Chapter 2

We reach my apartment; the last ten minutes were less painful than I thought they would be.

In fact they were great it was the first time in ages I've been able to talk about anything knowing the person I am with is actually listening to me.

It was always like that with Jack he always listened, no matter what.

Walking up the stairs to my apartment I get my keys out of my bag. Not looking where I am going I miss a step and stumble. Before I end up in a heap on the floor Jack rescues me, grabbing my arm and pulling me towards him, I reach a hand to his chest to regain my balance. I can feel his breath just above my ear making my whole body tingle in anticipation and slight excitement. I love that feeling.

My hand on his chest is trembling slightly and I look up to his face and say, "Thanks". It almost comes out as a mumble, my voice shaking slightly I am overcome with nerves.

"No problem"

We continue walking up the stairs. I can feel Jack close behind me. All I want to do is turn around and kiss him.

I can't help my desire.

I desire how he makes me feel.

There aren't any words for that.

We finally reach my apartment and I let us both in, I sling my coat over the chair nearest the door and head to the kitchen.

"Take a seat; I'll be back in a minute"

I make the coffee and mull over what may or may not happen tonite. I don't know what to do, it's the first time I've been alone with him for… I can't even remember it's been that long.

With my back to the doorway I am stirring the coffee slowly and ready to take them in the other room I turn around and see Jack standing in the doorway.

"Hey"

"Need any help?"

"No I'm all done; I was just bringing it out."

"Sam is this…awkward for you, cos if it is I can go"

"Jack don't be silly, I invited you, it's not awkward"

"Is it awkward for you?"

"No…no"

I continue staring at him not completely happy with his answer.

"Here let me take mine"

We walk back into the other room and Jack takes a seat on one end of the couch and I take a seat at the other end.

I can feel his gaze on my face.

"Jack you're staring"

"I know"

"Well, stop it you're making me go red"

"I know that too, I love it when you do that"

The mood all of a sudden has become playful.

"Well it drives me crazy, and you lied to me earlier, you said you didn't feel awkward when it's obvious you do because you're trying to lighten the mood"

He smiles "What mood"

There's an easy silence between us as we gaze at each other smiling.

"Mission accomplished"

"What mission?"

"Operation, make Jack smile"

"I've missed that smile" – my face straightens up and I lean my head to the side on the couch.

Jacks face straightens up too

"I've missed you Sam"

"I've missed you Jack"

I suddenly fall into Jacks eyes, the feelings I've felt over the last few months have intensified in the last few minutes. I'm afraid that I'll get lost, blinded by love and desire. A desire to be with the man I truly love, who makes me forget about everything else. Someone I can get lost in.

He starts to move off the couch.

"Jack don't go"

I reach for his arm to stop him and he turns to look at me. We both look at my hand tightly hanging on to his arm.

"I love you Jack, I always have" I raise my eyes to look into his.

Tears start to form "I know what I want Jack, I can't change the way I feel, believe me I've tried"

Looking into his eyes as they begin to glass over with water, he leans towards me and places his forehead to mine and whispers "I can't leave Sam, I need you…Without you I'm not whole. I tried to pretend it wasn't you who made me happy, who made me realise what love was…I love you…I wish I told you before but I thought you'd moved on…Everything in my life seems to screw up, everything I try to make right goes wrong"

I end his sentence there with a kiss "I won't give up on you Jack"

I take his hand and lead him to the bedroom.

Just for tonite everything is perfect and we're gonna make another one like it tomorrow…and the day after that…and well you know where this sentence is going.

I enjoyed writing this sorry if it got a bit fluffy at the end. I couldn't prolong getting them together, they are perfect match!