Touya reached his home in only a few days, taking what now felt like an almost leisurely pace. He arrived to note that his father's realm had seen better times, surely, but had been fairly well kept up, considering that, while Touya was gone, virtually the only thing binding many of them there was honor. His adopted father, he remembered after a moment.
He entered almost cautiously, slowly remembering his way around. Or rather, he remembered every detail, yet did not want to rush himself. After a short while, he decided to identify the youki of the remaining servants – only 23, out of nearly 100. But after so long… it was a wonder to have even that many, Touya supposed. Of these, he sought out Gitana, and found her quickly, realizing she was at the other side of the fortress. Touya cursed, making his way over quickly.
He threw open the door and ran into the room, hugging Gitana tightly.
"Touya?!" she exclaimed, returning the embrace as soon as she recognized him.
The moment he heard the old, familiar voice, Touya fell into tears, clutching Gitana as tightly as he could, as though trying to grip something to hold him in reality.
And though he quickly began accidentally hurting her, Gitana said nothing, knowing Touya must be in more pain than she could know.
Touya sat, staring at his hands in his lap, silent. He had just finished telling Gitana all he'd endured, as she'd asked him to. She merely stood still a second, unsure what to do. This was not the young boy she'd cared for so long ago. In his place, was someone she didn't know, and was almost a bit afraid of.
Still, he was hurting, and, changed or not, Gitana would not let that continue, if there was anything she could do. "Touya, I'm so sorry…" she said, holding him gently. After a moment, he returned the embrace, much more softly than the first.
"Gitana… I'm not sure who I am anymore…" he muttered after a moment in the silent embrace. "Miyuki's gone. Hiroshi, Moruguhause, and, of course, mother are all dead. The man I called father for the first half of my life wasn't my father, and the man I hated and feared for most of the second half of my life thus far was my real father. And once Moruguhause died… I've become a beast. I raped her: beat her. Nitronata, that is. I killed Miyuki myself. I don't know who I am… I'm scared."
Gitana squeezed Touya little more tightly. "Touya..." was all she could say, a murmured word, a whisper, a plea. What could she say?
Touya only stayed a day or two at Hiroshi's domain, before restlessness drove him on, despite Gitana's pleas that he stay. In hindsight, Touya thought he should have stayed. Gitana would have taken care of him better than he did himself, and if he hadn't left, things wouldn't have gotten worse. But then, maybe they would have. Who was to know?
Later, he would chalk it up to destiny. He had to leave. If it weren't for the damned, plotted course of an ice master, with everything predetermined and decided, he might have lived a real life. Instead, he realized all his choices were false, all his hopes were hopeless, and there was no point but to fulfill the endless cycle.
He left, moving without heed, only heading forwards, but for his hunting. But that was rare. He found he wasn't hungry for anything. But he did want to hurt something. He was filled with an endless supply of rage and confusion, stemming from Moruguhause, especially from his last words.
He chanced upon several small villages, but it wasn't until he reached the closest large city that he realized what he wanted. And it was there that he found an outlet to his rage.
It was the city of Viroqua, small compared to the great cities of the upper levels of Makai, but still fairly large, especially compared to the severity of the land and people.
It bustled with people, and to Touya, who'd live most of his life with no one but Nitronata and Moruguhause, and before that, his parents and a handful of servants, it was almost overwhelming.
He walked about, his eyes wide, wondering how so many people could live together, when a youkai fairly crashed into him. He scowled, calling "Watch it!" over his shoulder to the youkai.
The youkai, a seven-foot tall minotaur-like creature, turned, glaring at Touya. "You watch it, child!" the youkai roared.
Touya adjusted to face the creature, grow angry, and the pent up rage began burning at him again. "Take it back, you fool beast!"
The minotaur laughed. "Why? You're hardly any threat to ME," it said. It froze mid-laugh, and Touya slammed into it with a punch, shattering the creature.
Others who had been watching suddenly came up, to tell him to leave or, ironically, to 'cool it.' At first, Touya tried to simply tell them to leave him alone, but some of them began to attack him, to try and force him away. Touya lost it. Everyone within a hundred foot radius of him froze and shattered as he sent a wave of youki out. It was the work of a few hours to destroy the entire city, and as Touya went, he became more specific.
He almost left one woman, but her fear fluttered in his senses, and he tracked her down like an animal. He found her, a small, pretty, young thing. She was a neko anthro ((cat-person)). She was pushed into a corner, shivering and crying. He looked her over, licking his lips hungrily.
"Oh, no… You're not… not seriously thinking of…?" she trailed off morosely, looking at him fearfully. He grinned, tugging her up and out of the corner where she knelt, and used her harshly.
The last few people he'd killed had been messy, bloody affairs. Her, he showed some sort of respect. He froze as he had the first few, lying full length on her side, gloriously naked and bruised. He ran his hands a final time down the curve of her gratuitous hips, before leaving. He was little better than an animal.
After Viroqua, he left a trail of destruction in his wake, devastating three more cities before the rage went out of him.
A/N man, Touya's got some Rage in him! But I think he's justified. He's been cooped up the last half of his life, beaten, belittled, abused and raped. He'shad all this anger and helplessness and what not bottled up in him, and it just exploded!