Okay, sorry that update took so long. I've been kinda busy. And we've been testing all this week. And last week there was the police investigation w/ my friends and a whole bunch of other stuff. But I finally got a chapter up!! You better review!! Or there shall be no more chapters. Okay that's a lie. I'll write just because I feel like it... but oh well. REVIEW PLEASE!]