A/N- Hey! I'm actually going to continue! Well I'm doing my best to add
chapters every day so I hope you guys are still reading. I'm sorry I
Raven's a little out of character and I promise I will make the chapters
longer! Thanx to those who reviewed, you guys are great!
Disclaimer: I wish I owned the Teen Titans but sadly I don't. I really don't need this every chapter! I also don't own 'Hello' by Evanescence. K?
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Raven awoke with a start. Why was she having these dreams? What did they mean? She looked at her alarm clock. It was already 6 A.M. She bit her lower lip and tried to fight back a sob.
"Pull yourself together, Raven," she told herself ",it was only a dream. You've been through worse than a nightmare."
'You know, talking to yourself is the first sign of insanity' a voice came in her head.
Raven started breathing very heavily. She pulled off her covers to reveal her mattress drenched in her sweat. She scratched the back of her neck and undressed and got into the shower.
When she got out she put on her normal uniform and went to the kitchen for some breakfast. She expected the kitchen to be empty but found all the Titans talking and laughing with all the breakfast long gone with the remnants and dirty dishes left. Robin was chatting away with Manzilla and Starfire. Cyborg was lying on his back on a chair with content while Beast Boy was reading a comic.
"Oh, hi Raven. We didn't want to disturb you so we had breakfast without you." Manzilla said with a fake smile, But Raven was the only one that seemed to notice.
"By the way Raven, we came up with a new strategy," said Robin.
"Which is?" she asked but her eyes softening at Robin.
"Well, Manzilla is going to be a new member so we only need five in battle and since you're going through a tough time we thought you'd go through the strategy first." Joined Cyborg.
"What is the Strategy?" asked Raven, clearly loosing her temper.
Everyone noticed this but Beast Boy was quick.
"Well, we thought that you could stay in the tower during battles for a week and use you as a second resort and then next week I stay then Cyborg and so on." He said looking at Raven with a look of guilt in his eyes.
Raven furrowed her eyebrows with her eyes shining with hurt and pain. Why would they be so cruel? She thought they were her friends. Apparently that wasn't the case. Her eyes casted on Robin. He was the leader, how could he let this happen?
"Raven, if you don't-"Robin was cut of by Ravens weak smile.
"No its ok, really." Said Raven, her voice wavering.
With that Raven walked towards her room. Forgetting that she was starving.
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It was mid-afternoon and everyone, not including Raven, was out fighting and actually doing something. Raven sat in her room staring outside at the setting sun. She remembered what happened before the alarm went off at noon.
~*~Flashback~*~
Raven was on the patio staring down at the city.
'It's prettier at night' she thought to herself
"Hello, miss dark-ass." Came a voice behind her.
Raven turned around, startled. It was Manzilla.
"I have better things to do than speak to someone like you." Raven retorted.
"Ohhh.arent we the mean one." She said evilly.
"Go away." Raven answered in a deadly tone
"You're right I can speak to Robin, he's so hot." Manzilla said looking at Ravens face.
She could tell she had struck a nerve. Raven's eyes had opened wide and bit her lower lip.
"You have a crush on him don't you?" Manzilla said icily.
"No, I don't so I suggest you shut up or there'll be a hole in your ass if there isn't one already." Said Raven coolly.
Manzilla raised her eyebrows at this but ignored it just the same.
"You know maybe he'll like you more if you lighten up." She said grinning.
"He never will," said Raven fighting off the hurt ", He and Starfire are dating."
Manzilla looked like she was in deep thought.
"Maybe I can fix that." She said looking wicked.
With that she walked away. Raven stared after her with fear in her eyes. What had she done?
~*~End Flashback~*~
Raven sighed to herself. She felt so alone. She wanted to fight back all her fears but that was impossible. She had so many problems. Her so called friends were acting like she was nothing more than a person living with them. She was having strange nightmares from out of the blue. And Manzilla seemed to be taking her place in the Teen Titans.
She was very troubled and had no one to run to. Then again she was raised that way. She was taught never to show emotions. She was used to being alone from her years at the orphanage. Anyone would have thought that she was prone to these kinds of feelings.
She was disturbed in her chain of thought by the entrance opening and a loud yell of victory. The Titans were back.
Raven flew out her door and went to see how the fight went.
"It was the best fight we ever had!" said Cyborg ", we beet Red-X in three blows!"
"Then what took you so long?" Raven queried.
"Well," Beast Boy hesitated ", We sort of had victory celebration."
"Why didn't you ask me to come along?" asked Raven getting angry.
"Because you don't enjoy it when we have our festivities of celebration." Said Starfire.
"Of course." Said Raven flying to her room.
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Raven started crying, she couldn't stand it anymore it was too much.
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
She was crying so much her mascara started to drip off.
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
She didn't care anymore. Starfire, Beast Boy, Cyborg, None mattered.
If I smile then don't Believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Robin. It seemed to echo in her head.
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
She hated this. She hated pain. How can she make it go away?
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here all that's left of yesterday
Slowly Raven drifted off to sleep.
~*~DREAM~*~
She was in her nightgown but it was stained with blood.
"Hello? Anyone there?" She called out.
All that followed was laughter and an army of skeletal like creatures appeared in front of her. Slowly they closed in on her and blood sprayed everywhere.
