There is Lemony content in this chapter, there is a reason why this story is rated "R". The Citrus is at the end of the story and you can skip it if you want, I'll fix next chapter up so you won't have missed anything important! And now onward with story!

Tell me a secret,

And I'll tell you mine

Tell me about desire

You hide inside...

When we arrived at the Mimikazari's, I was nervous. I fidgeted with my thumbs, rubbing them together, which in part annoyed the hell out of Inuyasha. "Will you stop doing that, shit you're making me nervous!" he yelled at me. We both were really nervous as we walked down the street towards the Mimikazari household. Looked like a neighbor of theirs decided to have a party and invited one guest too many. "I'm sorry Inuyasha, it's just that seeing Sango or any one else, especially Kohaku is unsettling. I can talk to you because you knew about us... but they don't, and I don't think I'm ready to face them. Do you know what I mean?" I looked up at him as the last words came out of my mouth. "I understand where you're coming from little one, but you are going to have to face all of them sooner or later you know." He looked at me with uncertainty. "I can't imagine what they are going to say." I tucked my hands into my jacket pockets. "Rin, are you ashamed of loving my brother?" I jerked my head up in shock. "Of course not, I would never be. I love him and always will!" I stated with pride in my voice, yes I do love Sesshomaru with everything I had and still have within me. "Then, what are you afraid of?" he asked me. "I'm scared that they are going to be ashamed of me and reject me." I said with pure honesty. His looked softened, and then Inuyasha grabbed my arm and turned me towards him. "Rin, they will not reject you, take me as an example. When I found out about you and Sesshomaru, did I hate you?" I looked towards the houses and trees behind Inuyasha, trying my best to avoid eye contact. "No, you didn't." "Even though I thought it was a little weird at first, I knew you were perfect for each other. Ever since he met you, you bring out something in him no one else has ever seen before! Truth is, old Sess never loved anything before you, not even his own wife." I gasped and looked straight into his amber depths that were so similar to Sess's yet so different. "How can you say that?" I asked in disbelief. "Don't be so surprised Rin, you would know more than anyone that he didn't love Kagura. He might have cared for her a little as respect toward father, because he dreamed of Having Kagura as a daughter in law." I breathed deep and shuddered from the cold, October nights are very chilly in Tokyo. I thought of something that always plagued me and I never asked Sesshomaru about it. "Hey Inuyasha, do you think you're father would have liked me?" He looked at me and chuckled. He took my hand in his and led me down the street once more. "Hey Sesshoumaru likes you no he loves you, that in it's self is a miracle. And plus I like you, so I do think it's a yes little sister, he would have liked you very much." We looked at each other and smiled.

We made it to the front door of the Mimikazari's home. I was as nervous as ever, my legs felt like cheap Jell-O. Inuyasha rang the doorbell once then turned to look at me. I nodded my head telling him I was fine, but I really wasn't. It seemed that Inuyasha knew this and he reached to grip my hand one last time as reassurance. I asked him quickly if they knew. He nodded as we heard the lock turning and the door handle twisting. Sango opened the door, and the instant she saw me she threw her arms around my neck throwing me off balance in the process. Luckily Inuyasha was quick enough to catch me before I collapsed under Sango's weight. "Oh Rin are you okay?" she asked me in a tender tone. She looked at me and I saw tears brimming in her pink eyes. "Oh Sango..." Those were all that words that could come out of my mouth. I felt a lump in my throat building. Inuyasha pushed us both inside saying something about privacy. I walked into the living area towards one of the light green sofas against the wall. I heard Kagome and Miroku coming from the kitchen down the hall. I felt a hand on my shoulder, I saw that it belonged to Inuyasha. "Rin" I heard both Kagome and Miroku say in unison. Both took a seat in the couch adjacent to the one I was sitting in. I took a deep breath and then I said, "He's in jail you know, because of me." I looked into my lap while I fidgeted with my fingers. The silence was killing me, it was the most horrible torture, being uncertain what they thought of me. I felt Sango move so I looked up. Then I felt the back of her hand swat my cheek. I heard Kagome gasp and Miroku and Inuyasha were both in shock. I felt the tears prick at the corners of my eyes, I couldn't hold it in. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. "Rin, I'm so sorry." Sango said to me. "No, I deserved that." I said with a shaky voice. "I've lied to you all, I betrayed my friend's trusts. I'm a horrible person, I feel so soiled." I sniffed. Kagome ran towards me and gave me a hug. "It's okay, Rin, It's okay." She rocked me back and forth as I spilled tears all over my face. Miroku came over and brought a cloth to dry my face with. "I bet... I bet you all hate me, for being such a whore!" Every one stopped what they were doing at stared at me. I broke free of Kagome's embrace. "Rin, please... tell me, tell us what, how it happened." Sango demanded. "I...I love him Sango, I love Sesshomaru." I responded to her question. "I, guessed that you were seeing someone else, Kohaku suspected it as well. I would have never imagined it was Sesshoumaru, never." I flinched when she said Kohaku's name. "Where is Kohaku, I need to talk to him." I said in a meek voice. "He left a while ago, he was crushed Rin." Miroku piped in. "Oh." I simply said. I laid back against the couch resting my head against it. "Rin, please tell us how this all happened, we have to know everything. Then we have to call Naraku and proceed to get Sesshomaru out of jail." Miroku said. "Fine." So I began to tell them all how I first began to fall in love with the man named Sesshomaru Narita.

