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Rory and Dean broke up, she's going out with Jess, and the kiss at the piano did happen. Everything more or less happened, and Luke and Lorelai are married with a seven year old girl, Stephanie, and a five year old boy, Daniel.

Summary: Some secrets are better off kept, some you should tell. Bad summary. Trory.

Disclaimer: I only own this story, my imagination, and the people you don't recognize. I wish I owned Chad though. :)

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Okay, so the school wasn't exactly what Rory had thought it would be. Rory had trouble fitting in with the people there. She decided that she would be girly-girl in school and then just whatever she felt like anytime else.

Mom? Yea, Rory kind of forgot about her. Rory was having to much fun making people look at her. The first week of her new school she got asked out fifteen times, although the same people asked her out more than once.

Rory and Tristan decided that if they were gonna kiss that openly it should mean something, so the following week, they told everyone that they were just friends.

Rory had been at the school for a month now and it was only noon on a Saturday sitting on the rollout couch that she remembered her family in Stars Hollow. She had to call them.

Phone--------

Lu- Yea?

R- Hey Luke

Lu- Hey, long time no talk

R- Yea, sorry about that. I kinda got caught up in my own little world here, ya know. It's amazing!

Lu-Well it's good to hear from you every now and then, although you know that your mom wants you to call more!

R- Yea, I know.

Lu-Which brings me to my next point, why did you call here and not your mom directly?

R- Cause I need to talk to someone who isn't directly related to me, but that I can trust.

Lu-Are you okay?

R- Well, um, physically I'm fine, but emotionally, I don't know if I wanna come back.

Lu- Are you serious?

R- Luke, it's amazing in New York! It's a chance to make a new start.

Lu- Just curious but what's wrong with your life now?

R- It's too perfect. Look I just wanted to let you know that's a possibility, and tell mom that I'll call her tonight.

Lu- Is there anything I could say to change your mind?

R- I don't think so.

Lu-Okay, bye kiddo.

R- Bye.

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'Luke who was that?' Lorelai asked coming through the door for her afternoon coffee.

'Oh, ummm, just the, um, coffee supplier, yea the coffee supplier.

'Oh, but since when does a conversation with the coffee supplier end with, "bye kiddo"?'

'New guy, he's nice.' Luke said turning around and pouring her coffee.

'Mmm. I miss Rory. When will she call? She hasn't called in forever!!'

'I know, she'll call soon. You know she will.'

'Okay.' Lorelai said staring down at the counter sadly, and drawing endless circles.

'It'll get better.'

'How do you know? My freaking teenage daughter is alone in New York! She wont even tell where!! For all I know, she could have became a hooker with a bad rep! My Rory, a hooker!!'

'She says she needs to do this.'

'You talked to her?'

'Oh, umm, yea.'

'When?'

'Just before you came in.'

'What did she say? When is she coming home? She has school Luke and college and—'

'She's not coming home.'

'What?' Lorelai asked her voice squeaky.

'She doesn't want to come home and she's pretty firm on her decision.'

'Why would she not call me too?' She fighting back tears.

'She needed someone who wouldn't bombard her with questions, she said she was gonna call you tonight.'

'Yea, and she also said that she'd call everyday. Look where that brought us.' Lorelai said taking a sip of her coffee.

NEW YORK======

'Hey Rory.' Devon said coming into Jake's apartment.

'Hey.'

'So umm, Jake told me that you were here, and I just wanted to talk to you.'

'Devon, I hardly know you! All I know is that you're 23, in Jake's classes and that you know my name!' Rory laughed.

'What do you mean I know your name? Of course I do!'

'Well, I know this one guy in particular who doesn't. Well he does, he just doesn't choose to use it.' Rory said.

'Tristan?'

'Yea. So what did you need to talk to me about?'

'Your home. Your real home.'

'Ahh, and why?'

'Everyone wants you here, me too, but I'm the one wondering, but why aren't you at home...with your family.'

'Because I have some issue's that I cant face anymore. My town is literally 100 people and my secrets are their secrets. I just needed a place to start over, and with Tristan here, it gave me a good excuse to come. My only problem is convincing my mom. If I really know her, she'll track me down!'

'You like Tristan.'

'What? That's upsurd!' Rory laughed.

'No it's true, that's the second time you've mentioned his name to me and you have some kind of glow when you mention his name.'

'Well, he knows I like him.'

