Disclaimer: I do not own Siayuki.
Summary: Everyone remembers the night when Gojyo found Hakkai nearly dead. This is some little conversation I thought of when listening to some songs from Delerium. Mind you, the conversation is happening three years after later.
"Hakkai?"
Hakkai looked at Gojyo and asked, "Yes Gojyo?"
Gojyo took Hakkai by the hand and said, "I need to talk to you by the river."
Hakkai smiled and said, "Okay.'
Gojyo led Hakkai to a nearby river. Gojyo sat on a rock. Hakkai sat next to him and asked, "Did you need to ask me something, Gojyo?"
Gojyo was silent for a few minutes until he sighed and said, "Hakkai. Remember when I found you three years ago? When you were lying on the ground half dead?"
Hakkai nodded.
Gojyo looked down at the ground and continued. "When I looked at your eyes that rainy day, I saw the pain you went through. Your eyes were screaming that you wanted to die. Tell me Hakkai, what is it that you fear more than death?"
Hakkai smiled and said, "Gojyo, I do not fear death. Everything in life has a purpose. Everything in life dies eventually. When I was lying there on the ground I was thinking of death and how I truly feared that dark void. When I looked up at you though, my mind gave up the thought of how great death would be. My eyes still showed death though. I guess, deep down, even after I still wish I could die."
Gojyo sighed and pulled out a smoke and lighted it. He inhaled the nicotine and then slowly exhaled. He looked at Hakkai and said in a serious voice, "I feel the same way as you do Hakkai. I guess the only thing in the world that we should have to fear is ourselves and the way we think when things begin to take a turn for the worst."
Hakkai nodded. Gojyo laughed and said, "Man. I don't know why I dragged you out here just so I could ask such a stupid question. Come on. Let's get back to the camp. I'm sure the baka saru will want you to cook."
Hakkai chuckled lightly and replied, "Yeah. You're right Gojyo. We should be heading back."
They both got up and went back to camp to find a hungry Goku and a pissed off Sanzo. Sanzo looked at Hakkai and Gojyo and said, "Where the hell have you two been? The saru would not shut up about food."
Goku yelled, "I'M HUNGRY!!!!"
Sanzo hit Goku with his harisen. Hakkai and Gojyo both looked at each other and laughed, both thinking of the same thing; fearing death is fearing life itself.
A/N: Well that wasn't long. Please review. Flames are welcome. I dedicate this story to my grandpa who died the day after Christmas. My family is gonna miss him very much. Even though flames are welcome, kinda go easy cuz I really am dedicating this fanfic to my grandpa. begins to cry Thanks for having the time to read.