Please! Don't leave me!!! I know it's been a long time since I updated but I have a whole list of excuses with me! whips out list Ahem.....I will number them all fancifull like.

1. My father hit me and I called the police on him. They did nothing. Figures.

2. My parents filed for divorce.

3. My dad got extremely drunk and was pushing my mom around and not leaving her alone. He locked her out of the house and was inside with my two little sisters, drunk, and we have a lot of guns. He was messing with one of the guns. My mother called the police. Three police cars were there, including a state sheriff. My dad wouldn't come out of the house. Another car pulled up and the oficer stepped out with a big rifle. The're all walking around the house knocking on the windows, trying to get my dad to come out. He finally came out and they arrested him.

4. I started highschool. I havent gone to school in four years so it was a little scary.

5. I went to a holloween dance and met a guy. I slow danced for the first time. I fast danced for the first time in public. That was scary.

6. I became part of the guy's band. It's called "BloodDrive" and it's a christian rock band. Woohoo! First practice is monday. I get to sing!!!!! LALALALALALALALALAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

You see! I have tons of excuses! And you want to know the scary part? There all true! Great isn't it? Me and my psycho family have just been living it up. I'm gonna go crazy one day. I just know it. ANYWAYS! On with the story! Which I think is excellant by the way. ::puffs up with pride::

Disclaimer- I own nothing! I swear!

sesshy: ::walks in with towel wrapped around his waist­­­:: Why are you talking to the computer?

me: ::sweatdrops:: I'm not! And your supposed to be hiding!

sesshy: Did you intend for me to live one more second in such an unclean state?

me: ::sighs:: maybe it wasn't such a good idea to kidnapp sesshy.....

sesshy: This "house" is disgusting. I demand for you to clean it.

me: Shut up or I'll cut your hair and dye whats left pink.

sesshy: ::eye twitches in horror::

Hikari was afraid. Period. She was shaking uncontrollably and her breathe came in gasps. Juromaru quickly climbed off of her, alarm and worry clearly evident on his face. She looked at him in fear. In absoulute terror. She closed her eyes tightly as painful memories flashed in her mind.

"Get away......GET OFF OF ME!!!! DON'T TOUCH ME!!!!!" she screamed at her memories.

At this, Juromaru flinched in alarm. 'i'm not touching her.' he thought in confusement. Hikari curled herself into the fetal postion and covered her face with her bloody hands. Her heartbroken whimpers greatly alarmed Juromaru and he did not know why. To him, Hikari was making awful crying noises and her eyes were leaking. He knew she was in some kind of pain and it was killing him because he did not know what was hurting her. Nothing was attacking her. Her hands probably hurt, but not enough for this sort of reaction. He slowly approached, sniffing her. He still saw no cause for her strange behavior. Hikari moaned in anguish from the pain she was forced to take so long ago.

Juromaru slowly reached out to touch her arm. She flinched in suprise but did not move away. Feeling slightly encouraged, Juromaru sat next to her. He ran his fingers up and down her arm in hopes to comfort her. Bad move.

Hikari screamed and kicked out, hitting Juromaru square in the stomach. Being caught off guard, he "oomfed" and fell over backwards. He quickly shot up franticly whirled around to see Hikari's foot as she ran from the cave. Unphased from the blow, he ran after her as fast as he could, catching up with her instantly. He stood in front of Hikari, blocking her path. She stood before him, and her eyes met his. Her flourescant blue eyes, staring at him in fear and defiance. His own eyes were deeply concerned. His dark, dark blue eyes.

"Move." was all she said. She was feeling extremely odd. Something was wrong with her. One second she's making out with this guy she barely even knew, the next she was pushing him away. Because she was afraid. She is seriously afraid of him. But at the same time she's attracted to him. And it was getting to confusing for her. Juromaru stood there still, his arms at his sides. Hikari tried to walk around him. He blocked her. She tried again. He blocked her. She screamed in her frustration and pushed him.

Atleast, she tried to. The guy was like a brick wall. 'A nicely toned, lithe, brick wall.' thought Hikari. He didn't move an inch. She pushed him again with all her might. He let her. She began to pound on his chest with her hands, her desparation to make him move showing. He stoicly held his ground, wondering why she wanted to hurt him.

Soon, she ran out of energy and her flailing became slow and sluggish with exhaustion. Juromaru grabbed her arms as she slumped to the ground, and he held her as she sobbed. He was more confused than she was. This new creature got thrown into his surroundings, she smells differant, she looks differant. Everything about her is differant than anything he had ever known. And now she keeps going crazy, making herself bleed by hitting walls that won't move, screaming, making weird noises(crying), running away from him. And then her heart rate speeds up, she starts acting even more weird, and she starts to smell.....enticing. And it makes him want to do things he never wanted to do before. Like touch someone. Touch......Hikari. Touch her everywhere. But that scares her. What was he to do? He want's to touch her. She doesnt' like to be touched. Maybe if he just held her and didn't move she wouldn't be afraid.

Juromaru layed back as Hikari fell forward. He held her to him ontop of his chest. He could feel her heartbeat against his. Hikari soon ran out of strength to cry. Juromaru held her to him tightly, fearing that she would jump up and run. Her breathing evened out and juromaru looked into her face . She was asleep.

He gently picked her up and walked to the stream. As he walked through the grassy woods, he thought of what he would do with Hikari. She wanted to get out. Juromaru had never even been out of his enclosure. He didn't even know what the outside world looked like. Sure, he had been to a place where the scienists conducted their experiments on him. It was a small, white room. He never saw how he got there, for he was unconsious when they transported him. As he thought of these things, he came upon the stream. Sliding into the water, he gently lowered Hikari underwater until only her face was left unsubmerged.

Hikari suddenly woke up with the odd sensation that she was underwater.She opened her eyes to see Juromaru holding her, gazing down at her with out emotion. Looking around she found she was in the river. The water swirled around her but Juromaru braced himself against the current. Her hands were aching with pain but she let them float and drift aroound her. She sort of relished in the pain now. All she felt was the pain. She didn't have to think of anything except the pain. Juromaru gently placed her on her feet but positioned himself to brace against the current so she wouldn't have to. He slowly took each one of her hands nad washed away the blood that was dried on. He could see that her knuckles were scraped raw and very bruised but luckily nothing was broken.

Hikari drifted in and out of reality as he continued to tend to her wounds. She dreamed of differant things; differant memories of her past. She dreamed of her parents. And her brother. She hated her brother. He left her alone, with no one to face the world with.

She half way remembers juromaru carrying her out of the cold stream and back to the cave. He layed her down on his bed and covered her up with his overcoat. ' what will i do with her?' he thought to himself as he watched her sleep. 'she wants out more than anything. if she wants out than i must get her out. i must.'

Juromaru lay down facing her, his heart ached and he didn't know why. 'why should i care if she leaves? i care for nothing. i will never care.' he drifted into a fitful sleep, dreaming of a painful memory. Dreaming of hell.

whew. that took forever. school really puts a damper on my writing. R&R!

-AngelsTears15