Apology for the really long chapter but it wouldn't have worked out if I cut it in two parts! However, this chapter took me a LOOOONG time to write. Well, I started it in Psych today (which was noon) and i just finished it (and it's midnight). No, I didn't work on it straight through, cuz I played a little bit of FFVIII in there and I had classes...but major revision went on with it tonight when I sat down to work on it! I completely changed everything around...but I'm pretty happy with the way things worked out...more author notes at the end because I don't want to spoil anything!
20. Out Of His Control
Yuna sat down to dinner with her parents that night and stayed completely silent. There were plates of roasted chicken, dinner rolls, au gratin potatoes, and a huge bowl of salad in front of her, yet she touched none of it. She just sat at the dinner table with her hands in her lap looking down at her plate as her parents discussed their day with each other. I feel invisible...Yuna thought as her parents didn't even notice her. They just kept chatting on about work and how they liked it here so much better than they did in Bevelle. Would it be bad to say that I miss Bevelle? The thought of Bevelle caused tears to well up in her eyes. She never would've let this kind of thing happen to her if she still went to Yu Yevon. Maybe it was because of the fact that Yu Yevon Academy was an all girls' school, but still.
"May I be excused?" Yuna asked her parents quietly when they stopped talking amongst themselves. Yuna's parents looked at her non touched plate and they both lowered their forks at the same time. Wow, freaky...Yuna thought. Is that a sign of true love or something? You do the same thing at the same time?
"Are you all right, Yuna?" Braska asked as Yuna looked up at him, her lower lip quivering slightly.
"Honey, what's wrong?" Yuna's mother reached across the table to feel Yuna's forehead. "Sweetie, are you sick?"
"No, I'm not sick," Yuna stated as she moved her head away so her mother couldn't touch her. She wasn't in the mood to be touched. "I just don't feel like eating right now."
"What happened at school?" Braska asked.
"Why do you think something happened at school?" Yuna couldn't help but give her father a frown. "Do you think that all my bad days consist of me getting a poor grade on a paper or test?"
"Don't put words in your father's mouth, dear," Yuna's mother warned as a tear fell down Yuna's face.
"I don't understand what is going on with you lately, young lady." Braska's voice was gentle as he completely faced Yuna. He grabbed her hands as more tears ran down her face to join the first one. "You've been testy, you came back home past your curfew by several hours earlier this week, I've hardly seen you crack a book, you start crying during dinner...This is very unlike you, Yuna. Your mother and I are very worried."
"There's nothing to be worried about, I'm just trying to adjust to everything right now," Yuna explained quietly as she wiped her eyes. "May I please go upstairs?"
"We don't want you to hang out with the wrong crowd, Yuna," Yuna's mother said with a grim look on her face.
"I'm not, don't worry," she said, unsure of how factual her statement was. Let's see…Yuna thought. The guy I like is a cocky athlete who has sex with any girl that walks, I go to a party where I get completely trashed, I almost got completely naked with a guy two days after I met him...Oh yikes...
"We do worry, Yuna," Braska said as he wiped another tear off of her face. "You can go upstairs if you'd like."
"Thank you." Yuna stood up and walked to her room. Why am I letting him get to me like this? Yuna asked herself as she lied down on her bed and started to cry harder. That was the first time she burst into tears at the dinner table since she was six, and that was when she found a baby chocobo as she was walking home from school. When she proudly showed it to her parents, they refused to let her keep it as a pet, and they made her set it free. She was so upset by it that she started to bawl right in the middle of dinner.
She grabbed her pillow in her arms and continued to let the tears leave mascara puddles on it. A million thoughts ran through her head as she cried. Tidus was the main theme for all of them because everything in her world revolved around him at the moment. Why did he have sex with another girl? Why am I this crazy about him? Why did he hold me tightly in his arms two nights this week like he never wanted to let me go? Was it just an act? Why did he have to look at me like that when I slapped him? More importantly, was it necessary to smack him like that?
She didn't want to slap Tidus earlier in the day, but she was just so mad at him, she felt that she couldn't do anything else. The look on his face...Those blue eyes looking at me with shock...I hate feeling this way...She shook her head and wiped the tears from her eyes. She sniffled and sat up in her bed, hugging her knees for some kind of comfort. She saw her books in a pile on her desk, and she figured that studying used to be comforting to her, so she would give that a try.
She walked over to her desk, opened her book and started to take some notes down. She grabbed a pen and blankly stared at the book. I know all of this...She thought as she started to tap her pen. Tapping her pen made her think of history, which eventually led to Tidus. I started this stupid habit in history! She tried not to scream out of a mixture of emotions, and continued to look at her book.
