Two Pence For A Lily
Bewilderment
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"Happier Things"
Thursday:
Dear Diary
I haven't written in awhile. I had to bring myself to write now. I was just thinking too much about Jeff, and since it was the last entry I wrote, this diary reminded me of him. That's why I haven't written in about a week.
Jeff was just…more than a neighbor. He was the closest friend I'd ever had, and when he was murdered this summer, him and his parents, it took a part of me. Jeff!…but I cannot go into this now; I've already mourned for him. I can't.
So onto happier things…
Remus Lupin (I like to hang out with him every now and then) said that I should give James a chance. We were playing this game of chess, right, and I was kicking him dizzy. But in the midst of his vertiginous moments, he found time to say, "James really isn't all that bad. I think you should give him another chance."
"Remus, you don't know the half of it," I told him, moving my pawn diagonally to capture on of his. I added it to the row of solemn white pieces; all the while Remus watched my movements.
"I know half of it. I know James's side, but I could figure out the whole story if you told me what happened. Even if you don't forgive him for anything, I know James well enough to realize that he wouldn't do anything too horrible. Impulsive, maybe not at the right time, but I certainly know he wouldn't have done anything absolutely horrible."
After this little speech, I just stared at him. He pretended not to notice my gaze as he moved his bishop over four spaces. I could tell he was giving me time to think, or else he would have said "Your turn", or some such reminder.
For one second, I considered agreeing with him, and running to find James right this second. But another part of me stayed, rooted to the chair as if I'd been cemented on. "Remus," I said at last, as if it was a great concession on my part to say anything. "Remus. It's not just what happened this summer. He did stuff that I'm simply mad at him for. But you remember, I'd never much liked him. We ALWAYS got into fights, and it wasn't always because of something he did or said. I just always hated him."
Remus looked at me, much like I'd stared at him after his speech. Then he looked down at the chessboard, formulating a move. What he said next was simultaneous with the movements with the marble figurines. "Maybe you just like him so much you can't tell the feeling apart from hatred." His fingers moved his knight in an L-shape. "Checkmate."
This blew my socks off.
Love,
Lily
000
Friday:
Dear Diary
I ran into James in the hall today. Somehow, I can never picture him ever having a nickname, or even his grandmother calling him "chap". Or Jamie, or whatever. He always tries to act so dignified! Who could ever stand someone so…stiff. Though he is good looking. But in a perfectly non-sexual way. Well, I don't know. Other people seem to think that he is Hogwarts' most eligible, which he isn't. I'd take Drew over him any day.
But anyway, so I was walking along the hall, minding my own business, when James (who had his nose in a book again!) smacked into me. My books tumbled out of my arms and onto the ground, while he stumbled and his wand fell. A bizarre thing happened then—I caught it and felt the sudden warmth from where he'd kept it behind his ear, and suddenly everything felt right. I don't know how to explain it—I just knew that somehow I felt safe from everything, standing close to James in a deserted hall. This was disconcerting enough, but when James cleared his throat, I it seemed to make the whole moment ludicrous and simple. I bent down quickly to retrieve my books, saying "I'm sorry" on the way down, while James leaned down to help me, apologizing as well. In a fluster, I stood again (weirded out by the way our hands had touched, on picking up the same book).
When I rounded the corner after walking away, I saw Rhapsody. She commented on my blushing face (which did feel as if it was on fire), and then said, "Which closet was it this time?" I think that this was pretty unfair, as I have never proposed closet-making-out and have only been known to once. So I just sort of glared at her and said, "That was only once!"
Then we both burst out laughing because of how stern we sounded, and the ridiculousness of our topic. We walked to the dining hall next.
Love,
Lily
000
Tuesday
Dear Diary,
Drew Katass asked me out today--like, to be his girlfriend. I said no. After what that bitch did to me, he deserves to burn in hell forever.
Love,
Lily
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A/N: Hey guys! Sorry this was such a short chapter, but I wanted this effect to be more dramatic. Thanks so much for the reviews. On your way out, don't forget to click on the review button. Now onto replies:
RUPERTGRINTLOVER666: haha well that's awesome that you wrote your name in all caps this time. Well review on your way out.
Andy Quinn: well thanks for reviewing! Your reviewing always means a lot to me because it's always phrased nicely, clearly, and completely. I'm glad you like it! Hehe, I've always avoided watching the Iron Chef. But he DOES seem to be badly dubbed.
Happiness In A Bottle: Well, continue to read. Glad you enjoy!
Queen Of Serpents: I always enjoy seeing your review there! It makes me feel like I'm doing well to have you review. LILY/JAMES stuff is coming! Because of you, I added that entry with the Lily/James awkwardness into here. Sorry it's not too well written, but my heart wasn't too much into it. I've certainly never held someone's wand and gotten a safe feeling (haha that could be dirty…so sorry, but this is what my friends have done to me). Well continue to update your stories, and I will choose one to review!
Kyoko Kasshu Minamino:I'm really glad you like this story.Your pen name is awesome! I just kept saying it aloud because it was that awesome.
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