Dear Craig,
I am sorry for all the hurt I have caused you for the last 10 years I have known you. I don't even think what I'm about to do will be enough from the pain you have endured from and with me. Go back to Paige and start a family with her. She needs you and she loves you, more then I could ever love you. Make sure she takes care of my babies as if they were her's since she can't have any. You have to take care of Destiny & Angel also as much as you can and tell them I love them everyday I just can't be with them right now. Make sure they grow up not making the same mistakes I did. Make sure they don't end up wearing sluty clothes and seducing someone elses boyfriend into having sex with them, because it's not worth it. Take care of my sister Emma for me too, and tell her I still love her, even though she should hate my guts right now. Tell JT to tell Emma that he loves her everyday, because he needs her as much as she needs him. Wish Jay and Alex a happy life for me and tell Jay I am also sorry for all the hurt I have caused him. Craig take care of yourself also, you are a good guy, a great friend, an excelent husband, and an outrageously good dad, and I am very greatfull to have had your kids and to have married you. I love you with all my heart. And I'm going to miss you because just a milli second away from you feels like an eternity. It's my time to go. I have caused way to much hurt for a lot of people these past ten years, and I feel that what I am doing will repay those who are suffering because of me. So take care Craig, and please do everything I have told you to. I'll be watching over you.
Luv Ya,
Mannuella Marie Manning
PS. Read this letter to Emma for me
I folded up the letter and put it in an envelope. In Big Letters I wrote Take Angel & Destiny to Emma's before you read this, then go home but don't bring them with you.
I taped the letter to the front of the door. I went into the living room and stood on the chair. I grabbed the rope and thought about what I was doing. Was I sure I really wanted to do this. I got off of the chair and put my Lindsay Lohan CD in the CD player. I put it on number 8 and repeated it the song was disconected.
Sleaping awake, and awake when I sleeping
I've got a dry kind of thirst when drenched
On sunny days all I can see is as shadows
I'm not above being under
I'm at the brink though I know that I'm empty
I always hide when it's my turn to seek
My only belief is not to have faith in beileving
Before I begin I'm over
Disconected
Broken off again
And I"m only not lonley when I'n lonley by my self
Disconected
Numb in pain again
I always bactrack forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconected
Quietly loud while noisily silent
Keep holding my breath
While I'm trying to breath
Swimming against all of my waves and rapids
I only win when I'm losing
Disconected
Broken off again
And I"m only not lonley when I'n lonley by my self
Disconected
Numb in pain again
I always bactrack forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconected
I just wanna live my life sedated
Cuz I love driving myself away
Dysfunctionally sane don't give a damn
I can't comerehend what I understand
Disconected
Broken off again
And I"m only not lonley when I'n lonley by my self
Disconected
Numb in pain again
I always bactrack forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconected
I was never going to be able to touch my kids anymore, laugh with them, cry with them. Then I thought it would be better for them and everyone else. So I put the rope around my neck and tightend it. I thought again am I really going to do this do I really need to do this is it worth it. I was scared right now and I started sweating.
"It would be better for everyone if I did this." I said "Forgive me father for I have sinned"
And I jumped off the chair. I sqwirmed for a while trying to grasp for air . My feet dangiling in the air, my hands around my neck my finger nails digging into my skin trying to get the rope off. Then everything went dark.
The End :(
Authors Note-
OMG you guys can you belive it 3 stories. It was really fun writing them and I hope you enjoyed reading them. Sadly there is not going to be a fourth part to this story since Manny is dead. But being the Manny fan I am I am sure I will write another story about her. When I get some insperation. So yeah thankyou for all the wonderfull reviews.
Luv Ya,
Ashley Akwa aka CassiSteelfan120