Author's Note: Alright, this is the revised version of Immortal Habit. I'm keeping the other one up for now for my reviews and for reference material because the copies I had on my disc and computer are long gone. I've made some huge changes right off in the prologue. Hopefully, this version will be truer to what I was aiming for in the first place.

Immortal Habit

Prologue: Dreamin' About Yesterday

Blood soaked the concrete dust beneath her, staining the pale grey rubble a dark red. Pain shot through her in spasms like fire flaring through her veins. It hurt so much that she wanted to die. She would die just like them. She wanted to join them in eternity, free from all the fighting. And she would. Just as soon as she killed this bitch.

"You won't win, Zylstra," Eternal Sailor Moon rasped and turned her head to cough up more blood.

"I already have, luv," Zylstra giggled from up above. She was floating in the sky like a dark angel with her black hair streaked with red fanning around her and her black Victorian gown fluttering in the wind. "Everyone's dead. In Jubaan at least. Once I'm rid of you, I'll finish the rest of this worthless planet. And none of your little dead senshi will be able to stop me, princess."

"The Starlights will get you," Sailor Moon warned. "Pluto will tell them what you've done."

"Hmmm, I suppose I'll have to kill them as well then, won't I?" Zylstra sneered and played with a ball of red energy. "If I can kill the White Moon's lead defense and even turn one of them, I think I'll be able to handle three gender confused bikini babes."

As she lay there, Eternal Sailor Moon realized she had never felt such hate towards another being. In the past she had accepted her enemy for what they were, even forgave them in time. Sailor Moon had never hated anyone, she loved everyone wholeheartedly; that was what she did. But this woman would never get forgiveness. Zylstra had stolen the very future of earth when she turned Endymion to her twisted way of thinking. Chibi-Usa would never be born and Crystal Tokyo was just a memory all because this woman had been jealous. Endymion was dead by Serenity's own hand because of Zylstra.

Years from then Usagi would say that it was the hate that had saved her. It let her ignore the power of the Silver Crystal and Princess Serenity that would kill her if she used them and drove her to reach deeper, farther into herself than ever before. Deep in a dark corner of her soul she found the power she was looking for. A little silver ball of power that she just had to touch to unleash. She reached out and grabbed it.

There she found the Silver Millenium's dirty little secrets. All the memories Queen Serenity had kept from her because they didn't follow the 'grand design' set out for her. So many things had gone wrong in the end. All the misunderstandings and corruption had helped destroy the Silver Alliance. If one thing had gone right maybe things would have been different.

"Cousin?" Eternal Sailor Moon looked at Zylstra in a new light.

Zylstra giggled, "Remember that, do you? Took you long enough. Too late now, though. I might have taken you out for a cup of tea..."

With that the small ball of red energy that the daughter of the Red Moon had been playing with grew. Zylstra gave one last insane cackle before flinging that ball towards Sailor Moon. Finally, she would have her revenge.

Usagi was sure she was as good as dead. The red ball kept coming closer and closer to her. She closed her eyes waiting for her death to come, in doing so she completely missed the glow that surrounded the bodies of her senshi and then transferred to her.

The power of the senshi mixed together in a silvery shield around Sailor Moon's bloodied form and protected her from the red blast that hit the shield with the force of a semi. Dust flew up everywhere, obscuring the last senshi from Zylstra's view.

Sailor Moon waited for the blast to hit her and the heat that would accompany it. She shivered, she was so cold. As soon as the thought crossed her mind, comforting warmth surrounded Sailor Moon.

Confused, Sailor Moon opened her eyes. Maybe she was already dead?

The shield flowed around her like quicksilver, never holding still. Other colors swirled in the silver: blues, greens, yellows, and reds glimmered in and out of sight. Sailor Moon had never seen anything like it before. Slowly, she raised her ungloved hand and lightly touched it.

The silver began crawling down her arm, over her chest, and down her stomach until wrapped all around her to her toes and then it covered her face. Usagi felt no fear as the silver engulfed her, it was like powering up when the magic covered her. It felt natural.

From the air, Zylstra watched in disbelief as the cloud of dust cleared. The bodies of the senshi had been completely destroyed in the blast, where they had lain there was only faint scorch marks. But the princess had survived. She was covered head to foot in silver and instead of lying on the ground she was floating, her toes brushing softly on the wreckage of Juuban.

"It's not possible..." Zylstra whispered, voice trembling slightly in fear.

The silver Usagi staggered as lumps began to form on her back. The warmth of the silver had turned hot to her skin and burned on her back. Had something gone wrong? Just kill her now. She tried to cry out from the pain but the silver just poured into her mouth. It felt like she was drinking acid, it burned and sizzled its way down her throat, changing her from the inside out.

Then, finally, the silver lumps burst open to reveal a pair of real pristine white wings and the last of the quicksilver disappeared down Usagi's throat to reveal a very different Sailor.

"Wh-who are you?" Zylstra gasped. The woman before her was not the princess she knew but still eerily familiar.