'And he likes you, why aren't you to dating? I mean you already kiss him willingly,'

'Why cant people just leave it alone?' Rory asked frustrated and standing up letting the blanket roll off her.

'Everyone's curious! Even Tristan!'

'Well then you can tell everyone to leave me alone about, because this bull is making regret every decision I ever did with Tristan!'

'Every decision?'

'UHHH!! Just tell everyone to leave me alone!' Rory said before walking away and into Tristan's room where she could shut the door and lock it.

Jake and Tristan went out to get some movies. They left Rory a note since she was sleeping when they left. It seemed like she was alone in Tristan's room for a life time! She decided to start looking around his room. She had never really paid much attention to his living habits.

She went over to the small dresser and opened the wooden box on top. She found several pictures of a young boy and a father just having fun. Some other pictures were a whole family, four kids and two parents. Rory took this as Tristan's family a long time ago. Before his father started his insane business trips.

She found an article in the bottom. It was about the government finding this illegal group, and how they have destroyed it. No members left. On the bottom, was a small message she took to be written by Tristan, It read, "Every member? What about the one I'm related too?"

She decided to check the rest of the room sighing and trying to make the box look like it hadn't been searched through. She looked at the clock on the wall. She had been in his room for two hours.

She knew that Devon had left, he wouldn't have had the guts to stay, and she knew that the two guys weren't back yet. She would have heard them wrestling for the remote control by now.

She lied down on Tristan's bed sniffing in his scent. She yearned to be in his strong arms, protecting her from all the bad things in life. No, stop! You can't think of him like that!! By why not? Her mind battled itself. Both sides surrendering and defeated at the same time. She heard a light knock on the door.

'Come in, it's open.' She said just loud enough for the person on the other side to hear. The door slowly opened and a familiar head looked through.

'Hey, you okay?' Tristan asked worried.

'Not really.' She said looking down. He frowned and shut the door behind himself.

'Speak to me.' He said sitting on the bed next to Rory.

'How did you know I was in here?'

'Devon came by the store on the way out. He told us what happened.'

'Oh.' She said as her cheeks got a little red to them.

'Hey, hey, now don't blush. I already know what I do to you. Just tell me what's on your mind.' He said putting a strand of her behind her ear. She let out a deep breath and looked up to meet his gaze.

'I called my step-dad today. I told him I wasn't coming home. I have to call my mom tonight so I can make it sound better than it really is.'

'Is it better than it really is?'

'No. That's my point.'

'I see?' he said in a questioning tone.

'My step-dad, Luke, he'll tell my mom, which is fine, but then my mom will track me down here in New York and literally drag me back to Connecticut.'

'Mary, let it go! You know that's only a fraction of it, so what's the rest?'

'It annoys me how well you can see into my brain and what I'm thinking.'

'I have talents.' He smirked, trying to lighten the mood.

'Okay, so umm, well I was talking to Devon.'

'Which I know.' He encouraged.

'Right, so he asked me something and I just wanted you to get it from my perspective.'

'That would be helpful.'

'So, the statement was always that I didn't want to go out with you, but the way I wanted it to be is that I don't want to go out with you yet.'

'Okay, confused.'

'Tristan, I wanna be with you! I do, but I don't know if I'm ready to have a relationship with your type.'

'Wasn't that supposed to be part of your change? Was it not me you were talking to in my kitchen wearing very revealing clothes?'

'See, that's my problem, this whole changing thing is harder than I thought it would be.'

'Do you need help?'

'How could you help?' she asked almost pleading for his help anyway.

'Your only boyfriends were Bag Boy and Jess, right?'

'Yea, why?'

'Why? They treated you like dirt! One just dumped for the hell of it and the other dumped you cause he didn't want to trust you. That's probably why you don't wanna date or even try!'

'I wanna try!' she protested. He raised his eyebrow at her.

'Okay, I'm out of thoughts.' She said finally defeated.

'Mary, it's a Saturday afternoon, and you're just sitting there!'

'I'd actually like to stay in today...with you. Could you help me?' Tristan smirked.

'Are you willing to give "us" a shot?'

'I'm not sure.' She said but stood up in front of Tristan.

'What are you doing?'

'Trying this umm, the thing on the subway...' she tried to explain and sat on his lap. He looked amused and slightly confused.

'Your sitting on my lap.' He said smirking.