~*~END DREAM~*~
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Hey I'll make it longer next time k? Till next time then!
Disclaimer: I wish I owned the Teen Titans but sadly I don't. I really don't need this every chapter! I also don't own 'Hello' by Evanescence. K?
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Raven awoke with a start. Why was she having these dreams? What did they mean? She looked at her alarm clock. It was already 6 A.M. She bit her lower lip and tried to fight back a sob.
"Pull yourself together, Raven," she told herself ",it was only a dream. You've been through worse than a nightmare."
'You know, talking to yourself is the first sign of insanity' a voice came in her head.
Raven started breathing very heavily. She pulled off her covers to reveal her mattress drenched in her sweat. She scratched the back of her neck and undressed and got into the shower.
When she got out she put on her normal uniform and went to the kitchen for some breakfast. She expected the kitchen to be empty but found all the Titans talking and laughing with all the breakfast long gone with the remnants and dirty dishes left. Robin was chatting away with Manzilla and Starfire. Cyborg was lying on his back on a chair with content while Beast Boy was reading a comic.
"Oh, hi Raven. We didn't want to disturb you so we had breakfast without you." Manzilla said with a fake smile, But Raven was the only one that seemed to notice.
"By the way Raven, we came up with a new strategy," said Robin.
"Which is?" she asked but her eyes softening at Robin.
"Well, Manzilla is going to be a new member so we only need five in battle and since you're going through a tough time we thought you'd go through the strategy first." Joined Cyborg.
"What is the Strategy?" asked Raven, clearly loosing her temper.
Everyone noticed this but Beast Boy was quick.
"Well, we thought that you could stay in the tower during battles for a week and use you as a second resort and then next week I stay then Cyborg and so on." He said looking at Raven with a look of guilt in his eyes.
Raven furrowed her eyebrows with her eyes shining with hurt and pain. Why would they be so cruel? She thought they were her friends. Apparently that wasn't the case. Her eyes casted on Robin. He was the leader, how could he let this happen?
"Raven, if you don't-"Robin was cut of by Ravens weak smile.
"No its ok, really." Said Raven, her voice wavering.
With that Raven walked towards her room. Forgetting that she was starving.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
It was mid-afternoon and everyone, not including Raven, was out fighting and actually doing something. Raven sat in her room staring outside at the setting sun. She remembered what happened before the alarm went off at noon.
~*~Flashback~*~
Raven was on the patio staring down at the city.
'It's prettier at night' she thought to herself
"Hello, miss dark-ass." Came a voice behind her.
Raven turned around, startled. It was Manzilla.
"I have better things to do than speak to someone like you." Raven retorted.
"Ohhh.arent we the mean one." She said evilly.
"Go away." Raven answered in a deadly tone
"You're right I can speak to Robin, he's so hot." Manzilla said looking at Ravens face.
She could tell she had struck a nerve. Raven's eyes had opened wide and bit her lower lip.
"You have a crush on him don't you?" Manzilla said icily.
"No, I don't so I suggest you shut up or there'll be a hole in your ass if there isn't one already." Said Raven coolly.
Manzilla raised her eyebrows at this but ignored it just the same.
"You know maybe he'll like you more if you lighten up." She said grinning.
"He never will," said Raven fighting off the hurt ", He and Starfire are dating."
Manzilla looked like she was in deep thought.
"Maybe I can fix that." She said looking wicked.
With that she walked away. Raven stared after her with fear in her eyes. What had she done?
~*~End Flashback~*~
Raven sighed to herself. She felt so alone. She wanted to fight back all her fears but that was impossible. She had so many problems. Her so called friends were acting like she was nothing more than a person living with them. She was having strange nightmares from out of the blue. And Manzilla seemed to be taking her place in the Teen Titans.
She was very troubled and had no one to run to. Then again she was raised that way. She was taught never to show emotions. She was used to being alone from her years at the orphanage. Anyone would have thought that she was prone to these kinds of feelings.
She was disturbed in her chain of thought by the entrance opening and a loud yell of victory. The Titans were back.
Raven flew out her door and went to see how the fight went.
"It was the best fight we ever had!" said Cyborg ", we beet Red-X in three blows!"
"Then what took you so long?" Raven queried.
"Well," Beast Boy hesitated ", We sort of had victory celebration."
"Why didn't you ask me to come along?" asked Raven getting angry.
"Because you don't enjoy it when we have our festivities of celebration." Said Starfire.
"Of course." Said Raven flying to her room.
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Raven started crying, she couldn't stand it anymore it was too much.
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
She was crying so much her mascara started to drip off.
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
She didn't care anymore. Starfire, Beast Boy, Cyborg, None mattered.
If I smile then don't Believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Robin. It seemed to echo in her head.
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
She hated this. She hated pain. How can she make it go away?
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here all that's left of yesterday
Slowly Raven drifted off to sleep.
~*~DREAM~*~
She was in her nightgown but it was stained with blood.
"Hello? Anyone there?" She called out.
All that followed was laughter and an army of skeletal like creatures appeared in front of her. Slowly they closed in on her and blood sprayed everywhere.
~*~END DREAM~*~
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Hey I'll make it longer next time k? Till next time then!