The woman in front of her had white hair, not gold, and the odangoes were heart shaped instead of round. Her fuku was pure white with the exception of a cloth with eight strips of color on the front of her skirt. Instead of the golden crescent moon of the lunar royalty on her forehead there was a golden eight-pointed star. The eyes seemed to be quicksilver; the orbs never seemed to stop swirling, color flickered through the silver like it had in the shield.

"I am Sailor Cosmos," the scout replied softly.

'I think...'

Usagi felt new power flowing through her veins. Real power. Not like the little drops that were her other transformations. Yes, she was Sailor Cosmos but she was also something more. There had been something else unleashed with this newest form.

But now wasn't the time to think about that.

Zylstra had come down from her spot in the sky. Fear told her to flee for her life but Cosmos was too pretty, so full of light, so she came closer.

"I'm going to kill you, you know," Cosmos told Zylstra gravely, stopping the approaching woman.

"Kill me gently, starry one," Zylstra replied in awe, still dazzled by the legendary senshi.

Cosmos paused for a moment. The quicksilver had done more than changed her looks and her power, it had changed how she thought as well. It'd taken the last step in the transformation that'd begun when Mamoru had betrayed her. She was Neo-Queen Serenity but without Crystal Tokyo and a world of peace. No...that was wrong. But for now, it would do.

"I shall," Cosmos nodded and reached out her hand to catch the staff that had materialized.

It was unlike the staff Sailor Cosmos had held during the battle with Chaos. Hers had been a white staff with an orb at the top and wings. This one was white with slender golden vines wrapping around it and a vicious crescent blade enclosing an eight-point star. In the middle of the star sat the Silver Crystal. It was both beautiful and deadly, a symbol to define it owner.

"Kneel," Cosmos commanded softly.

As if in a trance Zlystra lowered herself to her knees, bowing to this angel that must have been there to give her a gift. A gift for finally succeeding in her quest and destroying the last of the White Moon family.

It was with that thought she died. Sailor Cosmos has moved swiftly and silently, decapitating the woman before she had even fully kneeled. Cosmos marveled how smoothly the blade passed through bone and sinew. A faint sheen of blood covered the blade and a drop fell from the tip and joined the puddle that was growing around the body.

The only sound for miles was Cosmos' ragged breathing as she stared down. Like a puppet cut from its strings Cosmos fell to her knees into the blood, staring blankly at Zylstra with pupils like pinpricks. The staff dropped from her hand and almost clattered to the ground before it disappeared into thin air. The silence lasted an eternity as Cosmos just stared, unblinkingly, at the first person she had ever deliberately killed.

"Do you fear yourself now?" a voice asked softly.

"We fear what we do not know," Cosmos replied steadily.

"How can you not know yourself?" the voice inquired kindly.

Sailor Cosmos slowly rose from her knees, Zylstra's blood ran down her legs and over her white shoes, and turned to the voice. The ghostly form of Queen Serenity stood before her, just as beautiful as ever with her lavender hair and eyes that showed only concern for her daughter.

"Sailor Moon couldn't have done this. Usagi would never dream of it. But I did," Sailor Cosmos replied in a whisper.

"Then maybe you are no longer those people," Queen Serenity tilted her head and watched another bead of blood run down Cosmos' leg.

"I've never been anybody else. If I am not them who am I?" Cosmos asked harshly.

"You," her mother answered simply.

"Mother, what have I become?" Cosmos' pleaded wearily, it had been too long a day to unravel riddles.

"You are Sailor Cosmos. Protector of the universe. You've ascended to your ultimate senshi form. You are queen now, not I," Queen Serenity replied.

Cosmos laughed bitterly, "A queen without a country, throne, or court. Wonderful."

"You have dominion over all, my child," Serenity explained gently, "Your throne resides in the stars and your court only has to be brought forth from the darkness."

Cosmos tensed, "I will not raise them. They deserve their rest."

"What about Eve and her sisters? They had only just awoken. You cannot leave them with so much life left ahead of them," Queen Serenity spoke of Sailor Earth and her sister's the Twins of Atlantis, who had their powers awoken to avenge the destruction of Atlantis and stop their once-beloved brother.

"They will be reborn, like the others, in time," Sailor Cosmos replied stonily.

Queen Serenity bowed her head, "Horrible things will happen to them that would have been prevented by their powers."

"I will watch over them. I will die before I let any of them come to harm," Cosmos vowed. "Besides, Pluto will be with me."

"And Saturn," the former queen nodded.

Cosmos smirked, "Not even I would dare keep the Senshi of Rebirth from being reborn."

Queen Serenity sighed, "Like you could. Fine, let them rest. They will awaken though and they will know you."

Cosmos nodded. With another sigh Queen Serenity faded and left Cosmos on her own. For a moment after her mother left, Cosmos stood feeling lost. Then, with a last look at Zylstra's body, she spread her wings and took flight.