Chapter 7- Change of Plans

Life was really diffrent without Alyssa. I was alone once again, all the time. Emma was always doing her interviews and her photo shoots, the kids were at school, and JT was always gone doing his stuff to. I was very depressed once Alyssa died, I stayed in bed just like Emma. I didn't even go to her funneral because I know that I would sob uncontrobly. I felt as if I had killed someone again. I had no clue what to do. I know that I didn't intentinly do this but it is still my fault. I got really hungry because I locked my door so no one could get inside and bring me something to eat. Emma knocked on the door saying she had food for me but I would never open the door. I was starting to get really smelly to. I looked at the time to make sure that everyone was gone and I took a shower and unlocked the door. I got out it was really brite. I got some breakfest and then went outside to check the mail. I looked at Jays house and it was for sale actually it was sold. I put the mail back in the mail box and I walked and knocked on his door. Trish opend the door.

"Aunty Manny you came out of your room!!!" she said "And we're moving."

"I can see that." I said

"Daddy said he needed to get away from old memmories." she said

"Oh is your daddy here?" I asked

"Yeah" she said "Dad" she yelled "Aunty Manny's here"

He came down stairs

"Hi Jay" I said

And he shut the door more like slammed the door. I rang the doorbell.

"What do you want Manny your going to wake up my baby." he said

"Jay...I'm sorry. Your right it is my fault and I'm sorry ok I'm really sorry." I said "I lost a really good friend in Alyssa and you lost the wife in her." I said "But we can't blame eachother for what happend we can just blame me"

"Ok" he said

"So can we talk?" I asked

"Yeah" he said gesturing me to go inside

We went into the living room and sat on the couch.

"Where are you moving to?" I asked

"I'm going back to Canada this big L.A. life is well to big for me." he said "I'm going with Alex and the kids."

"So you and Alex are back together?" I asked

"Yeah..we're trying things out again." he said "Maybe I will end up being with my highschool sweetheart."

I stopped beliving that I would be with my highschool sweetheart along time ago but if Jay could do it I can to.

"Jay when are you leaving?" I asked

"In two days." he said

"Ok well I'll come back later I have to go clear stuff up." I said

"Bye Manny" he said

I left and I ran home and grabbed the phone.

"Hello" Craig said

"Craig.." I said panting

"Hi Manny" he said "I'm suprised that your calling me...Emma told me what happend to your friend Alyssa and how you wouldn't come out of your room and stuff."

"Yeah...Craig I've been thinking about what you asked me" I said

"Yeah whats your answer?" he asked

"No" I said

"Your kidding right?" he asked

"No..I'm not kidding.....but I do want to live with move to LA we can start a new life and family here."

He was quiet for a while

"Ok..I'm moving to LA" he said

"You are?" I asked

"Yeah, I am " he said

"Ok Craig I love you." I said

I know you guys are thinking. Manny your being so stupid..he raped you, he helped put you in mental place for 5 years, he went out with someone who was making your life a living hell. But you guys I desirved it. I really did, I mean Ashley didn't die by her self ok I killed her. Craig and I have been suffering for too long. We need eachother.

"I'll be in LA in a week or so" he said

"I love you Craig." I said

"I love you to Manny" he said back

"Bye" I said

"Bye" he said

And we hung up

I was over drawn with joy. I was going to keep it a secret until he came. Ok maybe I was going to tell Emma or something.