'Yea, umm, you get the next move, cause I'm scared and I, I don't know what to do and I wanna have someone, but I don't know—' her rambling was silenced by Tristan's finger over her soft lips.

'It's okay. I'm here to make it all better.' He said sweetly.

'Oh, I can't! Not yet at least.' She said very much regretting her decision, but still sitting on his lap.

'Can't do what?' he asked confused.

'I can't have, umm, I, uh ya know, intercourse, umm like sexual—'

'Sex? You think I was gonna just have sex with you like this?'

'Well, isn't that what you meant?' she asked now embarrassed.

'Umm, not really. I was more so going along the lines of a hug, or saying comforting things.'

'Oh.' She said red from assuming. He smirked and rubbed her back.

'Don't be someone else, Mary. Be yourself around me. The only thing that could happen is I fall even more in love with you.'

'Okay, give me a minute to process what you just said.' She took a few deep breaths and then was about to continue but the phone rang. The two jumped up.

'Rory? Tristan? Could either of you get that?' Jake called. Rory picked it up.

Phone--------

R- Hello?

M- Hi, this is Morgan Stone calling on behalf of your aparfment.

R- Okay?

M- Well, I just wanted to let you know that the cable man has fixed the wire.

R- Oh, okay thanks.

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'Cable works again.' Rory shrugged, and then groaned when the phone rang again not even 10 seconds after she hung up the phone.

Phone---------

R- Yea?

L- Rory?

R- Umm, no this is Rachel, who's this?

L- I'm her mother.

R- Well in that case, hi mom.

'Mare, I'm gonna—' Tristan pointed to the door, but Rory shook her head and pleaded with her eyes for him to stay with her. He sat down on the bed next to Rory and held her hand.

L- Rachel?

R- Fake name, so I was gonna call you!

L- Yea that's what you've been saying for like a month!

R- Sorry.

L- Yea and I even had to 69 this because my daughter wont give me the number!

R- Mom, Luke told you what I said, so yea it's true. I'm staying here.

L- But why? Rory, you have a wonderful life here! What about high school? College? Are you even gonna go to college?

R- You know what? My life there wasn't wonderful! I hated it, and I'm happy here! I met a guy here, and I made some really good friends!

L- A guy? Rory, are you having—

R- Stop!! Stop, it's not your place to tell me I can't go out with a guy, and no, I'm not! God, why must everything be assumptions?

L- Rory, when was the last time you called? When was the last time I saw you? When was the last time, when was the last time I brought you to school? God your only 16!

R- Just because you made a mistake doesn't mean I'll make it! I might I don't know, but god! Why cant I live my life the way it should be lived?

L- Rory, I just want what's best for you, and I don't think it's fooling around with some boy! Wasn't the reason you left to talk a friend into coming back?

R- Yea, but when I got here, I knew I belonged.

L-Rory, honey, please, tell me why you can't stay here? I've done everything I could so you could do what you want!

R- I wanna be able to wake up knowing that today, if I fail a test, I know I'll live, something which I cant do in Stars Hollow. I wanna be able to wake up one morning and decide to just, just whatever I want without curfew, without parents. I wanna be free

L- Maybe if I talk to you some other time, I'll get through to you.

R- Yea, maybe.

L- Okay, I love you sweetie.

R- Love you too.

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'Your mom?' Tristan asked.

'Uh yea! God, she doesn't understand!'

'She doesn't want to. Give it time, it'll settle with her soon. She just needs time.'

'You always know what to say!' Rory said leaning her head on his arm.

'So who's your boyfriend?' he asked seriously.

'If you have to ask me that question, you don't deserve that 1580!'

'Maybe I don't. I'll give it to you. I don't want it!' Tristan said laughing.

'Today was not a good day.'

'Today was not a good day, no.' Tristan agreed rubbing her arm. They stayed like that for a while before emerging from the room, to find Jake writing at the table.

No, that day was not a good day, but they have to get through the bad to get to the good. Kind of like a hurricane. You have to go through that treacherous rain, that comes down so hard and fast you could die, but when you get to the eye...everything's soft and peaceful. You almost enjoy it, but you know that in order for you to get out of the storm, you have to risk your life once again. Except no one dies just from one bad day. At least no one sane.

REVIEW!! Oh and this story is definitely way out of character for Rory! I had this whole big plan, and then I kind of just took another path without knowing it! Tell me what you think!!! Kiki :0)