Chapter 4- The Start of an Affair

I still couldn't get what happend that day out of my mind. It was all I thought about. JT and I were aquared around eachother now. Rarly ever talked. And what made it even worse was when Emma came home the next week. She said that they just didn't understand how she worked and she had very high standerds that they just couldnt full fill. And shewas fired from the job. She was moody for about a week and didn't come out of bed. I brought her breakfest every morning and lunch and dinner also. Doing all this reminded me of when I had to do community service. I had to help that old lady in the nursing home she was so lifeless and always yelling at me. Thats who Emma reminds me of right now, a life less old lady. I was bringing Emma breakfest one morning. And she talked to me. Usualy she didn't she would just like stare at me and then I would leave. Like I was her slave or something but I can't complain because I mean she is letting me stay in her house.

"Manny" she said

She looked gross she hadn't baithed in two weeks, her hair was greasy, her makeup was all gross since she hadn't washed it off since she came back, she just looked like a mess.

"Yeah Emma" I said

"Am I that bad of a reck,do I look that bad ?" she asked

"No Emma you look fine" I said There goes my lies again

"No Manny tell me the truth" she said "My daughter told me last night that I looked like a monster, a scarey monster, she actually asked me to take off my mask I wasn't playing in the movie anymore."

"Well maybe if you took a bath, you would look a little more decint." I said

"Manny let me tell you something." she said "People do think I'm a mess, have you seen any of those tabloides?"

"No, why?" I asked

"Because in those tabloides they say some much stuffabout me it's not even funny....they say I'm cheating on JT and going out with Jesse McCartny, or Aaron Carter, or Usher, they even said I was going out with Ryan Cooley even though he is really hot I would never do that." she said "I love JT so much and not even if the hottest guy in the world asked me to marry him or even to go out with him for cofee I would say no because I am so madly in love with that guy and I know he is madley in love with me to."

Thats what you think

"Then if thats is whats in your heart don't care about what those other people think., because you are Emma Nelson famouse movie star, who dosn't care about what other people think you are..right?" I asked

"Yeah I'm Emma Nelson famouse movie star who dosn't care about what other people think of me." she repeated

"And I am going to take a shower and clean my self up and go tell my husband I love him with all my heart." I said

"And I am going to take a shower and clean my self up and go tell my husband I love him with all my heart" she said

She got up on her bed and put her fists on her waist.

"Because I'm Emma Nelson and I can do anything" she shouted

"Yeah" I yelled putting my fist in the air

She jumped off the bed

"Thankyou Manny, I don't know what I'd do with out you." she said

"Oh yeah and after you tell your husband you love him you have to help me make Thanksgiving dinner." I said

"todays thanksgiving?" she asked

"Yeah" I said "It's thanksgiving"

She ran and took a shower. And I went down stairs. JT was in the kitchen. So I walked up to him.

"JT" I said "What happend the other day it was nothing I was just I don't know confused and I...I did that stuff with you but it ment nothing...you may still have feelings for me but I don't have feelings for you and I never could because my sister is upstairs and she is madly in love with you and would do anything for you so I can't see her heart broken. Knowing Emma we never know what she could do..we can just be friends."

"Ok aslong as we don't seem so aqward anymore that would be great." he said

"Ok than...whos coming for thanksgiving dinner?" I asked smiling

Emma and I made dinner and everything was going great. Alyssa & Jay came over with Trish. So there was only 3 extra people well maybe 4 because of Alyssa and she as eating like a pig.

"Gee hunny bunny your eating like a pig if you eat anymore the babies going to explode." Jay said

"I'm eating for 2 I mean this baby is huge the doctor said it's probably going to be 9 pounds." Alyssa said

"Are you sure it's going to be able to come out of you I mean you were so skinny" he said

"Were so I'm not skinny or attractive anymore." Alyssa said

"It's not that..." Jay started

"So I'm fat" Alyssa said "Your cheating on me arn't you just because I'm not your skinny little twig anymore"

"I'm not cheating on you lets think this through" Jay said

"I don't want your dump Dr. Phill crap." Alyssa said

"Ok I won't give youmy dumb Dr. Phill crap" he said

"I'm fat." Alyssa said starting to cry

"Come on you guys this is thanksgiving we're supposed to be happy and greatfull for what we have." Emma said

"Yeah like our family" JT said

"Yeah baby we're supposed to be happy for what we have, I mean I'm hapy that I have you." Jay said

"I am happy for what I have, I'm happy that I have my life and my baby and Trish." Alyssa said

"Thats it?" Jay asked

"No..and my friends like Manny and JT and Emma..oh wait and the kids like Mandy and Destiny" Alyssa said

"Thats it?" Jay asked

"Yup thats it " Alyssa said

"So your not thankfull for me?" Jay asked

"Nope I'm not thankful for men who cheat on their girlfriends because their pregnant and fat and can't full fill there needs." Alyssa said

"You guys stop fighting I mean your probably gonna start making out in half a minuet." Emma said

"No I'm seriouse" Alyssa said

"But Alyssa I'm not cheating on you I swear you are the most beautiful person in the world." Jay said

"Really, you mean it" Alyssa said

"Yeah" Jay said

"Well to bad..I don't care if I'm the most beautiful person in the world I'm fat and you know it and now you want to get a divorce or something" Alyssa said starting to cry

"Fine then I'm leaving!" Jay said getting out of his chair and walking away

"Jay don't leave" Emma said "This is supposed to be time to be with your friends and family"

But he didn't hear her because he was already gone

"I'll go talk to him" I said getting out of my chair

I grabbed my coat and ran outside

"Jay come back here...Jay" I said running after him

"Manny lets go for a ride." Jay said

I went into his car and we started driving off

"Where are we going?" I asked

"I don't know somewhere" he said

We were silent for a while when we stopped at this forest place. I swear I thought he was going to rape me.

"Jay don't be so mad. Alyssa is just stressed out from being pregnant. I mean all girls are like that when their pregnant I was Emma was, I'm sure Alex was." I said

"No Alex acts that way all the time" he said

"Oh....but I'm sure alot of girls are like that when there pregnant I mean it wouldn't be fun to carry that big thing in your tummy all the time everywhere you go." I said

"Your right..it's just I'm not used to it...Alyssa is ussualy so nice and quiet you know I just don't like the pregnant her." he said

"I don't think anyone likes the pregnant person weather you are the person who is pregnant or not." I said

"Thankyou Manny I wish there were alot of girls like you." he said

"There are..there are even girls who are better than me..like Alyssa" I said

"Well thankyou again" he said and he gave me a kiss on the cheek.

Ok I haven't been that truthfull with you guys. I have a crush on Jay. A big crush on Jay. But it's wrong because Jay is married to one of my best friends. My god what is up with all these married people. I know what I did was wrong but it felt so good. I kissed Jay and we kissed for a while. This time un like JTI didn't stop it. I didn't stop anything we did. I don't even rember it all I know is that it felt good. I got home really happy smiling and singing. I'm suprised no one was suspiciouse of why I was so happy. Now I just felt warm inside and nothing could ruin that.