Lust, the other L word that our society seems to be fascinated by. It, however, is usually confused with the most famous of L words, love. Now love and lust are apparently two different things- but let's check out the difference as described in the dictionary: Lust: "To have an intense or obsessive desire, especially one that is sexual."

Ah, the other common word- sex. Why is it that when sex is involved, things turn complicated? My guess would be that it's a complicated thing itself. Lust seems to provoke feelings and emotions in us- which we mistake for love. So when I think about my love for Logan, I have to wonder if it's merely lust or is it really love.

I wouldn't say that I believe completely in the whole, fall in love get married have children thing. As much as I'd like that to happen, I doubt it's a real thing. See, I know I at least lust for Logan now and I do like being with him- but does that mean that I'm in love or that I love the guy?

What a thing to ponder, it's confusing- especially when sex is involved. How can we be sure we love someone after we have sex with them? Shouldn't we love someone before we give into our desires and sleep with them? Wouldn't that save the trouble of any pregnancies if we loved our lovers like the name suggests?

I'm sitting here in bed, watching the pondering Rory Gilmore fiddle with a notebook and pen as she scribbles after we've had sex. God, I love that she's so addicted to writing, it makes me curious about what she's writing about. Is she judging my performance? Is she writing about the experience? Or did she just get this brilliant idea and couldn't wait for us to be done to write it down? Many a thing to think about when being in love with Rory Gilmore. It's too bad she didn't know and I can't exactly tell her.

A girl so perfect, genuine, and obviously not as innocent as I had originally thought, wouldn't want to go through that whole love thing again. And do I believe in love anyway? I never did, but then I met Rory and my world just did a belly flop.

For me, love is a battle field- and no I'm not being corny and mimicking the song. I had to win Rory- there was memories of her exes that lingered and hovered over our relationship and I needed to get her to forget about them. Then there was Marty- her best male friend. He was totally in love with her and I needed to get to her before he did. Luckily I did just that and here we are.

Love is more like wanting to be with someone, longing for that person and being their everything. It's not about worshiping them to the end's earth or anything like in those romance chick flicks that Rory drags me to. Love for me is being with Rory, it's a comfort, its safety yet hazard. Love is walking controversy and there's nothing that can be done to change that.

I often wonder if Rory loves me back, if she feels the need to be with me every minute of the day, and honestly, I hope she does. I know, the great Logan Huntzberger, a one woman man! But with Rory how could I be any other way. She demands my commitment, and she gets jealous of any other women in my life. I often think that she believes I'll leave her, that I won't want to be with her anymore. But that is so far from the truth and I hope she realizes it.

She's a special woman, beautiful in an obvious way that she is completely oblivious to. The fact that she doesn't know her beauty or her innocence are what make her so attractive, so alluring. She has this wild side that completely catch you off guard and you think that this is a completely different person. She lets herself out of a shell and its awesome to see her like that, to be free. But I still love her up-tight, scared self, because that's who she is, that's Rory Gilmore.

After sex, she's even cuter- she self consciously pulls the sheet up to her shoulders and tucks it under her arms as if someone were to walk in. She doesn't like to be in the nude afterwards, so she usually puts on pajamas. She's the perfect combination of adult and child. Who knew that I could ever fall in love with such an incredible woman! I never thought I'd see the day!

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