Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls.

A/N: I'm really sorry I took so long to update! It's just I've been very busy over the past weeks. But this chapter is longer than the others, I'll try to improve that in the next ones.

Chapter four: A mother's feeling

Rory walked outside the diner. She was very weak, but no one had to notice. She walked to the bus stop, slowly, feeling her new life. Thinking about Lorelai. Jess run towards her and hug her. Then he kissed her goodbye without asking anything. The bus arrived and Rory stepped inside. What would her mother think? She always knew everything, and Rory had always liked it, but this time it was a frightening thought.

Lorelai was still in the diner, thinking about Rory. What was wrong about her girl? She sighed and saw Jess running to the street. She observed him. He run towards Rory and hugged her, then, he kissed her, a short, sweet kiss. Lorelai suddenly panicked. That kiss was too sweet, too tender. She had seen them kiss before; she had seen Rory and Dean kiss before. She had never seen such kind of kiss. Lorelai suddenly realized what was wrong about her baby.

Rory walked through the crowded aisle, almost out of herself. She didn't notice the school life going around her. She walked to her locker and opened it. But life was just going on around her; she was not inside reality. She was so absent, so scared about everything. When Jess had kissed her she suddenly realized that he was her boyfriend, but not the father of the baby. What would he think? Everything was so confusing; everything was so unreal. She had found out just a week before, she had talked to Dean, but nothing had improved. Dean wanted an abortion, Rory didn't. She hadn't told anyone, not even Jess, not even her mother.

She thought about Chilton, about her future. She thought about how everything was going to change with that child. Everything she had fought so hard for, all the things she had ever dreamed about in her life. Her life at Chilton, her dream about going to Harvard, nothing was ever going to be the same as it was.

After school, Rory arrived home early, walked to her room and lay on her bed. In less than five minutes she was asleep. She was too tired to think, she was too scared to think.

Lorelai walked inside the inn for the seventh time that day. Was she right about Rory? Nothing was working well that day. Was Rory really not a virgin? The tablecloths never came, the guests complained, the food went cold and five of the complaining clients left the inn, due to bad service. But why didn't she tell her? Sookie was running from the kitchen to the dining room and back to the kitchen again, screaming like a freak, her food was never bad, she yelled, it was just cold due to the tablecloths. Was it with Dean or with Jess her first time? Michel yelled at Sookie and two more clients left the inn, this time they were scared about that insane french man. But, was she really pregnant? Nothing was working that day. Lorelai decided to leave early, that way she would have some time to think.

She didn't want to arrive home just yet; she wanted a cup of coffee at Luke's. She arrived there still worried; she entered the diner and saw Jess. That boy might be the first one for Rory. That boy might be the father of her baby. Lorelai was so sure that had happened between them that almost felt betrayed by him. Like he had something with her daughter that she would never accomplish. It was a very stupid thought, she said to herself, because she was Rory's mother, not Rory's boyfriend, there must be some things that she shared with Jess but not with her. Even though, that made her a bit jealous, her daughter was becoming an independent woman right in front of her eyes.

When she arrived home she found her daughter asleep on her bed. She walked inside the room and sat down on the chair at Rory's feet. Lorelai stayed there for about an hour, thinking, until her daughter woke up.

"Hey" Lorelai greeted "I'm worried about you" she started "Tell me what's wrong"

Rory sat on her bed, and after a moment she said: "there's something I have to tell you mom"

But she stopped right there, waiting for an answer. When Lorelai remained silent, Rory continued:

"I'm not a virgin mom, I did it for the first time with Dean. It was about three months ago, when we where still together. He asked me if I really loved him, I said yes, even thought I was not sure. He started kissing me more intently, and suddenly asked me if I wanted to do it. I felt trapped. I had to. I had just said I really loved him, I had to do it with him, and so I did. But a month after that we broke up, just because I felt used, I felt like he wanted to make sure I loved him, but I was not sure, and he knew that. Now I'm pregnant with Dean's baby."