"Remember Kikyo's and Naraku's wedding a few months back?" they all nodded. "It was there, at the after party. Kohaku left me alone, I had no idea where he had gone. So I stayed in a chair by the main refreshment table. I was so bored and all I could do was watch everyone else dance around me." I looked around all of them were at my every word. "Then I saw him. Sesshomaru looked great that night. Black Armani suit with a silk amber tie that matched his eye color perfectly. He walked towards me, but I'd never felt my heart beat as fast as it did in that moment. His silver hair was swaying with his every movement. He flashed a rare smile my way and raised his hand and waved at me. He came and pulled up a chair next to me. "Hey" he said to me. "What's up, then Sess." "Oh nothing just I'm all alone with no one to dance with" he said to me. "So where's Kagura?" I asked. "She's more interested with dancing with everyone else but me." He gave me a half-hearted smile. "And why is such a pretty girl all alone here by the table huh?" he asked me in an amused tone. "I think my date has left me all alone tonight!" I announced. He laughed, the he told me if I wanted to leave. "Sure it's kind of boring here anyway." I said. We walked out without anyone noticing us. We ran all the way to his black viper out in the parking lot. I remember my hair blowing in the wind and my red dress bounce over my knees as I ran to catch up with him, his silver hair blowing out behind him. We raced, and he won because I had on those monstrous red heels. We got in the car and he took me to our favorite restaurant the Sun Spot. You guys know what I'm talking about right?" they all nodded again without saying a word.

"Once we were there we went to the top floor and rented the table with the great view. "Look there's a full moon out tonight." He told me. "Yes, it's beautiful." I said as I turned to look at him. "Not as beautiful as you." He looked into my eyes." "Keh, I don't believe my brother would say something like that!" Inuyasha interrupted me. "Inuyasha!" Kagome scolded him. "You're right, I think he was drunk!" I joked. "Any ways where was I?" I thought and then Miroku told me the restaurant. "Oh yes! I was as nervous as a little schoolgirl in my first day in kindergarten. The waiter brought us our food. "Oh stop Sess you're making me blush!" I joked, but it might as well be true if it hadn't been so dark out I think he would have seen the red spread all across my face. And that when it all started from that day on, I knew I loved him." "Wow" they all said.

"Rin would you like to stay here with me?" Sango asked. "I don't think it would be a good idea, after all Kohaku might come later and I don't want to be here. Just tell him that I'm sorry." She nodded. "Then would you like to come with me to the shrine?" Kagome offered "Yes, I think I would, I don't think I can stay at the place where everything reminds me of him." They all nodded this time. "Whatever happens, we want you to know that we are all here behind you and we all support you." Inuyasha spoke up. "Yes, Rin we will always support you." Miroku said as well. I smiled at them and said a quiet thank you.

I had edited some parts out of my story. When we were at the restaurant we both drank lots of wine. Enough to feed a small army. He kept making comments on how I was so beautiful. Right after I told him that he was making me blush he said "It's true, red is you're color!" I laughed whole-heartedly. "What would you do if I told Kagura all these things that you keep telling me." his face grew somber to a small degree. "She wouldn't care." I blinked a couple of times, then rose from my seat in my drunken stupor and made my way to his seat. I draped my arms around him and sat on his lap. "Rin, you really are lovely, don't ever think otherwise, I'm not joking about all the things I've said to you." He then matched my gaze and looked deep into my eyes. We stood like that for a couple of minutes. I felt drawn to him, almost like a magnet. Our lips brushed together, and I couldn't breathe. He kissed me. We went everywhere like that. We had to take a cab to my apartment, since no one knew him there. We made out in the elevator. It was an ordeal trying to find my keys while Sesshomaru kissed me. We made our way inside and he sat on my red couch pulling me on his lap. On instinct I rubbed against him. I felt him under me, the only thing separating us were his pants and my underwear. He stoked me underneath my dress at the junction between both of us. I felt like I was going to explode. "I need you so much" I heard him pant out. "Touch me" I told him. He had me by my waist. He took his hand and stuck it inside my underwear, massaging my core with his fingers. "Sesshomaru" I moaned his name as I arched into him. He took his hand out and flipped me on the sofa. He pushed my dress up my knees as I undid his shirt. I took off his coat with haste. I kissed him so passionately I didn't know what I would do if I didn't feel him within me soon. I reached for his pants as he knocked off his shoes and socks off. I inched my hand down towards his swollen member. I began to stroke him but then he went rigid and in a ragged breath he managed a no. He knocked my hands away. "I can't." he said. I looked in horror "You must think I'm a whore." I said refusing to look at him. "No, I don't. You must think I'm some perverted guy who just wants some." "No never!" I said to him. "I need to go." He said. How I wanted to tell him how in love with him I was. "Yea I'll call a cab for you then." He dressed himself while I called the Cab Company. Once he was all dressed he came to me and he said, "I wasn't lying when I tell you I feel something for you. I do need you, but this is wrong you know. I'm married, and you're sixteen. It's wrong." I wanted to cry. "What's going to happen?" I asked. "I don't really know, well see." I walked behind him to the door of my apartment. He turned around and looked at me with such a cold face it hurt. I bit my bottom lip so hard I drew blood. He bent down and licked the blood away. "I'll see you tomorrow after you come out of High school Rin." He turned around and walked down the corridor towards the large elevators. I saw him go in and turn around and he look straight at me in the middle of the corridor, his face so cold. I looked into his eyes and then the doors closed. I ran back into my apartment and slammed the door. And pressed my back against it and cried until I fell asleep against my door.

Here you go I'm out of the writer's block and here's a longer chapter for all of you out there. I haven't been able to log into for about a month. There was some lemony content in here, don't know if it was any good you tell me... When you know.... You review!