[Author's Note: Okay, I realize that it has been horrible long since I have
update and I apologise for my abhorrent transgression (yay! Big words!) and
I'm sorry that this chapter will probably suck. I really am totally stuck,
but I want to update before I am cut off from civilization, I mean visit my
aunt in New York (not NYC, sadly). So here it is... sorry it's so horrid.]
Chapter Ten
Two days later James had re-located from the Gryffindor common room to the Sanctuary. And that's where Lily found him. Lying on his bed staring straight at the canopy over his bed.
"You should have told me," she said upon walking into the room. She sat down on the bed next to him.
"I'm sorry," he said, sounding beyond anguished. "I'm so, so sorry." He took her hand in his.
Lily squeezed her eyes shut to keep the tears burning the backs of her eyes from escaping. She had already cried enough, she told herself. For the past two days she had holed up in the Shrine, not eating, and crying herself to sleep. Finally she decided that enough was enough and that she was going to talk to James. Or rather, Ebony had decided. She had locked her out of the Shrine.
"You had no right," she said, her voice shaking slightly. "No right at all."
"I know." He said, turning toward her. "I have no excuse." He looked pleadingly into her eyes. "The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt you, Lily." Upon hearing these words Lily gave a great heaving sigh and began to cry.
"I love you, Lily." He sat up. "You have to believe me."
"I know," she said, her words barely distinguishable among her heaving sobs. "I know you do. But why couldn't you tell me? I would have... I would have loved you anyway."
"God, Lily." He said, pressing his forehead against hers. "I guess I just... I wanted it to last forever. I love you, so much. I thought I could find a way out of the betrothal."
Lily placed her head against his shoulder, her sobs beginning to subside, and her wrapped his arms around her. "Did you even ask your father if you could get out of it?" she asked.
He hesitated. "No," he said. She pulled away slightly. "I was trying to find a way, Lily. He wouldn't have just let me out."
"You didn't even try," she said, her voice thick from her crying. She lay her head back on his shoulder.
"He owled me two days ago." He said. Lily raised her head from his shoulder, once again.
"What did he say?"
"Amy owled her father and told him about our relationship." He said, trying to find a way to tell her what his father had said.
"And?"
"And... there are some problems."
"What sort of problems?" she asked. He hesitated. How should he tell her? "James?" she prompted.
"Ican'tseeyouanymoreorhe'llkillyou" he blurted. Lily shook her head.
"Repeat that?"
"I can't see you anymore," he said. "Or my father will kill you." Lily turned white as soon as the words passed through his lips. She didn't say anything for a few moments.
"Maybe it's for the best," she said at length.
"What!?" James was shocked.
"Well, you're getting married," she said, defending herself. He jumped off the bed and stood in front of her.
"How can you say that?" he yelled. "How can you say that it's for the best? I love you, Lily, I refuse to marry that bitch!"
"James, please," Lily said quietly. "I love you too. But there's nothing we can do! You're going to marry Amy LaRue, no matter what you say."
"I can't believe you're saying this." He said. "We can find a way."
"No, James. We can't. You'll marry Amy and have a happy life. That's that."
"I'll never be happy with her." He said.
"Yes, you will. Eventually, you will."
"No," he whispered. She got up from the bed and walked over to him. She placed her hand on his cheek.
"I love you," she said. She kissed one cheek. "And I always will." She kissed the other. "But there's nothing we can do." She kissed his mouth. "Goodbye," She turned away and headed for the door.
"Lily!" James called after her. She didn't turn around. She simply continued on her trek to the Shrine.
"Lily, you can't do this! I'll find a way out! Please say you believe me," he yelled into the hall. He received no answer.
[Author's Note: Fluff... I know it and I'm sorry. Review anyway.]
Chapter Ten
Two days later James had re-located from the Gryffindor common room to the Sanctuary. And that's where Lily found him. Lying on his bed staring straight at the canopy over his bed.
"You should have told me," she said upon walking into the room. She sat down on the bed next to him.
"I'm sorry," he said, sounding beyond anguished. "I'm so, so sorry." He took her hand in his.
Lily squeezed her eyes shut to keep the tears burning the backs of her eyes from escaping. She had already cried enough, she told herself. For the past two days she had holed up in the Shrine, not eating, and crying herself to sleep. Finally she decided that enough was enough and that she was going to talk to James. Or rather, Ebony had decided. She had locked her out of the Shrine.
"You had no right," she said, her voice shaking slightly. "No right at all."
"I know." He said, turning toward her. "I have no excuse." He looked pleadingly into her eyes. "The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt you, Lily." Upon hearing these words Lily gave a great heaving sigh and began to cry.
"I love you, Lily." He sat up. "You have to believe me."
"I know," she said, her words barely distinguishable among her heaving sobs. "I know you do. But why couldn't you tell me? I would have... I would have loved you anyway."
"God, Lily." He said, pressing his forehead against hers. "I guess I just... I wanted it to last forever. I love you, so much. I thought I could find a way out of the betrothal."
Lily placed her head against his shoulder, her sobs beginning to subside, and her wrapped his arms around her. "Did you even ask your father if you could get out of it?" she asked.
He hesitated. "No," he said. She pulled away slightly. "I was trying to find a way, Lily. He wouldn't have just let me out."
"You didn't even try," she said, her voice thick from her crying. She lay her head back on his shoulder.
"He owled me two days ago." He said. Lily raised her head from his shoulder, once again.
"What did he say?"
"Amy owled her father and told him about our relationship." He said, trying to find a way to tell her what his father had said.
"And?"
"And... there are some problems."
"What sort of problems?" she asked. He hesitated. How should he tell her? "James?" she prompted.
"Ican'tseeyouanymoreorhe'llkillyou" he blurted. Lily shook her head.
"Repeat that?"
"I can't see you anymore," he said. "Or my father will kill you." Lily turned white as soon as the words passed through his lips. She didn't say anything for a few moments.
"Maybe it's for the best," she said at length.
"What!?" James was shocked.
"Well, you're getting married," she said, defending herself. He jumped off the bed and stood in front of her.
"How can you say that?" he yelled. "How can you say that it's for the best? I love you, Lily, I refuse to marry that bitch!"
"James, please," Lily said quietly. "I love you too. But there's nothing we can do! You're going to marry Amy LaRue, no matter what you say."
"I can't believe you're saying this." He said. "We can find a way."
"No, James. We can't. You'll marry Amy and have a happy life. That's that."
"I'll never be happy with her." He said.
"Yes, you will. Eventually, you will."
"No," he whispered. She got up from the bed and walked over to him. She placed her hand on his cheek.
"I love you," she said. She kissed one cheek. "And I always will." She kissed the other. "But there's nothing we can do." She kissed his mouth. "Goodbye," She turned away and headed for the door.
"Lily!" James called after her. She didn't turn around. She simply continued on her trek to the Shrine.
"Lily, you can't do this! I'll find a way out! Please say you believe me," he yelled into the hall. He received no answer.
[Author's Note: Fluff... I know it and I'm sorry. Review anyway.]