After fifteen minutes, Yuna gave up on her homework. She wasn't getting anything done anyway, so she closed her book and placed her pen on top. She walked over to her bed again, laid down, and just looked up at the ceiling. The white paint wasn't entertaining enough for her, so she was about to get up and take a shower when her phone rang. She sighed as she stood up to grab it off of her vanity table.
"Hello?" She didn't recognize the number so she furrowed her forehead. She half expected it to be Tidus, and was slightly disappointed when he didn't show up on her caller id.
"You always sound so confused whenever you pick up the phone, Yuna." It was Rikku. "Didn't you program my number into your phone the last time I called you?"
"I must've forgotten, I'm sorry," Yuna apologized as she laid back down on her bed. "What's up?"
"So, did you have fun at my party? You never really told me as you and Tidus left on Saturday." Yuna wasn't in the mood to make small talk with anyone, yet talk about Rikku's party. The thought heated her up again and she clenched her teeth and her fists.
"I'd rather...drop that subject, Rikku," Yuna replied as she sat up. "Look, I don't mean to be rude, but I'm really not in the mood to talk right now. Is there a point in you calling me?"
"Yeah, there is actually," she said slowly, insulted by Yuna's tone. She was silent on the line for a minute, so Yuna rolled her eyes.
"Well?" I am not in the mood for this right now! This better be important!
"Okay..." Rikku began as she deeply inhaled and exhaled. Oh great, story time...Yuna thought as she threw herself back on her bed and put her hand on her forehead.
"You ready for the game tonight, man?" A student asked to Tidus as he walked by. Tidus gave him a big smile and a high five.
"Fuck yeah, I am!" He exclaimed as he continued to his locker. It was already time to go home, and he was rather excited. It had been an awful day and he couldn't wait to take his aggression out at the C-South Duggles during the game that night. During first hour, he didn't even bother trying to talk to Yuna. They kept looking at each other then quickly looking away. I wish she wasn't so pissed off at me...He kept thinking throughout the day. The entire previous night he kept thinking of how she whacked him across the face. She was a lot stronger than he expected and finger marks remained on his face for a good half hour after she smacked him. Proof that I was owned by a girl...
When he arrived at his locker, he put his books away and rested his arm against the edge. He contemplated bringing something home, then scoffed at the thought as he as he slammed it shut. He looked in the direction of where Yuna's locker was and he could see her walking away from it. Okay, this is my cue... He said to himself as he quickly walked over to her.
"Hey, can we talk?" He asked her as she pretended to look around.
"Oh wait, you're talking to me?" She put her hand to her chest to feign surprise as she rolled her eyes and kept walking. "What do you want?"
"I think we should talk about what happened yesterday," he said as he kept up with her fast pace. "Geez, slow down."
"No, I have places to be right now, and none of them include you." She sent him a hostile glare as they exited the school. She scoffed when she realized that he was still following her. "You know, stalking is illegal all over Spira. I would highly appreciate it if you would leave me alone."
"I'm afraid that I can't do that, Yuna."
"And why is that?"
"Because there are many things that we need to discuss, and I don't appreciate you walking away from me like this." As they reached her parking spot, he crossed his arms and leaned against her car so she couldn't unlock her door.
"You know, that's funny because I don't 'appreciate' you following me around everywhere lately," she said as she tried to push him out of the way. He didn't budge. He only looked down at her as she struggled. "Move!"
"Oh, is that what you want?" He asked as he moved out of her way. "You know, you might want to start being more vocal with what you want instead of having me guess all the time."
"I thought that by me pushing you, you would get the hint."
Tidus shook his head as she unlocked her door. She obviously didn't get the suggestion that he just blatantly spelled out for her. "Forget it." She let out a frustrated sigh as she crawled into her car to grab a tank top, sports bra, and stretch shorts out of the passenger seat of her car. "What are you doing?"
"Grabbing some clothes I can move in," she said as she slammed the door rather hard. Tidus blinked at her harshness, and she continued, pointing to herself. "Moving in tight jeans and a baby tee just doesn't cut it when you need to do back handsprings and splits."
"Back handsp..." he started as his eyes opened widely. "You're not auditioning for the cheerleading squad...are you?"
"Maybe. Hold," she handed Tidus her clothes so she could put her hair into a ponytail. Tidus watched the way her stomach showed when she lifted her arms like that and she saw where his eyes lingered. She smiled because she knew he didn't know what to say, and was loving the fact that he wasn't thrilled with her new idea.
"Um, why?" He finally found the words to speak, but the perplexed look didn't fall off of his face. "You never came off as the cheerleading type."
