Disclaimer: I don't own it.
AN: I love Kira/Sisko fics but I've only found two stories with that pairing. Takes place during the fourth season.
I watch as he walks along the promenade, every Bajoran always stops what they're doing when he comes. After all he is the Emissary and a religious icon.
But now Benjamin Sisko has become more than that; at least to me, he is my Captain and my friend. And to my utter despair I now know I love him. It started when the Defiant was badly damaged and I was the only one on the bridge with him, talking to him in order to keep him awake.
After he recovered we went to the holosuite and I learned how to play baseball. I looked like an idiot and I felt like run, but Benjamin didn't care. In those moments alone with him I can forget who I am and what brought me I into his life.
The Cardassian occupation made me hard and angry, but still Benjamin tried to break through that and tried to be my friend. I used to fight him but now I don't want to any longer.
But his destiny as Emissary is what stands between us still, why he'll never be really comfortable with me. I can only dream of him at night, wishing away all barriers, but during the day I can only be his second in command and a casual friend.
Boy if people knew what I was thinking about they wouldn't understand, Major Kira Nerys unable to speak of her feelings. But it is the sad truth, I love Benjamin Sisko but I can never act on it.
I take a deep breath and go to him; at least I can still be near him. He's now sitting at a table in the Replimat. "Hello Benjamin." I can call him by his first name when we're off duty.
And there it is that brilliant smile, "Nerys."
I smile in return, "May I sit down."
He smiles at me in return, "You're always welcome."
He'll never know my feelings.
It's the way it has to be.