A/N: This is to everyone, I know that my spelling is HORRIBLE some of it is typing errors some is jus my own horrible spelling. I'm doing my best to work on it and to edit it. I'm sure you can notice improvment. As for the spelling of Lily i am sorry my friend's name is Lily but she spells it Lilly, to be different. So i'm kinda stuck in the habit i will fix it for now on. Also when i have time i will try to go back and edit the previous chapters. But for now please just be happy with the fact that the future chapters will be more edited. Also if any of you would like to help me with editing my story i would GREATLY appriciate it. :)

ChinChila1369: No, the dance class was the NEXT dance class AFTER the frist one, i'm sorry for the confusion. if you or anyone eklse get confused feel free to ask me. :) Also just inc ase anyone was confused about it, Lily and Makayla are not sisters they just call themselves that. I'm sorry this is my frist serious ficcy so i'm still learning i will try hard to not be confusing. :)

H8 2 break it 2 u: As i said i'm sorry the story is confusing in the future i will work on it. I don't really understand why you are confused about Remus being her bf. It is just another version of the story. Maybe not what really happened in the actul HP books, but it is called FANFICTION for a reason. I'm sorry about the McGonagall thing i din't know how to spell it. :) Also thanks for pionting out the layout thing i hadn't realized.

allygater: Thank you, very much........and as i explained earler i'm sorry about the Lily thing. I hope that it is cleared up. :) A/N

James lay in bed staring into the darkness just able to make out the ceiling of the dorm as he had been living here for hours trying to sleep and his eyes had adjusted to the pitch black of the room. He was more angry about what was keeping him awake then the fact that he was awake. It was all her damn fault if only she hadn't gone and been born beautiful. He moaned and threw a pillow at the ceiling off the dorm. It hit and thumped back down on the bed landing on his head and he gave off a muffled string of violent curse words. It was all her fault that he couldn't get HER out off his head. Her image was stuck before his eyes like a paused movie. She had worn short spandex black shorts with white green strips on the sides. With a macthing sleeveless belly top. The outfit had clung to her curves displaying them teasingly. She had yanked her long thick red hair into a messy ponytail. She had looked more then just desirable or beautiful, she had looked like a goddess. God why couldn't he stop thinking of her like this? He hated her..............ok so maybe he had used to have this childish crush on her, but she had refused him over and over in till he had learned to hate her. But why were these feelings coming back? NO they weren't the same feelings. The feelings he felt now were hotter more demanding, making his body constantly ache for her.

Burying his head in his thick starch white pillow he bit hard on his lip tell finnally sleep came and eased his troubled thoughts.

Lily sat at the breakfast table next to Cassie listening to her, Kayla, and Marisa chatting happily she just couldn't bring herself to join in. Last night her dreams had been haunted by a certain Potter why couldn't she just forget him? She didn't know why but she knew that she had to do something before she went insane. She looked down at the bacon and eggs piled high on her plate. She just couldn't bring herself to eat them. Instead she picked at them boredly. She sighed and dropped her fork on her plate. She stood up and swung her bag over her shoulder. "Hey you guys I'm going for a little walk before class, to work off all the food i ate." She turned and escaped before they could object, she just needed some time to think. "But you didn't eat anything" Cassie called confused, after Lily. She walked along the edge of the lake wacthing as a few 1st years threw bread crumbs to the Giant squid and it swam to the surface gulping them down as if it hadn't been feed in weeks. She laughed bitterly. She wished she could be as careless as the 1st years. Bitterness rose up into her mouth almost like nausea. But it wasn't, nausea went away bitterness didn't, it just kept building up more and more. She felt a hand on her shoulder she spun around yelping loudly.

"Shhh. It's me Lily." she smiled at him hoping her smile didn't look as crappy as she felt. "Hey Rem." He traced his hand down her cheek gently. He looked into Lily's eyes with such intensity such great love that she wanted to fall to his feet and beg for his forgiveness. For what thinking another guy was hot? No it wasn't that it was the fact that he could love her with such depth and she only care for him mildly. Don't don't get her wrong she loves Remus with all her heart. But it just didn't feel like that one true love. You know? What was i talking about any ways i loved Remus i just was scared of commitment right? Wrong. She didn't convince herself so instead she leaned into Remus and put a hand on either side of his face kissing him roughly and deeply. She caressed down his back with gentle hands then ran fingers through his short hair. Then imagined his hair being longer and black with this messy and arousing look to it. Lily jerked away roughly gasping and turning her back to Remus quickly. So that he couldn't see her close her eyes against the tears threating to spill like wild fire. Hot and passionate. "I have to get to class." Lily bent up and grabbed her bag almost then ran to the castle.

