A/N- Thanxs a bunch for reviewing! It means a lot! Alright sorry I'm not updating as much it's just that dreary days depress me. It's been raining since this morning. Alright sorry I left you guys in suspense just that I ran out of ideas, but now I'm fully reloaded and ready to write! WARNING: Extremely sad!

Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans I'd be rich. Am I rich? No. I also don't own 'Imaginary' By Evanescence (I love that band!) and 'In the End' by Linkin Park (love that band too!)

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Raven stared at the others. Have they read my mail? She had fear plastered all over her face. It was so plain that the others were fully convinced. Raven had been enrolled at the H.I.V.E.

There was a long and awkward silence. Raven didn't want to say anything. They all stared at her. There was a mild trace of hurt in their eyes. Raven still couldn't face the fact that she couldn't ask Slade to forget it. She knew if she did, the Titans will never trust her again.

Finally the silence was broken by Raven.

"Why were you guys reading my mail." She asked in her monotone.

"Why?! We didn't even open it! We were too scared! I mean it's a H.I.V.E. Letter with the words 'enrollment' and addressed to Raven! Our friend has just turned into an enemy!" Beast Boy said, very close to tears.

That was the last straw for Starfire. She flew to Raven and hugged her tightly and started to bawl on her shoulder.

"Don't go! Please, stay! We will miss you so much!" Starfire sobbed.

"Starfire, she is the enemy now. We don't hug enemies. We fight them." Said Manzilla as she walked into the kitchen, her hair back to normal.

Starfire was still shedding many tears and Beast Boy's face was now streaked with water. Now it was Cyborg's turn to speak.

"So, that's it, huh?" He asked. "You're just going to leave and join the bad side."

If it was possible for robots to cry, then Cyborg would have. All the attention turned to Robin. He threw the letter at Raven who caught it with both hands.

"I'll give you an hour to pack, then you leave." He said quietly.

Raven stared at him with hurt in her eyes but clearly, she had hurt him worse than he had hurt her. Robin got up and shoved his way through the kitchen. He went up to his room and looked in his mirror. Meanwhile, Raven was packing up her stuff in her room.

~I linger in the doorway

of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name~

That's when she came across a picture of her and Robin at Starfire's birthday party.

~let me stay

where the wind will whisper to me

where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story~

In the picture, Robin was coaxing Raven into eating some cake.

~in my field of paper flowers

and candy clouds of lullaby~

Raven smiled momentarily but then ripped up the photo.

~I lie inside myself for hours

and watch my purple sky fly over me~

She frowned at the remnants of paper.

~don't say I'm out of touch

with this rampant chaos - your reality~

They were enemies now. All of them.

~I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge

the nightmare I built my own world to escape~

She continued packing her stuff. Until she came across the statue.

~in my field of paper flowers

and candy clouds of lullaby~

What will she do with it? She knew.

~i lie inside myself for hours

and watch my purple sky fly over me~

She took hold of the statue,

~swallowed up in the sound of my screaming

cannot cease for the fear of silent nights

oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming

the goddess of imaginary light~

And slammed it on the ground.

~in my field of paper flowers

and candy clouds of lullaby~

There came a black smoke from out of the statue and left through the doorway. Raven was confused. What was that thing?

~i lie inside myself for hours

and watch my purple sky fly over me~

Raven knew she'll find out someday but right now she needed to finish packing.

~*~ 1 hour later ~*~

Everyone was standing at the doorway. Everyone had downcast eyes. But most importantly, everyone was resenting Ravens decision. Starfire had already started sobbing the moment Raven had walked out of her room. Beast Boy avoided everyone's gaze. And Cyborg seemed tuned out. But Robin, he looked like the living dead. He was no longer the happy leader he was. He was a sullen-faced boy who looked like he lost everything in the world.

Raven started to shed tears. And mouthed an 'I'm sorry' to them all. She was going to hug Robin but Robin backed away. He was no longer sullen. He was angry.

"I DON'T hug the enemy." He said venomously.

Raven cringed at the venom in his voice.

'It doesn't matter. I have a new life." She thought.

But this thought didn't stop the tears from flowing. Soon she was sobbing harder than Starfire. She wished none of this ever happened. She wished she could stay and pretend none of this ever happened. But she, like the rest, knew that she would never have the trust that they used to have. As Raven hugged them all one last time, her tears stopped flowing.

'They want what's best for me.' She thought.

'They know that this is what I want.' And with that last thought, Raven walked out of the tower. She could still hear Starfire bawling like a wounded animal. Then she remembered all her good times with Starfire.

~*~ Flashback ~*~

It was late afternoon. All the boys had gone to a baseball game. Raven didn't want to go because she didn't enjoy sports. Starfire didn't go because she didn't understand the game.

