Chapter 3-Now I See Why

I was there for 1 month. Emma left and JT and I were spending more time together. You know as friends. Alyssa comes and vists me when JT's gone at work and Mandy and Destiny are at school because she has nothing better to do since Jay and Trish are gone to.Alyssa and I have become really close friends too. Jay and Alyssa fight all the time about the dumbest things. Thinking that her husband has a talk show like Dr. Phill don't you think they would have like the perfect marrige. It's funny because 30 seconds after they rip eachothers throats off they start making out and saying how much they love eachother and how their sorry. America must be the country for love because there is a lot of making out here. Alyssa is really preaty she has flipped black hair with red tips, pail skin, about 5' 7", and she has piercing green eyes, she listiens to that scarey goth music too.I used to be scared of her when she first came to visitbut since I got to know her she's really nice. She's like 5 months pregnant too. You know Jay isn't that bad looking either. It's not like I have a crush on him or anything though so don't get any ideas.

Alyssa and I where sitting down and watching Napolian Dynamite in the living room. When the front door opens.

"Mommy whats a hag?" Destiny asked

"Why are you asking what a hag is Destiny?" I asked

What vocabulary is my daughter learning at school.

"Mandy said I was acting like a hag" Destiny said

"It's true she said it I heard her" Trish said

Trish was Jay's kid

"She said it on the bus" Destiny said

"Aunty Manny, she's totaly running my social life at school" she said

"You have a social life at the age of 5?" I asked

"5 1/2 to be exact and yes I do have a social life how else do you think I became so popular " she said "I can't tell people she's my cousin because then JohnnyMay won't talk to me" she said

"Well than I guess Johnny May just won't talk to you." Trish said

"Trish" Alyssa said

"But mom she's not saying someone is her cousin because she wants a guy to like her she is not cool." she said

Trish was just like Alyssa. You never would have guessed it wasn't Alyssa's like biological daughter. I mean she has a mixture of Jay and Alex in looks but she has Alyssa's style I mean she has long black hair and she puts like blush on her face so she'll look pail she just looks like Alyssa.

"We got to go Trish Lilly Hogart." Alyssa said

"Why I wanted to stay and play with Destiny and Mandy" she whined

"Because your mommy is comming in like half an hour and we have to get you ready." she said "Now help me up"

She held her hand out and Trish was going to pull her up but she couldn't so I got up and helpd Alyssa.

"Thanks " she said "I'm just not used to this elaphent in my stomach"

I walked her out and she and Trish left.

"Now Mandy your dad is coming home soon and I'm going to tell him what you said about Destiny" I said

"Fine tell him. What's he going to do tell me to go to my room, ground me" she said "He's changed ever since you came here"

"What do you mean he changed" I asked

"He never used tomakemegoto time out or into my room . Before you came ." she said

"Just because I came dosn't mean he changed. Maybe he was planning on making rules like that before" I said

"It was always just me and daddy because mom was always gone shooting her oscar award winning movies." she said "So we didn't have any rules untill you came"

"Mandy Yorke stop it and go up to your room" I said

"Your not my mother you slut" she said and she ran up the stairs

Destiny came up to me and started pulling on my shirt

"What Destiny?" I asked

"Why does everyone think your a slut mommy?" she asked

"I don't know sweetie..I really don't know" I said

JT came home at like 10 at night. 3 hours later then when he was supposed to be home. I was in my pj's watching The Vllage and eating ice creame. .

"Hi Manny" he said

"Your 3 hours late." I said "Your daughter stayed an hour later then her bed time waiting for you and she didn't fall asleap until half an hour later because she was crying since you didn't come home"

"I know..I'm sorry" he said

"Who took care of the Mandy before I came?" I asked

"We always sent them over to Alyssa and Jay's if we came home late " he said

"Oh" I said

JT came and sat next to me

"Ice creame?" I asked offering him a spoon of icecreame

"I'm not hungry" he said

We where sitting there for about 10 more minuets in silnce watching the movie. It was the part where the blind girl went in that room with her dad and felt the thing and screamed I got so scared I jumped on JT. He looked at me and I looked back at him. Then he kissed me. It took me a while to comprehend what he just did to me because I hadn't been with a guy since I was 14.

"I still love you Manny, even after I found out that you killed Ashley, after you dumped me for Craig, after you went into that mental place, I never stopped loving you, Emma was my rebound" he said

I just stayed quiet looking at him, he's JT and he's not availble and he's married to my sister. I just don't know what made me do this. I kissed him back and we started making out next thing you know clothes are coming off and then I relized what I was doing. Kissing my sisters husband. I stopped. I looked at JT

"Now I see why everyone calls me a slut " I whisperd

I got off of him and grabbed my shirt.

"What are you talking about?" he asked

"Today your daughter said I was a slut and now I see why" I said

"Mandy said that?" he asked

"Yeah... and I can see why" I said "I was just about to sleap with my sisters boyfriend..wait husband I was about to sleap with my sisters husband.... I am a slut."

"Manny" he said

And I ran upstairs. I jumped into my bed and thought to myself. Out of desperation for a guy I was going to sleap with JT. Someone who was like a brother to me. He practicly is my brother, my brother in law. If I wasEmma I would have been so crushed the person I thought loved me most did that to me. I pulled out my diary from under my pillow.

Dear Diary,

Today I did the unthinkable I was about to have sex with JT. I was about to desive my sister. I'm supposed to start a new life a better life. I was supposed to be nicer and not as sluttier. I mean I have a daughter. I have to be more responisble and act like a mom. I will never forgive my self for what I just did.And what do I do tell Emma that JT dosn't love her. She wouldknow I did something because she would think that I sudduced him to not like her even though I didn't. I don't think I'll be able to go to sleap today I have so much on my mindnow. Mygod Manny you just made out with JT. Well I got some thinking todo.

Luv Ya,

Manny