A/n: Welcome to chapter fourteen of Something Beautiful. The end is near! This chapter is full Freddy POV unless noted somewhere. This is a response to chapter one (Something Beautiful by Cauterize).
Disclaimer: I've got it! The solution to buying Dashboard Confessional's Vindicated and School Of Rock is...... lint! Now I just got to start saving up my lint.
Dedication: I dedicate this chapter to Swimmerkitti(FanFiction)
On with the chapter!
Chapter 14: Vindicated
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
Nobody ever told me that losing the one you loved would be so hard. There was nothing I could have done to have made her stay. I love Katie so much, that I am dangling by a string hope that she will one day come back. Back to my loving arms.
I am vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
(Regular)
The last few weeks had been really hard for Freddy. In the span of less than a week, he had gone from a hard core rocker, to a depressed homebody. He stopped hanging out with the band and playing the drums completely. No one other than him knew why.
He wanted to be vindicated.
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
Am I the reason she left? Was I not good enough for her? I can change. I am changing.
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that
I am trapped in my feelings. I haven't been to band practice, or even talked to anyone from the band. Everywhere I look I see Katie, and I want to find her and bring her back. I'm so motivated. But yet I want to be vindicated.
I am vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
Am I selfish by wanting Katie? Am I wrong to keep this inside? Am I right by not stopping her sooner? Why don't I know? Why?
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
I think I am taking this too far. I tried to stop her didn't I? Its not like she's dead or anything. Right? What am I saying? I'm crazy for her and with out her I am going to go crazy.
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
Just let me go. If I can't be with her, what good am I to anyone? Why can't I be vindicated?
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
Why don't I know what to do? Should I go after Katie? I mean she was the love of my life. Should I just move on? Forget everything she meant to me? Should I?
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
No one can make this choice for me. She's not coming back, so why should I go after her after what she's done to me? She didn't have to leave. She wanted to. There's a difference. Maybe I should move on. I will move on.
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
I think I've been vindicated.
A/n: Woohoo! I finished another chapter! Let me know if you guys want another response chapter!
But for now here are my thank yous:
Joeys Forum:
MarissaLesPaulGibson (Chapter 12)
WhiteLie (chapter 12)
Chi (Chapter 13)
WhiteLie (chapter 13)- I still know who you are haha
Yuneek-girl (chapter 13)- Thanks! I try my best
Kevin's Forum
My post with that fiction got deleted so I can't thank those reviewers, so if you have read and reviewed thank you and cookies for all!
FanFiction
Kaka (Chapter 12) I love your user id lmao
FinniganIrish (Chapter 6) Avril rocks my socks lol
Swimmerkitti (Chapter 11) Will do!
Swimmerkitti (Chapter 12)
Sebbysbabe (Chapter 8) Good Charlotte is OK.
Swimmerkitti (Chapter 13)
Rock On!
--Nicki--