Tumbling tumbling

Can't you see I want to be your ecstasy

Tumbling tumbling

Can't you hear me whisper to your fantasy

Tumbling tumbling

Can't you see I can be you remedy

If you go another way baby I might be your enemy.

I felt a cold surface behind me. I opened my eyes as wide as a raccoon and jumped as if I'd been struck by lightning. I looked around desperately for a few seconds until I recognized the space I was in. This was Kagome's spare bedroom at the Higurashi shrine. 'Shit, I thought I was living it all over!' I had fallen asleep against the door of the bedroom. I sat up and stole a glance at the digital clock on the nightstand. It read 4:27 a.m. I threw my self on the futon laid out before me. As soon as I hit the thin mattress I spiraled into unconsciousness.

I dreamt of him, and what happened after that night in my apartment. I woke up to the sound of my alarm in the other room. I had fallen asleep in the exact same position I had slumped my self in the night before, hence my thoughts of reliving everything over. I felt as if someone had walked all over me, how ironic. Not to mention I had the biggest hangover of the century, no the millennium! I got up and dragged my self towards my bathroom. Every detail from the night before burned into my mind. I still felt the pressure of his lips against mine, and the heat his body radiated. I walked into the bathroom and the sight of cheery green frogs met my eyes. 'Note to self, change bathroom decorations.' I turned the water knob so that the water was a lukewarm temperature. I sat on the bathtub's ledge recalling details over from my encounter with Sesshomaru. The way he told me he needed me, his strong grip. The sensation of being on his lap. No! I scolded my self; don't you remember how he looked at you? I asked my self. 'Like a cheap bitch.' I answered myself. Now it came to me, how he shoved me off and glared at me the only way that Sesshomaru could. I stopped the water before the whole bathroom over flowed. I stood up and stared at the mirror, my hair rustled and tossed about, my red dress all wrinkled and rumpled. My eyes were blood shot. I looked like wreck! I quickly slipped out of my red dress and picked up a small bubble bath packet and ripped it open. I sprinkled it into the tub and used my right hand to mix it. I stepped into the tub after removing the rest of my garments. I pulled my hair back and rested my head against the ledge of the tub. 'All that's missing is Sesshomaru.' Oh my god, I'm turning into a hentai! I cursed inwardly. It was as if my inside was fighting against it's self. I guess you could call it the cliché angel versus devil bit. 'He told you he needed you.'

"True" I answered myself out loud. If anyone was there they probably thought I was crazy! 'He moaned your name.'

"He said it was a mistake." I countered. 'No he never said that'

"He probably only sees me as a friend, or not even that anymore." I wonder... 'Maybe its him, and not you?' my other half asked me. "He was very clear." I retorted. 'He said you were beautiful.'

"I don't need him to tell me." I said. 'What about the feelings he claimed to not understand?'

"Maybe it was disgust, you saw they way he looked at us?" I stated. 'Or what if he's attracted and was just holding back?'

"So, what are you trying to say?" I asked my subconscious. 'That you could have him.' A spark of hope lit its self inside me, but I quickly put it out. "I don't even know why I'm making such an ordeal out of this, it's not like I fucked anyway!" I screamed so that the lady that lived below me could hear as well as the one above. 'But you could have, if he hadn't held back right. What would you think would have happened' I shuddered as I thought of what could have been, our bodies together felt so right, his musk and husky voice. No matter what I did Sesshomaru ended getting me aroused every time. I suddenly realized just how much time I had spent debating with myself. I was going to be late for school!

That day had been one of the most horrendous I've ever experienced! The whole day had gone like this: It was a close race between the bathroom and me, luckily I came out victorious every time. I cursed Sesshomaru's name out loud. I think every one that walked into the bathroom thought I was a crazy bulimic! I had lots of reasons to hate Sesshomaru, an important one was that I wasted my entire semester bathroom pass in one day. I tried to avoid Kohaku as much as I could that day. How could I even look at him in the eyes? He didn't deserve pain all because of me. So at lunch I went to eat out in the most remote area of the school, I even took a different route to all of my classes.

