KMK: Isn't that kinda of a un-needed question? LOL
Shortgirl424: Thanks. Ya I know poor remmy. But he'll live lol, that wasn't meant to sound mean.
Greengrl:Yeah I know it was sad writing that part put the it wouldn't be so tragec and depressing I get teary eyed just writing it lol. Oh yeah love the hugh jackman action he was paticularly fine in Swordfish swoons lol. You're an X-Men fan too? That's cool I LOVE x-men now I have someone to talk to it about you should e-mail me sometime at LOL it's not that saucy is it??? LOL poor you, cuz it only gets worse wink wink .
Jazzlyn's Mama: You'll see………keep reading next chapter after this.
fluffy pink thing: LOL what do you think I'm doing keep reading you'll see plenty of Lil and James action if that's what your looking for. :p
Alright so here is the long awaited for post. J:
Lily felt the sun glare into her eyes she winced. Then she felt her body. It was sore "down there" and her proof of maidenhood was no longer there. Her whole body ached and she felt something sticky on her inner thighs, that made this seeming nightmare so much more real. Remus had been gentle but she still had been a virgin and besides the whole time tears had been streaming down her face as James's moonlight face flashed repeatedly before her eyes. She had cried for him regretting that she was giving herself to Remus and hating herself all the more for it. She had wondered how one could be so separated from another's passion as Remus had moaned heavily above her. Tears blinded her sore red eyes. The whole time she had wanted James's, she still wanted James. Tears rolled softly down her cheeks. She felt like a dirty tramp. And she felt like she was betraying Remus yet she had done nothing but admire James and a few kisses nothing large right? Wrong.......she felt like crap. And no matter how hard she tried she couldn't stop the tears that were flowing like twin rivers of pain down her face. She hadn't found that she was desperately in love with Remus by having sex with him she found only that she was in love with James, more then she ever could have imagined.
She Felt like
her world had shattered around her. she wiped away the tears and yet they kept coming. She hugged her knees to her chest and buried her face in her arms which were resting on her shaking
Knees Which muffled the sound of her helpless sobs. Remus was gone out of the bed and she had a feeling she was late for her second class already and yet she didn't care. Nothing seemed to matter anymore but this overwhelming pain and longing. She felt sick and dirty and broken. She just wanted to be held and reassured comforted.
And she loved Remus just not in the way she thought she had. She had thought giving him this would assure her how much she cared for him, instead in changed her whole view on things when it came to Remus. She felt again that stickiness on her thighs and knew that it was her was blood and she was still in her lingerie which was surely ruined. she pulled her soft robe around her for reassured and comfort.
It seemed like nothing would be al right again.
And in the midst of these feelings Lily forgot that the illusion spell on the bed had worn off long ago.
James came back up to his dorm he was supposed to be in the hospital wing for a headache but he obviously wasn't, he was cutting class. he needed to finish his homework. he got to the dorm and heard quit female sobs from Remus's bed. He walked over and was shocked. His jaw shaking with awe. Lily was holding her knees to her chest sobbing pitifully. Her brilliant red hair was mussed and in dreaded tangles and she wore a wrinkled green robe. The robe was short and from this angle he could see a flash off creamy white thigh. But it wasn't lust he felt it was concern.
"Lily....what......" She raised her tear filled eyes and saw him, she let out a sob and buried her face in her hands sobbing harder. Then he relized what had happened. She must have been a virgin.
He walked over to the bed and lay down next to her pulling her into his arms. Lilly buried her head into James's broad shoulder and his body was pressed on her's. Not in lust but in comfort. She was no longer sobbing or crying but her body was still shaking. James's knew it was supposed to hurt for the girl the frost time but why was she crying like this? what was wrong? panic for her filled him.
"Lily he didn't hurt you did he"
Lily sat up anger flashing in her eyes.
"No you bastard he didn't hurt me"
James looked ticked off. "Well you were crying and it was obvious what had happened and that you were a virgin!" he snapped back.
"Well if it weren't for you it wouldn't have happened!"
"What do you mean?"
"I was trying to prove to myself it was Remus and not you that i love. But all i did was prove that i don't love Remus that way at all, i love you. So now not only am i a dirty tramp but i am betraying Remus's love. Happy"
James looked shocked.
"You"
Lily lost the anger and just looked exasperated for a minute.
"Yes i love you, is that all you heard of what i said"
He shook his head no.
"Then why are you looking at me like that"
His voice came out quitely and softly caressed her skin.
"I've been waiting for you to say that for years"
She looked at him with tears in her eyes.
"James......"
"I love you lily."
"This can't happen."
"I know lily, i know"
He held out his arms and with a sob of half love and half sorrow she lay in his arms holding him as close to her as humanly possible. James lay pressed against Lily's warm side he felt pain in his chest stabbing through his heart, and if he had been alone he would be crying but he had to be strong. They lay together for a long time basking in each other's love soothing each other's tears and tears. The sun softly glowing on them. Then with sudden knowledge he relized that Lily still had blood on her inner thighs.
"Lily honey come on you need to shower we need to be out of here by lunch that would really suck if someone walked in here they would get the wrong idea. Lily let out a moan of objection.
"I don't think i feel up to standing that long by myself."
"I'll shower with you"
He felt her body tense.
"No, not like that ,i-i meant i mean no funny business just to help you out i promise"
She relaxed and mummered
"ok".