Forgive and Forget 6/?
Disclaimer: Like everything else, I don't own a thing! The only thing I own is debt…and a lot of it too! So if you don't want debt I just suggest you imagine I own them for the time it takes you to read this fic, that way we don't all get caught up in the legal mumbo jumbo.
Dedication: Apparently there were some people who "liked" it. Don't understand why though. Beats me!
Elle- Your honesty, loyal ness and talent make me strive (or attempt to-my fault not yours!) You are the bestest friend
Manda- You also wanted to hear more of this dribble! So dribble dribble dribble. You too are a great friend
Blaire- You did too!
And some new person- can't remember her/his name they apparently wanted more too!
Title: Forgive and Forget 6/?
PJ's Point of View 3
I feel my phone vibrating in my pocket, alerting my attention to an incoming call. I grunt. As I do not wish to be disturbed. I hesitantly retrieve my mobile and glaze at the screen. It reads "Work Ringing". I grunt even louder. What could they possibly want? Perhaps it was Tom begging me to come back. As if! As if that old insensitive bastard would care. Since the death of Grace he has being so bitter.
I take a deep breath in and build up enough to answer it.
"Hasham"
"She's here! She's here! She's here!" I hear someone scream into the phone.
"Excuse me. Slow down"
"She's here! She's here! She's here!" the erratic voice continues to barrel down the phone.
"Who is this?" I quiz
"Its Jonesy. Guess what!"
"She's here! But who is she?" I ask
"Jo. She's here!"
"Jo?" I feel faint. I feel my legs wobble beneath me. They are about to give out. I feel my body sway. I feel my grip around my phone loosen. My head feels light. I blink. Trying to recollect my thoughts.
"Jo?"
"Yes"
"Jo?"
"YES! She's here! Come quick!"
"Jo?"
"PJ, do you want me to send someone for you?"
"Jo… Jo's here!" I scream and I receive strange looks by people walking by.
I do not care because my Joey, my angel, my rock has returned and I could not be any more excited. A smile instantly broadens my face.
"PJ" I hear someone say into the phone.
"Yeah" I respond. My mind is elsewhere. In a daze.
"There's something you should know"
"Ah ha" I make an agreeing sound. My mind is still not entirely grounded.
"We've had to call an ambulance, she collapsed."
This grounds me. Brings me to my feet.
"What?"
"It's going to be ok. The paramedics have just taken her to the hospital."
"Ok, I'm coming home as fast as I can" I hang up. I must rush to the hotel, and pack my things. I then speed down the highway in the direction of Mt Thomas.
Seconds seem like minutes. Minutes seem like hours. Hours seem like an eternity, as I speed down the highway. I know I am breaking every speed limit ever set down, but that doesn't bother me. All I care about, all I'm focusing on is returning to Mt Thomas.
It is like everything and everyone is against me. Getting every red light, stuck behind elderly drivers going at a snail's pace to bowls or bingo or whatever they get up to. I don't car. I want to go back. I want to be there. There to hold her hand. There to reassure her. And most of all I wanted to make sure it wasn't yet another nightmare. I want to reassure myself that she is there, hopefully to stay.
I know I have being the biggest bastard imaginable towards her in the time leading up to her departure. But I want to make it up to her! I need to show Jo how much I have missed her. How I much I need her. How much I love her.
Over the past yeas I look back and there is Jo, always. She helped me move on from Maggie. Maggie- the thing that started it all, the thing that ended it all! Perhaps it was cold feet that brought up the past. I had gotten so close to marrying Maggie, that perhaps I was afraid I wouldn't get that far with Jo. That something might happen to her.
But it was completely selfish and ignorant of me to bring it up! I know Jo acknowledged that Maggie and I had a past, but I knew she didn't appreciate it when the topic was raised. It was my constant raising of the topic that ultimately drove Jo away.
It was Jo who got me through the pain of Maggie. But its now up to me to work through the pain I feel and the pain Jo feels. I am the cause of this pain, and hell, I am going to cure it. I need to tell Jo how much she means to me!
Her loving, warm nature always keeps me fascinated. Her ability to stand up for everyone and her beliefs constantly amazes me. As I look back, Jo is always the one that brings the smile to my face. The one who offers me support and comfort. She keeps me grounded. Jo is my rock, my tower of strength.
I pull up to the hospital car park. My heart begins to race. For somewhere in the sterile white walls lays Jo, my love, my soul mate.
Before I turn off the ignition and listen carefully to lyrics that are being played.
I'm not a perfect personThere are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
(ACTION: PJ's enters hospital. Slow motion. Runs up to admission desk to she where Jo is. Once he is told where she is, pushes of desk and continues to run in slow motion.)
I've found a reason for meTo change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
(ACTION: Slow motion running up to room. Stands at the door)
I'm sorry that I hurt youIt's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
(ACTION: PJ slowly enters room. Stands by her bed and takes hold of her hand. The "camera" does a close up when their hands join)
I've found a reason for meTo change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
Tears begin to well up as I once again feel the connection when our hands touch again. I could instantly feel her pain too. The pain began to consume my body as I broke down beside her.
I'm not a perfect personI never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for al that I do
And the reason is you
Our eyes meet.
And that concludes another dreadful chapter of my fic!
I shall not go on and on how bad it is because that just takes up room in you inbox, and I know how ANNONYING that can be!!! And also I'm tired. Who would have thought after a weeks worth of complete bed rest (doctors order!) would have made me this tired…but it could also be due to the fact I have being having my Iron tablets (smacks hand)