Once that miserable day came to an end I pulled out my pitch-black sunglasses and made my way towards the parking lot and see if I could get a ride home. I looked out around to see anyone I could coax into giving me a lift. And you'll never guess who I saw, the devil himself! He was wearing shades the same hue as mine, maybe darker. He was resting against his black viper dressed to match in a tight black shirt that showed all the right muscles in all the right places. He wore loose black pants as well. His hair contrasting with all the black around him. He is beautiful, but I was pissed at him! I only get two passes to go to the bathroom all semester. I turned to look the other way as I made my way to the left of the campus. That's here I spotted Kohaku and his friends making their way towards me. One of his friends pointed at me disrupting their heated conversation. I turned violently and made my way to Sesshomaru's car. It was the guy who owed me an explanation versus the guy I owed an explanation to! I Heard Kohaku call out my name, but I ignored him. I picked up my pace and stood face to face with Sesshomaru. He moved and opened the door for me. I stared blankly at him, he didn't know where I was looking and the same went for me.

"Get in." He ordered. I hesitated, but I heard Kohaku's feet pounding against the asphalt as he ran to me. I grabbed the door and made my way into the car. I closed my door with a slam as I watched to see if Sesshomaru flinched, but he didn't. Stoic as always. As soon as he got in we sped away, not even glancing back at a confused Kohaku.

We drove further and further away from the Tokyo skyline, just where he was taking me wasn't clear. At first I was afraid to ask where we were going but after twenty minutes of driving he tested my patience.

"Where are you taking me?" I asked with a slight one of annoyance in my voice. Nothing, not even a glance. My blood began to boil. I tried again. "Where are you taking me?" I asked more demanding than before. He still kept driving ahead. "Dam it, where the fuck are you taking me!" But as soon as those words left my mouth the car came to a screeching halt. He quickly unfastened his seat belt and made his way around the car. "Get out" I heard him say thorough the glass. And I responded with a stern no. "I said get out!" He opened the door violently and dragged me out.

"Let me go!" I struggled against him. "What are you going to? Kill me so I don't tell any one and ruin your image?" I asked him. He laughed at me, but still held me tight against him, I could feel my body react to his closeness. "I'm not going to kill you, I just want to talk to you." He said nonchalantly as he led me down a path. I had barely noticed we were in a park. "Why couldn't you talk to me in the car or back at the city?" I asked suspiciously. "I like it here."

We finally made it to a clearing in the middle of the park. There was no life there, I heard no one around us either. He sat down on a bench, but I remained standing. We just stared for a while. Until I finally spoke up.

"If it's about what happened last night, I promise I won't tell anyone, you won't have to worry." He looked up at me. "It's not that I'm worried about Rin, I'm worried about you." He said. "I'm sorry, it's my fault, if I hadn't gotten us both drunk and acted the way I did." I cut in. "It was just an accident." He kept looking at me with sunglasses on and everything.

"Was it really Rin? Was it really an accident?" I looked away to the ground beneath me. "No look at me, what if I hurt you again, I wouldn't know what to do with myself Rin. I feel something in here." He motioned to his chest. "I'm just not sure what I means." I took off my sunglasses, and looked back at him. "You did not hurt me." I took off his glasses as well throwing both at the empty space next to him. "I was a part of it too, I wanted to do it! If I didn't want to I would have stopped." I stared pleadingly into his eyes as I threw my self on my knees oblivious to the tough concrete beneath me. Now I looked up at him with sole desperation. "It's not right Rin, whatever this is. I'm married to Kagura, and apart from being my wife she is one of your closest friends." My breathing getting heavier by the minute, I was almost panting. "So you'll just ignore it, this that happened yesterday, this that you feel!" I placed a hand over my own chest to show him. "This, I feel it too." Patting my hand over my heart. "You're so young, only sixteen" he breathed out almost as if it hurt him to say it. "I am not a child. I know what I feel, and it's not something superficial, it so much stronger that if I go on like this I feel as if I might explode." He just stared at me. "Rin..."He whispered. I brought my hand to his lips as if to silence him. "I wanted to tell you before, I can't take all these things stirring inside of me. I'm calling out to you." I grabbed a piece of my shirt and brought it up to his gaze. "I hear it, inside my chest and they whisper I love you. I want to be more than just your friend Sesshomaru." I looked up at him fighting back the tears. He lifted my hand up as for me to stand. He did his trademark smirk and whispered, "I didn't know my Rin had such a way with words..."

I couldn't hold them back. He pulled me towards him. And all I did was cry. I buried my face in the crook of his neck and cried. He pressed my face against him even further.

"I lied, I can hear them too Rin, and all they whisper is your name..."

Finally I've been able to log into Since the Inuyasha series is on the verge of ending and all, I'm trying to move along this story as fast as I can. On a different note: Wow this chapter brought me to tears writing it, it reminded me so much of things in my own life, I think I've never written anything so powerful before or I guess in my perespective and how I endvisioned everything. Hoped you all enjoy!