Akira knocked on Jin's door. Jin dropped the wind holding up Touya's picture on the wall, before listlessly saying, "Come in…"
"Jin, you remember me? It's Akira." She said, not giving him time to answer. She carried a tray of food into the room, setting it down on Jin's desk, and looking curiously at the candles and incense. "Are you religious? I never see you at the shrines."
Jin shook his head. "What's the point of bein' religious if the only one who can fergiv' ye refuses?"
Akira looked at Jin inquisitively. "So what are the candles and incense for?"
Jin scowled at Akira. "Take a wild guess. I don' know what yer intentions are, but whether they're good or bad, I suggest ye leave well enough alone! I've told enough people, I don' feel like tellin' anymore what happened!"
Akira looked at Jin in surprise. "You're right. It's my damn cat side again. Always having to get into everything, that's me!" Akira smiled at Jin sheepishly. "I'm sorry!" ((Anime sweat drop!))
Jin sighed. "If ye meant well, then I'm sorry fer havin' snapped at ye. It's just hard…I'd done some pretty stupid stuff in my life, but I'd always been able ta' skate by on a miracle. One day, a miracle didn't come, and I've regretted it since, ye know?" Jin shook his head, as though to clear it of his memories. "I just wish… I dunno…"
"To forget?" Akira asked shyly.
Jin's eyebrows snapped together. "Gods, no! I already did tha'! It t'was a hard fight ta' win back those damn mem'ries; I won't disgrace them or him by forgetting again! I won't do him tha' dishonor again!"
Akira's eyes widened. She couldn't get it. Every time she put her finger down, Jin would say something else. "Then… what?"
"I… I'm not sure… maybe, another chance? I don' deserve it but… I'd like one more chance, I guess. Or… I'd like to undo the whole thing, so I could be back there, with him still…. Just make it so it never happened." Jin shook his head. "But what's the use of wishin'. Just wastin' yer time, mine, and whatever deity's bored enough ta' listen ta me."
Akira shook her head. "No… not wasting. If you ever want to talk… I'd like to listen, in fact. You don't even have to tell me, just… talk. Or even if you don't want to talk, and you just want someone there with you. Let me know, I'd be glad to help."
Jin nodded. "I'm surrounded by so many good people. It's a bloody shame I can't thank you all enough. Shame, I'm constantly pining for the one I can't have. But fer what it counts, Thanks, Akira."