Jin sat sobbing in that corner of the alley all night long. The next morning, Hanaka and Runaku came looking for him, expecting he would be back by then. One look at his face and they didn't have to ask if he'd gotten to talk to Touya. It was obvious he had, and things had not gone his way.
"Come on back with us." Hanaka murmured, taking his hand.
Tears still fell from Jin's eyes. "A' hav ta' leave soon. A' swore. A'd go far away, ne'er bother him again. Ne'er again..." Jin sobbed, his heart broken.
Hanaka and Runaku were both deeply concerned for their wounded friend. "Just stay a few days then, get some food and such to take with you." Hanaka pleaded. As always, Jin gave into the flower girl, unable to deny that kind face.
"He'd been so excited too... he was nervous, yes, but anxious... to be able to see the one he loved again, even if he planned to stay out of the way. And now, this. Apparently Touya wouldn't accept his apology. Poor man. He'd actually hoped, I think. I think he'd actually even been almost something like happy. Worried, and sad because he was pretty sure Touya was perfectly happy with Yusuke and the others, but he'd been so excited to be able to see Touya again in real life." Hanaka said to Miwako and Runaku.
"Yes, I'd agree. But I also know he's not too surprised that Touya scorned him. The memories, the realization that he did, in fact, rape his friend, is what surprised him most. As hurt as he was before, he still had some miniscule chance that Touya would forgive him, or would even stay with him. But now, even that pathetic, not even half chance, is gone. He has no desire to live anymore. He only takes care of himself because he thinks of each day as another one to live with the knowledge, and therefore pain, of what he's done, and he feels he deserves living with that pain and more over his head. He doesn't let himself die because it's too easy. That sad, pitiful dear. All he's been through, yet he still thinks he hasn't fully suffered for his sins, so he does this." Miwako sighed, shaking her head despairingly.
Runaku sighed with Miwako. "All that and more. The other day he asked me to get a picture of Touya and Yusuke together, to remind him of what could never be his. He just can't suffer enough. I wouldn't get him the picture and he just got upset, though he's too whipped to complain any. And I found out: he intends to leave tomorrow, regardless. He said he swore he'd get away and leave Touya alone, and he won't break that." All three commenced a drawn-out, group sigh.
"I want to go with him. To take care of him." Hanaka said. Runaku and Miwako looked up in surprise.
"You do?" Miwako asked. "You realize he plans a hard path full of misery for himself?"
Hanaka nodded. "I hope I can stay him from a little of that."