Lily stared at the ceiling of the classroom, currently she was taking deep breaths with her eyes closed imaging butterflies and fluffy clouds, imaging anything, anything that is besides James Harry Potter. God dammit she's did it again she'd thought about him. God he was like a pesky fly.............Ok a very, very sexy fly that just wouldn't die when you hit it with the fly swatter. She sighed. "Ms. Evans i would be very pleased if you would pay attention! " Snapped Magonagal, breaking Lily's reverie. "I'm sorry Professor i had umm.... some thing on my mind." Lily stuttered in her own defense.

"Well i hope it was transformation, you have NEWTS this year you can't sit around day dreaming." She snapped without mercy for the wincing teenagers in her class.

After class Lily walked towards the owlery, she had to send off a letter to her parents. They insisted she send a letter every week. Which pissed Petunia off because her parents never begged her to send letters from her boarding school in France. She'd write the letter in the owlery and spend sometime with her owl Rêve. Rêve was pure white with pacthes of ebony and brilliant porcelain blue eyes. His name was french for Dream. Makayla appeared next to her. "Hey sis." Lily smiled at her "Hey. How's it going? "

"Nothing much i was thinking of going to the owlery want to go with me?"

"Well that's where I'm on my way too." Lily replied.

"Cool"

Lily nodded for a response and the headed to the owlery together. Lily quickly looked over her letter to review it, after quikly scribbling a few sentences.

Dear Mom and Dad,

Hey how are things going at home? School is going really well. I'm confident about passing my Newts. unlike others i know all i have to do is work hard,study and be honest. But I've got loads of homework to do so unfortunately i can't write a real long letter. I started a new Dance class this term it's really interesting so far. This term we are learning swing dancing. Funny that i already know it huh? Bet that's not a common skill. Well I'm sure you know who James Potter is, He also knows swing dancing. We are going to be partners in a performance near the end of this term. Will be the stars of the show. Well probley not but that would be nice.Well i really have to go. I love you guys lots and miss you tons.

Love,

Lily

P.S. Makayla says hi.

She folded the letter, it would do, there was no need for them to know anything else. She sealed it and handed it to Rêve. She petted him gently. "Take this to mom and dad ok?" Rêve hooted in answer. She kissed the top of his head, feeling his silky feathers caress her soft lips. Then she stood back and wacthed him fly away.

She looked over at Makayla who was still writing her 50 page novel to her boyfriend at Millerscrat, a wizardry school in America.

"Kayla i have to go so I'll see you at lunch ok?"

Makayla simply nodded in response.

Lily picked her book bag up and swung it over her shoulder heading out into the hallway.

Llly hurried down the hall and tripped on a crack falling with a quit scream. Someone caught her in their arms she leaned on them for a minute,out of breath She enjoyed the feel of the muscles that were pulsing beneath the cotton of his shirt. When she thought this she jerked away and looked up.........it was James.

She turned and started to run but he grabbed her wrist. She screamed and tried to break away from him but he was too strong for her. He didn't bench press 265 and not get muscles to show for it.

"You can't run from me forever,Lily."

She loved the way he said her name,the way it rolled off of his tounge in that all British way. God this couldn't be happening. She loved Remus right? She just had lustful feelings towards James that's all right? Now Lily wasn't so sure and it terrified her.

She couldn't answer him and simply started crying and sagged in his hold. He gently let go of her wrist. She dropped to the floor and hugged her knees to her chest sobbing.

"Lily...."

He pulled her up by her arms and hugged her close she rested her head on his shoulder.

He looked deep in her eyes. She couldn't help but look into his eyes. They were a deep,deep enchanting brown. They were like wells that you could drown in and enjoy dieing.

That scared Lily even more, knowing it was true.

He laid his lips on her's and kissed her chastely.

He pulled back a little.

"Tell me if you want me to stop."

Lily leaned in and pressed her lips on his again opening her mouth slightly and tracing her tounge on his lips inviting him to open them. He accepted. Lily slipped her tounge in his mouth and explored the taste and feel of his mouth it was a sweet and almost kinda tangy.

He pulled away from her.

"My turn"

He leaned in and began tasting her, the spiciness that filled her mouth like burning cinnamon. She leaned into him taking the kiss a bit deeper. He pressed her on the wall.

She dug her finger nails into his back a soft moan pouring out of her mouth and swallowed by his.

"Mr. Potter!!!!!! Ms. Evans!!!!! that is very inappropriate for the hallway 10 points from Gryffindor."

They jerked away and had the grace to blush.

"Professor, i'-i-i"

"Keep stuttering Ms.Evans it won't help you. At least now i know what has been distracting you from class." Magonagal turned on heel and walked away.

Lily looked at James her face turning redder then her hair.

"I've got to go." she made a run for it.

He didn't try to stop her, simply wacthed her retreating back, more confused and aching then before.