"I took gymnastics for the last 16 years," she said with an icy smile as she traced the side of his face with her finger, ending with his lips. She's fucking enjoying this! He thought to himself as she moved her hand to the back of his head and twirled a couple strands of his hair between her fingers. He pursed his lips as his eyes glared into her own. Oh this is too fun…Yuna thought to herself as she let go of Tidus' hair and trailed her finger down his chest and stopped right at his belt. She moved her hand off of him, seductively licked her lips, and gave him a spiteful smile. "Now, if you don't mind, I'm going to be late, and Rikku told me not to be."
Tidus crossed his arms and chuckled when he understood what was going on. "So Rikku told you to audition, eh?"
"She mentioned it to me last week during history and then called me last night to bring it to my attention again." She put her thumbs in her belt loops of her jeans, pulling them down a little to tantalize Tidus.
"I see..." He slowly exhaled and ran his fingers up her arm until they reached her neck. Two can play this game...He brushed her neck with his fingers and trailed his finger down the collar of her shirt, with his gaze on his finger. Her shirt was relatively low cut, so his fingers almost touched her cleavage. He moved his gaze from her chest to her eyes, and he could see her cheeks flushing, so he flashed her a flirtatious smile. "Last night, huh?"
"Yeah," she replied quietly as her pulse started to race. Okay, why was it my dumb idea to start the teasing? He's had more experience than I have in this field...She thought as Tidus moved his hand away from her chest by trailing it up to the back of her head, and he put his other hand on her waist. He pulled her closer to him and started to kiss her neck. She tried to fight him, but all she could do was close her eyes and slowly breathe. No matter where she moved her head, it only gave him more of a reason to grab at her. "Don't you, you know, have blitz practice that you're late for again?"
"It's a Tuesday," he announced to her, slightly muffled as he continued to kiss her neck. His breath tickled her skin as he talked, and he knew it was turning her on. Just for that fact, he had to talk more. "We have a game tonight, and we never have practice on game days. I just have to be back here at six tonight."
"Ah." There was a moment of silence between them as he went back onto kissing her neck. She then brought her hands very close to his crotch. Okay, this isn't really doing anything but making him kiss my neck harder and with more fervor...She thought as he pulled her closer. She moved her hands to his back and he started to move his kisses from her neck up her jaw line. When he was about two millimeters away from her lips, she inhaled sharply and pushed him away. "Okay, gotta go."
"Okay," he said slowly as he thought about her being a cheerleader again. Okay, I'm really turned on here, so I'm having many naughty thoughts of me ripping the short uniform off of her... "Just one thing."
"What's that?"
"Be careful if you make the squad, Yuna," he warned as he brushed her stomach gently with his fingers. "I'm serious when I say this; they're manipulative and I don't want them to change you into something you're not."
"Why? Because then I would turn into a girl that you would actually like?" She came back with as she put her hand on her hip. Tidus moved his hand away from her stomach the second that she made her remark. He scoffed at her and looked off to the side. "Ya know, maybe I was wrong. You are easy to read."
"Well that proves how little you know about me," he said as he narrowed his eyes at her. The flirtation ran out of both of them as they became serious again. "First of all, let's get this one straight; I have never 'liked' a girl that I've had sex with."
"Oh, so women are only sex objects to you, then?" She sarcastically pretended that she understood, causing her words to bite hard into Tidus. He didn't respond to her due to the strong urge to just grab her by the shoulders and kiss her long and hard. She turned him on enough, so it was hard (Again no pun intended...Tidus thought) not to take her right then and there on the concrete. Instead of acting on his impulse, he just slowly sighed. He knew that part of his feelings consisted of raw hormones, but the other half consisted of real emotion. Yuna, I want to tell you everything...He thought in his head as she shook her head, scoffed, turned on her heel and stormed off to the gym to change.
"Great job, Tidus. You're going to ruin this girl," Tidus whispered to himself as he shoved his hands into his pockets and walked to his car. She was joining a group of girls that didn't have any morals, all had sex with more guys than they could count, they drank every weekend, they didn't care about their grades, and of course, they were all girls that Tidus went after for sex. With Yuna, she was more than just sex to him, he now realized this. However, getting her to understand the difference when she's going to be spending time with all those girls that I have fucked and never spoke to again will be next to impossible...He unlocked his car and sat in the drivers seat. He put his head against the headrest as he put the key in the ignition and opened his moon roof. He looked up at the blue sky, sighed, and said to himself, "Good luck psyching yourself up for the game tonight, you moron."
Oh Rikku, that devious girl...trying to turn Yuna to the 'dark side.' hee hee...It's funny how much I changed the last conversation wtih Yuna and Tidus. Today in Psych I thought that they were going to get into just another fight...but I liked the teasing thing because that just makes it so much more fun...hee hee. All righty...I'm so tired so I'm off to bed! I hope you all enjoy!