So Raven was reading and Starfire was cooking.

"Hey, Raven! Could you help me with cooking dinner? I need help." Said Starfire, from the kitchen.

Raven shrugged and told her she'd help. That was the first time Raven ever actually had fun. They experimented with recipes they've never tried before and swapped ones that they had. They even made some of their best ideas for desert. They had a great feast that night. All thanks to Raven and Starfire.

~*~ End Flashback~*~

Raven almost began to cry again. She remembered all the fun times she had with Cyborg and Beast boy.

~*~ Flashback~*~

"Hey Raven! Want to play with us on our 3 player game?" asked Beast Boy.

"Yea, please Raven! We need 3 players or we can't play!" said Cyborg.

"No." she stated simply.

"Oh come on! Please?" Cyborg and Beast Boy said in unison.

Raven looked at their pleading faces and sighed.

"Very well." Raven said.

And they had a blast. Although Raven didn't show it, she was having fun. It turned out Raven won the whole game which made Beast Boy and Cyborg to gawk at her.

~*~ End Flashback~*~

Raven smirked but she was weeping on the inside. She remembered the photo she ripped up earlier.

~*~ Flashback~*~

"Come on, just a little bit of cake!" Robin said hold a spoonful of cake up to Raven's mouth.

Raven just shut her lips together and shoved the spoonful away.

"You know you want it!" Robin persisted.

Raven had enough of this.

"I don't want any-"she began but a spoonful of cake cut her off.

Raven made a goofy look.

"Oh, hold that look!" Cyborg yelled as he took the picture.

~*~ End Flashback~*~

Raven shook off the memories.

'Stop living in the past.' She thought to herself.

That's when she remembered the letter. She took out the letter and read.

~ Dear Raven,

You have been enrolled in the H.I.V.E Academy of Villainy. You will need only a simple bag and some pens and pencils. Bring 4 marble notebooks and a binder. You must catch the Train on Nortenbrook Alley on September 5th at 2 'o clock. The tickets are attached to the letter. Congratulations on being accepted.

Sincerely,

Agatha Brooks

Headmistress~

Raven reread the letter, making sure she read right. September 5th was tomorrow! She checked her pockets. She had just about enough for 3 taxi trips some equipment, a place to spend the night, and a McDonald's burger.

~*~ That night in a small inn~*~

Raven walked in her room and turned on the light. She looked around the room. It was small but elegant just the same. There was only one bed, a vanity, a bathroom and a small refrigerator. Raven dropped her supplies and plopped on her bed. What a day.

She started to cry again.

'No, Raven. You're not going to cry. This is for the best. Right?' she thought to herself.

Raven nodded defiantly and started to walk toward the vanity and opened a drawer attached to it.

~ (It starts with)

One thing / I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme

To explain in due time~

She picked up her supplies and stuffed them inside the drawer.

~ All I know

time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down to the end of the day

The clock ticks life away~

She took out the clothes she was going to put on tomorrow, but out of her great luck she found a photo album.

~ It's so unreal

didn't look out below

Watch the time go right out the window

Trying to hold on / but didn't even know

Wasted it all just to

Watch you go~

She decided to look at the past, one last time.

~ I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart

What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
tried

so hard~

She went through all the pictures, each bringing back tears.

~ And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter~

Raven knew that after tonight she will throw away this album.

~ One thing / I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme

To remind myself how

I tried so hard~

But when she came to a picture with Robin, she had enough.

~ In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised it got so (far)~

Raven threw the album on the floor and started to weep.

~ Things aren't the way they were before

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to me

In the end~

Of all the things she could have found she found the saddest token in her bag.

~ You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart

What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I

I tried so hard~

She wept for hours, wondering how things are going back at the tower.

~ And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter~

Finally after endless hours Raven stopped crying and looked at the bedside clock. It was 1 A.M.

~ I've put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

And for all this

There's only one thing you should know~

Raven undressed and took a quick shower to wash away all the tears and worries she had.

~ I've put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

And for all this

There's only one thing you should know~

She looked at the Album on the floor. She picked it up and threw it out.

~ I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter~

Raven walked up to her bed and tried not to sleep but she closed her eyes for a few seconds and fell into her dreams.

~*~ DREAM ~*~

Raven was alone in complete darkness. Everyone was gone. She sat on the stone floor, sobbing in both pain and loneliness. That's when a breath of hot fire burned the back of her neck. She turned but the pain blinded her. She tried yelling but more fire escaped into her throat.

"HELP!" was all that escaped.

~*~ END DREAM ~*~

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A/N-So what do you think so far? I love writing! I'll update real soon!